A Person's Grief

(7 Months later)

7 months after Kuroka's death Shiro undergo a rigorous training and these 6 months Shiro didn't disappointment Issei and Rias about his training, even though it was hell for others for Shiro it was like a walk in the gym and to Rias and Issei they were happy cause their grandson wasn't giving up even though they rise the intensity of the training.

Even though Shiro was a 3 year old his body was a 6 year old with a showing muscles to his upper and lower part of his body.

Shiro was happy about his training but he was not happy about his grandmother's condition that the doctor said that his grandmother only has a little amount of time left before she's gone. Shiro was devastated because first was his mother now was his grandmother but his not going to let this up cause the person behind to all of the things that happened to them he will pay it a thousand fold.

And even Shiro don't know what's going to happen to his grandfather now that his daughter is dead and next is his wife life, Shiro's going to think that his grandfather are going to kill himself and much to his fear Shiro didn't even know that a month after the event of his grandma that his fear are going to be true.

Only 2 months left until Shiro and Souma's birthday are coming, and Rias is becoming weaker and weaker day after day. The doctor said that his grandmother only have a week left even though Shiro knows this is happening, he still can't help but be helpless about this like his mother Kuroka's death.

Helplessness is what Shiro is feeling right now that day is coming. Shiro was powerless about this he was not a Messiah or a God to stop this, no he was just a little boy who only want a family's love. Even from birth he was separated from his father and brother, lost a mother from a young age and now his grandmother.

Now that this is what happening Shiro is almost in a mental breakdown because of what's happening around him, even he himself now think that he was the jinx around his family's misfortune.

This is what Shiro was thinking when he was come back from his thoughts when Rias was calling him from the chair. Then when Shiro look at Rias couldn't help but in thoughts again because even though Rias was weak right she still look a healthy woman from the outside but Shiro know his grandma is hurt right now, though if you look at it Rias look like a fallen goddess if this was Shiro's opinion he still couldn't be at awe at his grandmother's appearance. That if you look at Shiro's grandfather Issei it feels like he was mold from a god's hand itself because of his appearance.

Shiro couldn't help but think this is why his mother is a beautiful woman because if this was your parents then your lucky to have them even if you can't have two of their traits but at least one then your good to go. This is why you can say to Shiro to be a good looking inherent by his grandparents and his parents then his appearance is far enough to say that if he grow up Shiro can be a ladies man to others and they can't help but be jealous and be envy and others to be at awe to think of their sexuality if you ask them.

Then again you can't blame their appearance, Shiro was again came back from his thoughts when Rias was calling him.

"What are you thinking so deep?". Rias asked Shiro when he was in thought.

"I just can't help but be at awe at my grandma's appearance, I'm pretty sure you and grandpa have a lot of fans because of your appears and I'm wondering if gonna be like that too when I grow up". Shiro smiled then answer Rias question.

"You know your good at complimenting others, I'm pretty sure every men and women will vomit blood when you said that and sure enough many will admire you when you grow up maybe have a fan club yourself you know

And maybe find someone you'll fall in love like us and your mother to have a family yourself". Rias replied to Shiro.

"Nah, I don't want to fall in love yet and it's annoying cause ones you'll be happy second it's your destruction forever". Shiro said to Rias.

"Your right about that part but your also wrong, because when you find the one for you you'll do anything to that person even if their annoying or not but also the opposite will do anything for you even if you annoying or not. And again find someone that accept whoever you are even if you come from the depths of hell and she'll just love you and everything about you, this is what love looks like there's always the happy, sad and hard times that come your way even though it's still hard to get through it but it will be getting good if you have someone that stay by your side and to also help share your pain to her that your getting in you feelings so to get you through your hardship". Rias gives advice to Shiro.

"That's not it, she's will be my everything once she step foot in my life grandma. She'll be the person my whole world revolves around it, I want to be with her laugh, cry, joyous, sadness, anger, trust and love in her whole moments together with her. I want to have a family of three kids, a twins and a girl I don't know about the twins to be two boys, a girl and a boy, or whatever who goes first or last I just want them to live and be healthy life. But the situation I'm in right I don't think I can a have love life right now or in the future in this lifetime grandma". Shiro replied to Rias about her misunderstanding to his answer while thinking about the future of his if he can have one.

