Her Confession
When the prince entered the room and saw the young lady, the embarrassment of his earlier actions immediately came back to his mind.
He wiped his face with his hand, quickly averted his gaze from Muyan, and hurriedly rushed onto the top of his bed while covering his.
Upon lying down, even though it wasn't yet evening, he promptly fell into a deep sleep, just to avoid any further interaction with Muyan.
Due to his overwhelming sense of shame, he refrained from having both lunch and dinner, despite feeling famished.
He still couldn't muster the courage to face the beautiful lady, which is why the prince continued to sleep, battling his hunger as he avoided any contact.
Muyan's face bore the traces of her concern for Yutu. She could sense his avoidance, and it hurt her as well. Muyan tightly hugged the young man as if she was longing for him, even though they were already beside each other.
Ling Yutu woke up due to the maiden's sudden hug, but he didn't show it. The prince simply observed the events around him, as if trying to figure out what Muyan would do while she appeared to be sleeping soundly.
The surroundings are now very dark because the girl didn't turn on the light so as not to disturb her loved one in his deep slumber.
Meanwhile, Muyan is speaking in a very soft and affectionate voice that the young man can still hear.
"I will only give you my heart. I hope you will give me a chance to be your woman. You know what? I don't know why I felt hurt when you're ignoring me. Darling, I know that it sounds ridiculous, but I really assumed that you like me too just because of that kiss. You gave me hope to be your woman. I hope when you wake up you will confess what you really feel to me."
Muyan is feeling very sad now, especially as the thought crossed her mind that the prince might have just played with her, considering she's only a captive turned servant. But she pushed aside her thoughts and continued talking.
"Darling, I felt like you didn't want to see me anymore. I thought, because of that kiss, we would begin our relationship. Did I misunderstand what happened? I was just fantasizing about something that won't happen, right? But if your love is real, me, Muyan, won't hesitate to welcome you in my life. If you can't be mine, maybe this will be the fact that I cannot accept. It will always bother my heart and break it into smaller pieces. I won't experience peace if you're out of my sight."
The prince was hurt by what the girl said. He really wanted to offer her genuine affection, but he felt too shy to express it openly.
Due to the pain the young man was experiencing, he found himself thinking, "I love you even though you didn't know it, but there's no reason for me to show it. I am sorry, darling. I am sorry for being this weak." After Yutu uttered these words silently in his mind, he continued to listen to the girl who was still speaking. He wasn't done confessing his true feelings yet.
"I love you with all my heart. If you will court me, I won't say no to you. I am eager to say yes since I want to become your wife in the future."
The princess' fall for the enemy prince was indeed profound. She had many suitors. Almost all the men in the places she visited developed feelings for her. But why is it so difficult for the person beside her to love her? Isn't she worthy of being loved? She's beautiful, intelligent, and kind, after all. Almost perfect. What is she missing? Why does the person she loves never care for her?
The girl took a deep breath. Even though it felt like her heart was being pierced due to the intense pain caused by the young man, she continued speaking. She had no intention of stopping her narration until she had conveyed everything she wanted to express to him.
"If tomorrow you won't confess your love, I will do my very best to unlove you. I am not the type of girl who will keep chasing someone who doesn't have an interest in me. If you're really unwilling…" She didn't finish her statement because she suddenly remembered the very sweet kiss from the young man. "What's with the kiss then? Does it mean anything? I am so confused because you gave me mixed signals. Darling, if ever you like me and you're just shy to confess, let's drink some wine together. Let's get drunk together until you tell me the truth. Don't worry, I will prepare myself if I hear you say that our kiss means nothing, and you don't really want me. Through this, I will have a perfect reason to stop loving you." The girl felt very alone after letting go of the young man's embrace.
She hugged herself at this moment to provide the comfort she needed. The pain she was feeling was truly overwhelming. She covered her face with a pillow and began to cry.
"W-why d-did y-you h-hurt m-me s-so b-badly?" She asked in a hoarse and faint voice.
The young man felt pity. He blamed himself for not understanding love.
"I love you. I'm sorry for hurting you." He said this in his mind.
He couldn't do anything to console the girl from her intense crying, as he didn't want her to realize that he was still awake. He didn't want her to feel uncomfortable upon realizing that she heard what he said, including her sobbing.
Now, Yutu no longer understands why, when he hears the cries of the woman he loves, it feels like he's been stabbed in the heart due to the intense pain he feels. He wants to escape from feeling this pain. He's no longer used to it. It doesn't feel right anymore. To prevent himself from getting hurt even more, he forced himself to sleep.