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"sometimes we do things for people we love, even though we wouldn't choose to do those things for ourselves"

I never did it for anyone before, this is the first time today, I asked someone to fix his room. I was a lazy girl who didn't work for herself. maybe I am turning, love is a strange thing, I heard from many people a person became so change when they fall in love with someone. I don't know about my feelings yet. Is this is a love? I am not sure about this, does Peony thinks like me?

oh shit, what am I doing? I'm thinking about nonsense...

Peony has gone to sleep. I should have to sleep now because I have to go college in the morning and find some part-time job. I am not alone anymore.. now I have a responsibility. Peony is now my responsibility he didn't know about world... In this world he just know myself.....

I lie down on the bed.. and said to myself... oh myself don't be sad one day every things became good. I look happy and in funny mood but I suffered most in my life... there are somethings you cannot explain to anyone, even when they been explained to you, over and over, almost since the day you were born.... I am a girl whose family leave her in childhood I don't know about my family.. only one thing I remember, it's a rainy night, I am sitting on bench... watching other kids with their parents they are eating ice-creams, pastries and cake but I am alone crying on bench....

In my school I have no many friends.. Brooke and Ethan are first who became my friends... and Peony is my dream boy....

I think I became insomnia patient.... I have to sleep now, why am doing overthinking?

turn off the lights and go for sleep.....

I wake up in the morning and stretch the body. Then put my hand on my heart and say...

Dear self don't be sad, you are not worthless.. things are going to be okay. maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow, but eventually it will be okay... everything became all right.. myself you are a strong you have a ability to do any thing....

Hazel are you awake...I am hungry...Peony knock on door....

Yes peony just wait a minute I am coming.....

I toasted some bread and boil eggs for peony....

Peony you have to eat well and close the door now am going to the college...put the dishes here after eating...

Hazel will I stay alone at home? he speak with sad expression..

yes, are you wanna come with me....

yes I want to come with you... please...

okay you get ready, I have kept some clothes for you, wear them....

its good you have to understand this world.. sometimes it's good go to new places and meet new people...

my favorite thing is to go

where I've never been