A Convict

PLEASE BE WARNED, THIS STORY IS DISTURBING SO PLEASE READ WITH A BIT OF CAUTION

Life itself is hard even with the challenges being thrown is nothing but snowballs, easily solved, easily evaded. But there are times where a problem becomes a blizzard, an avalanche of snow, a problem that'd easily wipe everything. Yes, that's what happened to me. I sat with an awkward posture.

The vast snow land, the pine trees dyed white from the snow, the silence yet a gruelling cry can be heard, it is from me. On front of me were two dead bodies, the snow dyed red as their blood slowly leaks from their wound. A gun was pointed at me yet my focus was on the two dead bodies, my parents that died, protecting until the very end...

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault it's all my fault it's all my fault it's all my fault it's all my fault it's all my fault it's all my fault" I mutter, quietly on myself. If only I spoke back then.... I was cowering, my hands protecting my head, crying, not befitting of 20-year-old boy.

"This guy's a cry-baby lol" the bearded man pointed his gun on my cranium. I didn't care, I was still in delusion, despair and regret.

I remember a week ago, me and my dad were chopping and preparing some firewood, my mom preparing all the food inside. Harvest was great even with the heavy snowfall, business is booming. We live in the outskirts, far from any other houses, it's an ideal life. Only the buyers come here. December 18, the day that someone came, not someone but a crowd of people, one of them wears an anguish face. I wonder what do they need. They brushed me off, went directly on our house, they grabbed my dad, pinning him on wall as he struggles.

"You're... Under Arrest" the guy puts out his gun on his holster, my mom looking at him with a worried face and I at the door sweating after I ran.

"Woah... Wait a minute, ████ right? What did I do?" my dad, sweating profusely were muttering such words.

"You're suspected of the murder of the chairman whose house is not far from here, an axe beside his dead body were found and your name is engraved on it. You're a lumberjack and there's no other suspect" the guy holding him firmly says. I can see someone from the crowd smiling wryly yet I didn't speak, I'm too scared to speak. My dad didn't resist, he can't do anything with such solid evidence. After a few days... We were brought to court, and with such evidence, we lost the case. They asked me everything, what we were doing at the night of the murder. [December 15, the night of the murder, I can clearly remember that night, we were happily singing with our radio running wild. Singing Christmas songs for the upcoming celebration, with his chainsaw, he never uses an axe except when preparing fire wood, he cuts through the pine tree while I replant some. We were drinking apple juice on that cold night; it was a fun night for us since it's going to be a big pay check if we were to sell this tree.] Yes, that was the thing I were supposed to say but from the glare of the people around me, the angered face, it left me swallowing my own words, looking pathetic on front of the crowd... In the end we lost...

December 25, we were given a chance to plea our case. I suddenly heard gunshots from behind me, a bullet goes just beside me, killing an innocent chicken. I looked at the direction where the shot came from and I saw were the guy from yesterday, the one that's smiling wryly along with a dozen more people armed to teeth. I putted all my strength on my legs as I began to run, I reached my house where my dad hugs my terrified mom

"RUN! WE HAVE TO GO!" I shouted on top of my lungs, breathing heavily as I notice a wound on my arm, I was shot but thank God not Fatal. Blood drips down and my dad looked at me with horror in his eyes.

"████ what's going on?"

"We have to go!" I grabbed their hands and even though my injury hurts, I still persevered and led them. The floor board creaks as we got in basement where me and my dad built an escape route to the forest.

"████.... Y... Your arm" a trembling voice of my mom, her hands trembling from my grip. I ignored her and continued to run and finally arrived on a hatch where the exit was. We heard footsteps just behind us, so again we ran as fast as we could. Shots were fired as we three goes to the thicket, they have spotted us. We ran and ran, I've taken shots on my ankles but I continued, I let my parents go first. My body were failing, I feel my consciousness fading out. Well at least they got to escape. I rested my back on a tree as I watch the men slowly approaching. Mom held my hand; dad have stood on front of me with a stance.