"Then that's good I thought you'll give up on your life right now because of this situation we're in, and I really don't want that one of my grandsons be a single and alone in his whole life and waste it away just like that". Rias was worried in his grandson thinking in his future.

Shiro just smiled about his grandmother's straight forward answer that she really care about his life, this is why he love his grandmother so much even in a tough situation she still care about others rather than her self.

(1 week later)

It was August 26, 2008 a month left before Shiro and Souma's 5th birthday was coming. Shiro and Issei was inside the house to pick up some Rias stuff and about to go back to the hospital, but then Issei phone was ringing about the hospital then he pick up wondering what was happening when Issei was having a bad feeling also Shiro was feeling the same having the anticipation to know what's going on.

When Issei heard what happened about the hospital and Rias, Issei heart dropped then ordered Shiro to go on the hospital on a hurry to the driver. Shiro really didn't like the feeling of this when he also had this  about Kuroka when this was happening. Shiro was hoping that his prediction wasn't right even though his grandpa didn't tell him anything.

When Issei and Shiro arrive the hospital and when the doctor sees the two he said to them, " When you left the room she ask me that did you two leave and I said yes, then she said that's good I can leave without seeing their expression when they see me pass away and then she just closed her eyes then her heartbeat was getting lower and lower we panicked the I checked she already don't have her pulse. I thinked she just doesn't want yours painful expression when she died".

When Shiro know what happens Shiro run to the room Rias was staying and see's Rias was laid in the bed with a happy expression in her face. While Shiro's face was pale as a 

white sheet and Issei who followed Shiro the the room was losing color.

Shiro didn't know what possess him but he started to break every object in the room while crying and yelling, Shiro just came back from his senses when Issei grabbed him from behind to stop him to break more things into the room.

Then Shiro looked at Issei and said, "She look peaceful ain't she grandpa? 

Can we do her funeral as soon as possible could you do that grandpa?". Shiro's voiced was hoarse when he asked to Issei while his eyes were red from earlier.

Issei heart was being squeezed when he looked at his one of his grandson pitiful look, thinking he'll never to make him do that again he already lost his wife and daughter he couldn't afford to lose one of his grandsons Issei swore in his heart then said, "I'll do it as soon as possible okay?". Issei answered to Shiro.

"That's good, can I just stay here for a few moments please alone?". Shiro asked his grandpa.

"It's okay take your time, I'll be outside talking to the funeral company about your grandmother's burial just ask anything if you want something okay? Issei replied to Shiro.

"Hmmmmm okay". Shiro answered.

"Then I'll be going". Issei said.

Shiro just sat there staring at his grandmother's corpse with her smiling expression for a few hour, that Shiro didn't realise that time pass when he was just staring at her grandma when Issei called his name.

Then Shiro and Issei proceeds Rias proper burial where many people attend at Rias funeral before they buried her, while this was happening there's someone was happy inside when he saw Rias and Issei expression when Rias was being buried.

(1 Month later) (Separate 26, 2008)

It's been a month when Rias died Shiro still can't move on but Issei did though it hurts when she was reminded with Kuroka bit the bright side Shiro is still doing his training from all of that happened to them.

Shiro was walking in the hallway of  the main mansion in the family when he was thinking what to do today because it's his and his brother's birthday while walking he didn't realise that Shiro was in front of the door of his grandparents room, when he smell of metal that it's strong because of all the hard training all of Shiro's senses were heightened that he became familiar of the smell of blood.

When Shiro smell this he rush to open the door when he didn't even knocked the door when he saw a bloody scene that will forever imprinted in his mind for the rest of his lives, his own grandfather Issei Akairou was stabbed in the heart and bleed to death with his own dagger while both holding his hands in the dagger that stabbed his own heart.

Shiro hurriedly come to his grandfather's side to checked his pulse when he couldn't find it in his grandpa's cold bloody corpse, Shiro panicked when he saw a two bloody note's beside Issei's body and Shiro look at it.