Night at 1:00 Radha woke me up and asked for the earphones. I gave it to her and again thought of checking the messages. There was no reply due to a network error. I felt a bit bad and I deleted the messages I've sent. Then there was a signal and I received a message "ya say na". I was embarrassed.
" Nothing serious just general talk," I said to hide my anxiety after seeing the reply.
" ha ok, wassup madam" he replied.
"Recently I have been having some dilemmas I wanted to share that with someone" I was thinking of how to start a conversation.
" This is my number ********* call me". This reply gave butterflies in my stomach. He was willing to help me.
"Ok" I was happy. I wanted to call then but I thought that I should sleep because next they I had to attend the workshop and it would be ugly if I carry dark circles under my eyes.
We talked some time about how things are going on. In the middle of the conversations, he asked me several times what was my problem.
With his every reply, I had my feelings grow for him rapidly but I didn't want to give hope to myself. I was helpless and I couldn't control myself.
With that excitement, I slept and I woke up at 4:00. Finding the institute in this new city was arduous. Although language was not a barrier, I gave in to my social awkwardness.
We finally found the venue, attended the workshop. To my surprise, I made a lot of friends. They were all cheerful and cheerful at interaction. Then I understood that not all people are difficult. Choice of people is an important aspect.
During the journey I couldn't find an opportunity to talk to him. after 2 days we returned to our town and college started as usual.
With this, I started to invest my time in my studies and tried not to have useless thoughts. At least I thought that I am forgetting him. Life was a cakewalk during those days.
It was a year for me to settle my feelings. Then while thinking about my future, I decided to try studying abroad for a master's. That was a luxurious thought considering my family's financial status. I still wanted to give it a try.