"Why?" I looked at them with my blurry eyes.

"We're family"

"Together we die" despite them saying that, they were protecting me.

[Thump]

Their body fell, blood spilling out of my mom's head, my dad full of holes as he falls.... They were dead.... It's my fault, if only I could have fought them and bought some time, I've taken down a brown bear with just me alone but why did fighting didn't cross my mind. I stared as the blood slowly dyes the white snow, my body was trembling, not by my injury alone but with my grief....

"Alright I'll say it again.... YOU WILL KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT AND I'LL LET YOU LIVE, IF YOU TRY TO RETALIATE, THEN SAY GOODBYE TO YOUR BRAIN" I was done reminiscing the past moments when I finally felt the cold barrel of a gun that's pressing on my head. My eyes have lost its life, I cannot move, I'm in pain, I'd rather die now.

[cli]

The trigger was squeezed yet it didn't fire

"Damn, we Russians are quite lucky, aren't we?" he laughed as he puts ammos on his revolver. He finished and so I closed my eyes...

"Then---"

Silence, I didn't feel pain but when I opened my eyes, there were nothing but fallen men, tranquilizers on their neck and the guy on front of me is already dead. I was spared...

"Young man. How... You?" a man approached me along with his 3 colleagues. His stature isn't that high, his skin was almost pale but he extended his arms to me. His Russian is also not fluent but I understood.

"I..." I can only say that, my wounds were starting to ache.

"Worry. Not...." one of his companions wrapped my wounds with efficiency.

"Thank you" I said; the girl that treated me just nodded.

"We... hunting animals but didn't expect that we...gone encounter that kind of 'Animal'"

"I'm grateful but my parents..."

"Is alright. They protect you till last" they helped me stand up. I was still able get up but my vision started to fade and I collapsed..... After that I don't know what happened. We got on a trial where the men that killed my parents were imprisoned, we won it because of the guy that saved me.

"Hmm what do?" he putted his hand against his chin and got into a deep thought, I don't have any relatives that I know of so I was asked on where I'd stay, my house was already burnt so there's no turning back.

"Ah! My... Sister said that need someone take care kids... She maybe needs you"

".....?"

"We adopt! Go Japan! meet sister then start new life" he smiled

"Japan…." going to another country never even crossed my mind, mainly because it's too expensive

"Yes! Don't worry, all good!" he's rather enthusiastic

"But it's too expensive...."

"OH? Money? Don't worry, have lots"

"Ah...."

"We go after a month; my friend teaches you all basics of etiquette and language!" his voice really has a lot of energy into it.

"Certainly" a man that looks younger than me bowed. And so, learning started, it took me a lil while but I easily learned. A month flew by and then it was time to say go bye to my hometown, to venture out and forget the bitter past. We arrived though I was a complete stranger, these guys are kind. Everything was a new sight, there's a lot more people but I didn't mind, they treated to some of the street foods and my blonde hair and jacked build started to gain attention; not to mention I was a bit taller. I just silently nodded with a smile whenever someone approaches me.

"Hannah nee-chan!" it was sunset when we arrived to said house, I was feeling a bit nervous.

"Oh, you've arrived..." a girl with a calm face, a beauty that I'll never see on my hometown, she was with a child so she's a mother....

"N-nice to meet you" I bowed on front of her as a greeting.

"Oh! Is this the guy you're talking about?"

"Yes, he's a kind fellow so please take care of him"

"Yes" that was a rather fast conversation. They took me in, me and Hannah-san sitting on a couch, she served tea for me, just like said, she's gentle.

"Hmm what's your name?"

"Uhm it's ████" I lowered my head

"Oh, that's a nice name. You don't have to bow often though..." she said with a giggle.

[ooga]

The kid from earlier have climbed the couch and been clinging on me.

"Yuka-chan seem to get quite a liking to you" she sipped on her tea as she I can see a small smile on her face. No good I might fell for her, she already has a child

"Mama! I'm home" suddenly the door opened. Two person got in. A boy and a girl.

"Who's this?" the girl gave me an unpleasant look.

"N-nice to meet you" I lowered my head

"Like I care? Fix damn accent too" her voice is irritated...

"Ren! Watch your attitude!" Hannah-san raised her voice as I lower my head, hiding my face.

"Tch" the girl just walked away...

"Nee-chan still is as stubborn ha-ha!" the boy said. He's eye were swollen though, a blackeye.

"Alex! What happened to you?"

"Nothing, just a had a fight heh, I won though!"

"I see, at least you're safe"

"Yo!!" suddenly he approached me.

"Uh"

"You look muscular! How can I be like you?" ah I see, a rather lively youth, isn't he?

"Just... Hmmm just exercise..." I said as I try to hide my wound and my scratch mark from a bear.

"I see! And don't hide your scars! You should show it with triumph" he said.

"Ah...."

"Alex, nice to meet you" he held his hands out to formally make a handshake

"I'm ████" we shake hands

"Nice to meet you" his knuckles bear a lot of scars and from the looks of it, he's probably 15 years old.... He then went to his room and Hannah-san sat beside me

"Sorry about Ren, she's just like that" she's caressing my thighs then quickly removed it.

"No, it's alright, I just got here so there's no reason not to be vigilant of me..."

"Ah.... Thank you for accepting my brother's request though.... Ever since my husband died, it's been hard, I've been busy on the company he have left, I just had no time to spend for the kids" I see, it really is about taking care of kids... But why me? I'm unfitting for this job.

"Hmmm... But I don't fit quite well in this kind of-" I spoke but was interrupted

"It's alright, with you, I feel like Yuka would be a lot safer" ohh so the one I'm taking care of is Yuka-chan

"Ahh..." I can't utter any other words; I'm just mesmerized by Hannah-san's beauty.... Though, she might be well over her 30s, her smile still looks cute.... Even with all my praises, I don't plan on falling for her, I don't want to disrespect her late husband.

"Well then, show me what you got"

"What I got?"

"I meant what can you cook, I mean that's the most important one Hehe~" Oh God too cute.

"Ah yeah! I'll cook some dinner to prove myself so rest easy Hannah-san"

"Drop the honorifics "she let out a small smile.

"Ah well then Hannah I'll cook." I decided to cook a cuisine from my hometown, they'll probably like it. Yuka-chan seems interested, she's been watching by my side. And yes, they did like it. Especially Hannah, seems like her husband back then has been the kitchen master....

"Uhm, ████, do you mind if you follow me" Hannah approached me, I was playing with Yuka at that time.

"Sure thing!" I was about to get out of my crouched position but Yuka have ridden on my shoulder, thankfully she didn't fall. After a bit of walking, we arrived on front of a room, the door seems recently polished...

"Is this room alright with you?" Hannah opened that door and showed me a decent sized room, there's already a sink, a stove, a bed and some desks. It's an alright room.

"Yes, this is more than enough" I said.

"Oh, by the way, I've already made one of the empty rooms in here as a shower room.... But still, a bath would be a better though...."

"Bath?"

"Ohhh... You aren't familiar with it?"

"Yeah..." we only had showers back then, taking a bath is just when we're too tired.

"Well let's go together later" she smiled gently. Together? Hmm, I don't really mind

"S-sure" when I said that I saw Yuka sleeping on the bed, she must have been tired pulling on my hair all night.

"Ara... You don't mind Yuka-chan sleeping with you, don't you?"

"Yes..."

"Well then I'll call you when the bath is ready" she captivated me again by her beautiful smile... I laid down, beside Yuka that's been sound asleep. I have no way of dealing with children so I just patted her head as she sleeps, her calm breathes and silent sleep talking is rather relaxing. I looked up at the ceiling, thinking deeply if I've really made a good decision, to forget the horrible thing that have happened at my home and just to start a new life.... I think it is a good decision... Still, I feel a bit nervous and uneasy, maybe because it is my first time here.

"████? Are you still awake? I finished preparing it" a knock on the door woke me up from my delusions.

"Ah yes, coming" I have already prepared my clothes and towel so I went out with Hannah-san. I didn't expect for her to invite me but this is just to gain trust. We walked slowly as Hannah talks to me, she's very good with conversations. We went in her room, it was big even with an unnecessary big bed, well I mean two person sleeps on that bed.... The room smells great too, tidied up and very organized. This room has its own bathroom, so she welcomed me in. I felt weird to go in but she insisted.

"Don't be shy, it's alright" she calmly said. As we got in, she promptly undressed me with a calm look on her eyes. I may be taller than her but she's a lot older than me so there's nothing wrong for her to treat me as her own child. She has also removed her clothes. She ordered me to sit down on a small chair and started to shower me. She gently strokes her hand on my back, her fingers through my hair, it was a soothing feeling... Occasionally, she'd touch my thing but she isn't bothered by it and so Is myself. She thoroughly cleaned me and her soft hand just massaged me. Even her not really that big breasts were pressing on me, I didn't mind since it's a normal thing. Well, my dick got hard though, it's just a reaction. [Don't be ashamed, it's alright] she said to me after she notices it. She finishes washing me and she washed herself. I couldn't do it since I'm not familiar with this and my hands were rough so it would probably feel unpleasant anyway. She let me take a dip on the bathtub and she also went it, together with me. I didn't expect that. She laid her back on my chest as if she's on a bed. Now that I think about it, she has a rather small form... How do I say it...? A petite body yes. But lust is something that I'm good at controlling so this much isn't a bother to me. Though my dick has been completely hard, slightly sandwich by her butt and the head poking at her back. She didn't show any reactions at all, she's just relaxed, her eyes closed and just breathing steadily. It's a cozy warm bath after all.

"It's been a long time since I've had someone to bath with" she let out a gentle sigh as she slowly presses her back.

"..."

"Ever since his death, I've been grieving and been lonely.... Still am surprised how calm you look even that horrible thing happened to your parents." her voice is rather lonesome.

"Ah... you've heard it?"

"Yes...uh sorry for bringing that up"

"It's alright, I've already past that, after all, I got to keep on looking forward for the future"

"Ahh... You're a calm fellow aren't ya? I wish I could move on as fast as you" she said, the tone of her just kept getting sad.

"That's..."

"Heh. It's been 2 years now yet I still cry at night because of it"

"You really loved him that's why. He might be happy up above knowing that you still think about him"

"Yeah... He has left me a treasure before he left, Yuka, Ren and Alex. Yuka's just 3 years old and wasn't able to see her own Dad yet she's much happier than me..." her tone has come back to it's usual.

"..."

"Well, uhm..."

"Hmmn?"

"Your thing has been poking at me..."

"Ah well sorry about that..." I tried to stand but halted midway.

"It's alright. I'll give you a hand" her face showed no sign of fluster, she is just calm.

"Uhm"

"It's alright, it's just something to help..." we went out of the bath and she gave me a blowjob. Despite how much I wanted to resist, she's just good with it... Well, she did have a hard time swallowing my thing because of how small her mouth is... I ended up Cumming inside her mouth She swallowed it while maintaining a calm look and we went back to the tub. It's quite awkward but the way she lays his back on me, means that she didn't mind that at all. We finished, feeling relaxed and refreshed. She thanked me for coming with her and bid me a goodnight. When I got in my appointed room, Yuka is still sleeping on my bed. So, I just went and sleep beside her, I can't bother to wake her up, I don't know how to stop a kid from crying. My uneasiness vanished and I was able to sleep peacefully.

"Mownin nii Chan!" a cute voice greeted me as soon as I open my eyes, it was Yuka-chan playing with my hair.

"Mornin", I let out a small smile which her face turned into a cute fluffy smile. She was sitting on my chest so it was kind of hard to breathe. We both got up and found out that all of the others were still sleeping so I decided to cook some breakfast. As soon as I finish, Hannah-san woke up, greeting me with a wholesome smile, well when I looked at her, the thing from last night still paints on my head. Ren and Alex also got up, all dressed up on a uniform, they're going to school. We ate breakfast peacefully. Yuka suddenly invited me to walk the two to school. Alex didn't mind and said [You could beat up some of the gangs at school!] But Ren didn't want to but since Yuka said it, she's close with her so we ended up going. The place school were peaceful, I've never got to school but yeah this is a great place. Yuka and I just walked a bit on the park with her on my shoulder, I'm surprised she knows around... My first time being here sure is quite interesting, especially Hannah-san, she's a beauty but I don't want to touch a widow but still I'm glad I got here...

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I can't believe that was 5 years ago, many things have happened since then, still living at the same place, it has been peaceful. I remember when Hannah-san went home and she invited me to drink with her at her room. Drinking is something I'm used to so I didn't get drunk, though I'd say that it tasted weird. She was dead drunk at that time, she was crying, laughing and talking a bunch of nonsense. By that time, I only knew her for 2 years and I know very little of her. At the end she asked me [Would you deal with my loneliness?] Her voice was rather erotic at that time and her dress were already falling. I didn't know what to do and I have no right to refuse.... So, I gave her my body, my purity and first time.... It felt great yet so wrong. She was rather rough but I'm alright with it, she's been lonely after all.... The morning after that, we laid on bed, naked and my heart was feeling a bit of guilt. She apologized to me on how she acted but I'm fine with it, she's a benefactor that gave me a new start so I don't mind serving her... Which started a relationship between us, nothing deep, an emotionless sex every time she'd go home.... I was there for her just to fill up her hole, her emptiness, literally and figuratively. Ren still glares on me with a bad look and still as stubborn, though she's jealous that Yuka has been with me almost all the time. Alex on the other hand...goes with me on the gym and begs to be taught how to fight. Well Yuka is also with me when I'm on the gym, she just loves watching me for some reason. [Every fight is unexpected so expect everything to happen and build up your tenacity, not strength] that's the only advice I could give him which he uses well by beating up his enemies. I told him not to use his strength against people but he said [I am protecting my own pride.]. He is hungry for fights and he even invited me to a fight, no not against him but a gang of kid that picked fun on Ren... Well, I almost killed 5 of them... I'm expecting to get hated by those people but instead they bowed on me.... Now they also respect Alex.... Those things were kept hidden though...

Oh, by the way, I've learnt a new hobby, that was to draw... Some erotic stuff...I got interested on it when I first had my pay check and was able to visit some store, I got on some kind of store that sell books, bought a bunch and read it at home. I found the art beautiful despite how vulgar it is so I started to learn. It took me full 3 and a half years to finally learn. I used Yuka as some kind of reference since she's always with me and I always takes care of her when on the bath. I ended up making a book full of lewd illustrations of Yuka... Well, that felt wrong but I posted it on some kind of art forum on my computer, well I bought that too with my money. Someone saw it and ferociously requested to make some kind of book, a 'doujin' to be exact. I was drawing for fun but didn't expect to draw something like that, but still... Uh Yuka's face is going to be in it, it's so wrong.... I ended up making it, Yuka's face as the heroine and a faceless guy that closely resembles my body shape... I'm basically making an erotic book with the very child I'm raising, well the book sold quite well and the guy who requested me is actually some kind of publisher, so he sold it, we share the money and that's it. [Never knew someone like you would make a wholesome stuff with a child and not a rape genre] the guy told me when we first met. Rape, that's something horrible, I won't do that. Well, the thing was a success that I was told to make a part 2 and then it kept on coming. Well at least I'm earning extra bucks that I can use to buy gifts for Yuka and Alex.... Ren hmm, she doesn't accept any of them....

"Heh!!! Onii-chan also likes this stuff huh?" that time Yuka was in my room looking through my bookshelves, I didn't expect her to look through to it so I left some of the copies of my doujins in it.

"Hmm what is it?"

"This! I also have this, I bought even all of the books!! It's so good!" Suddenly she walks towards me with her small legs. Showing a familiar piece of art, it was the very first doujin I've made...

"Ah ehm... Y-yeah but isn't it a bit early for you to have that kind of thing?"

"It's alright! I love these kinds of stuff!" I don't really know if that's a good thing

"Ah..."

"But still, I wonder how did the artist almost exactly drew my face, even the mole on my neck is exactly at place... And not to mention, the girl's name is also Yuka!!" her voice is filled with enthusiasm and curiosity.

"Hmm, I don't know..." I silently said. She moved around my room and got on my desk, filled with paper and my computer still on.

"Ehh!!!!????" suddenly she yelled. I am done for.

"Yuka-chan what's wrong?" I slowly went on her direction.

"So, you're the one who made this!!" she saw everything, my drafts, my sketches and everything.... I really am done for...

"Uhm I..." I am expecting a punch, a disgusted face and a cry.

"Awesome!!! Nii-chan does like me as well!" she leapt on me with a happy face. I don't dislike her or anything but 'like' isn't the best word for it, I just adore her.

"Uhm eh..."

"Let's read it together!! Then I'll show you more of my body so you could draw it more perfectly then... Then let's Uhm err let's do it so you can know how it would feel! Come on come on" her voice full of happiness and excitement and me on the other hand... It was regret....

"Yuka-chan" I let out a serious tone, holding her arms and stopping her from undressing.

"Hmm?" she let out a cute expression.

"How old are you?"

"8..."

"I'm 25, the gap is far. We can't do the thing you want. Maybe once you grow, if you really want it... I'd... Uh wait"

"But.... I heard from mom that she's planning to let you marry Nee-chan"

"Huh? Ren? Hahaha, no way. Actually, I'd prefer you rather than her"

"Then what's stopping you to do the thing I want you to do?"

"You're still young Yuka, you'll grow. There's still a lot of preparations and frankly, I didn't expect this from you"

"Preparations? If you're ready then maybe we can? I mean now... I am ready..." she fidgeted a bit and held my arm with her tiny hand.

"Ah... Well, I'll think about it... But for now, you should think of something else" I patted her head and then she smiled. That [I'll think about it], she probably thought that it could happen tomorrow or later. I heard a knock on the door, it was Hannah-san.

"Oh, good evening, Yuka, you should sleep already, you have school tomorrow"

"Yes mom!!" her voice is quite sad but she went out.

"████, are you alright right now?" she caresses my chest muscles a lil bit. Hannah-san occasionally goes into my room to deal with her 'Loneliness', she isn't drunk or anything, she just asks me to do the favour.

"Y-yeah" and thus, we did it....

"Hey, ████, I told you to be rougher right?"

"Y-yes" I said. I just got rougher and she liked it. Her smile while in that pleasured state is still as beautiful.

"This does remind me of him" a line I have already heard many of times. I do feel bad whenever I hear that but seeing her smile just makes me happy. We finished up after 5 rounds, yeah, I came inside... she doesn't let me pull out for some reason.... We slept together which pretty much became a usual thing right after doing it.

"Oh, good morning" I woke up while Hannah-san is putting her clothes on, she now have a much more relaxed face than last night...

"Good morning." I got up, fixed myself and then Hannah approached me.

"Hmm?" she leaned over me and kissed me by the lips, a gentle kiss.

"Thanks... As always" it was the first time she did this, it's usually a kiss my cheeks when she thanks me, it's something I have never felt that I was a bit flustered....

"Uhm Hannah-san"

"Hmm?" she was about to get out of the room

"Was it really alright to not wear any protection?"

"Silly, I'm already past my menopause so you should rest easy about it. When it comes to vitality, you have more of it" ah I see, she's already past her 40s....

"Ahhh..."

"Your load is quite thick every time we do it, you're pent up aren't you?"

"Ah yeah, I want to at least satisfy you when we're doing it..."

"It's alright..."

"..."

"You can call me if you have the urge to do it. You can cum lots inside of me without a worry, I'd come home just for you" she let out an enticing smile.

"Wha!?"

"Just kidding" she giggled... It's cute. We went out and got at the living room.

"Wah ahh... Mama is unfair... unfair unfair." a young girl sits on a sofa, crying alone.

"Yuka?" I walked towards her.

"..." she just continued to cry

"Come on it's alright, I'll consider what we talked about last night...." I said that out of wanting to make her stop crying. I gently rubbed her back and she stopped.

"Really!??"

"Yeah..."

"Yay!"

"But it's time for you to go ready to school."

"Okie!" I took her to the bath while Hannah cooks breakfast. Alex got on a jog that time and Ren have already went to her work... As Yuka eats, Hannah called me, alone on the far side of the table.

"Think about your decisions"

"...?"

"Aren't you Really going to answer Yuka's feelings?"

"But she's..."

"It's alright. I don't mind it. If it's you that she likes, I have no right to be against that. I'm alright on whatever she wants you to do but treat her with love... Think about the consequences that would be if you ignored her... You definitely don't want to see Yuka cry, don't you?"

"Ah ehhmm... I'll try to but are you sure? I'm a grown-up adult and she's a child..."

"It's alright, you have my permission. But you shouldn't let Ren know about it, you know her."

"y-yes" there's no way around it, if Hannah doesn't mind, Yuka went out to even cry just because of my answers....it just makes me feel bad...

"Give her an answer... An honest answer" she said before she leaves, now I don't know what to do.

"Onii-chan~" Yuka went inside my room while I was drawing some stuff. She was wearing a loose attire; her hair was perfectly combed and the atmosphere around her seems pleasurable...

"Yuka? You should be sleeping now"

"It's Saturday tomorrow so it's alright!!" she slowly walked towards me, she maintained eye contact and before I even know it... We were already on the bed. Her clothes falling off, her hands on my genitals, her face red and flustered.

"Onii-chan.... Do you love me?" her voice was trembling, apart from that it has gone quiet, only the rustling of clothes can be heard.

"Yes" I patted her head, softly

"Then are you alright with this?"

"Yes" ... [give her an honest answer] This is my honest feelings for her... If she wants me, then I'd give her 'me'.... We were fully naked... I held her below me, she's so light almost like a doll... I treated her gently. Along with her childish moans were the sounds of her hole.... My dick was as thick as her thighs so it might've hurt her, but she took it in while repeating the same words [I love you Onii-chan] ... I can't believe what I have just done... After finishing inside multiple times, I stopped.... I looked at myself on the mirror, I am a failure of a person... I felt guilt, regret and fear... Why did I do that? Why did I not stop while I'm still able to? I have no answers for myself

"I love you Onii-chan....thank you for accepting me..." she grabbed me by the hand. Looking at her smile, my worries died out... I felt somehow relaxed. We both slept together that night, hugging each other as the night passes...

4 months, we kept on doing it, as gently as possible, as loving as I could. Doing my best to answer her feelings. And I actually started to feel even more mutual to her... I was starting to have fun instead of having worries. Her cheerful smile has lift me up...

It was a 'playful' night, I was cleaning Yuka after doing it. She was laughing over my tired dick and saying [Wah it's cute]. We occasionally do this every time we finish, cleaning up with a laugh...

"Yuka!! I've bought some chocolate!" the room of my door opened loudly; it wasn't locked....

"WHAT THE FUCK?" It was Ren, looking at us directly... Ah shit....

"Nee-chan!! Welcome back he--" suddenly Ren slapped me. It was Strong enough that it has left a mark. She grabbed my ponytail hair dragged me on the ground...

"HOW DARE YOU TOUCH YUKA, YOU PEDOPHILE FUCK" I didn't move, I have no right to do so.

"Neechan please stop! He did nothing wrong, I wanted it. He's just giving me what I want"

"Shut up Yuka." in the end I was dragged to the living room. Hannah was there and Alex too... he didn't look concerned though... Ren continued to step on me, muttering words of hate kicking on me as I prostrate myself on the floor. As a child, Ren was molested back then and so I know she's despising me because of that...Yuka was crying, punching Ren and trying to stop her. Hannah just stood, glaring at Ren...

I was put on court after that. Ah... A crime huh.... I'm an utter garbage. The people looked at me with disgust.... The same look that was given to me 5 years ago. I felt belittled, I felt ashamed. There's no way around here. every time my lawyer would speak, I'd just let her seat, she's just wasting her voice... I have no reason to plea my case, I am caught red handed.

"I hereby declare that ████ ████ is guilty of child abuse and rape and will be sentenced with 50 years in prison" my fate has been decided.... Did I regret what have I done? No, it's my fault after all, I took advantage of her feelings to get me off. I'm just happy that I could at least make Yuka happy even just a little while. I've fulfilled her wish, I'm happy for that.... The people dispersed, I was cuffed and about to head out... But then someone hugged me. Crying in pain as she hugs me.

"Onii-chan please don't go, I love you... I can't go without you. Don't go please. Stay with me..." she hugged me tightly, her cries are even louder than the murmurs of the people around us. She doesn't understand what's happened does she. The crowd have gone quiet as the judge started to speak.

"Hannah, mother of Yuka. Do you know what's been happening between them from these past, four months?" a loud voice...

"Yes, your honour"

"Are you against it?"

"No, your honour..." murmurs again filled up the room.

"Silence!" the judge again speaks.

"..."

"Due to certain circumstances, I hereby reduce the number of years to 12 years. The Convict is allowed to be free if he wishes to"

"No, your honour, I would accept the punishment" I gently spoke.

"Well then..." just like that it finished, Yuka was still hugging me. I just patted her head and said [I'll be back don't worry]. And so, I started to live as a prisoner....

At the start the other inmates were looking at me with disgust and fear but after a while and then learning everything about me and the full story... They treated me well.... After half a year, my colleague that first discover my art visited me, he wished me to continue drawing. I accepted it and the I was also given authority to do it. I'm just happy that I could still do my hobby. People here isn't really that bad, they're kind too. Well occasionally there's fights but I was never involved since they don't dare to challenge me. I started to even grow my hair even longer and then just kept a ponytail hairstyle. Well with my blonde hair, I do look like that one Protagonist from a novel I've read... There're also jobs inside here so apart from my books selling well...I can also earn money... I never knew I'd say it but life here is kind of fun. For the first time after a year, Yuka visited me. I can still see sadness within her but said that she's happy that she could at least meet with me. She would talk about the doujins and then she would give me her own made lunch, she's still learning so it still isn't perfect. She'd visit 3 times per month... Also, Hannah-san, well she did visit me from the first day though. she's just overly worried about me.... She'd often do 'conjugal' visits even if it's not allowed here, but with money, she was able to go through... Even in prison, I will deal with her 'Loneliness'. She would often ask me how I do and how's food or something the like, well I make my own food here and ingredients were just given so I usually answer that it's alright.

5 years into it, I feel I'm becoming a better person, I feel like being here gave me a lil bit of peace of mind

"Ha-ha, Alex again got in a fight! He almost killed his opponent and he got hospitalized 'Tenacity' it was he have said that cause him to win!" Yuka was laughing while eating, we were eating together that time. Hearing her laughs also makes me feel comfortable.

7 years, I've improved my art and finally making a last part of my doujin, though it won't be the last that I would make, I also got even bigger, bigger biceps that is.

"Onii-chan the ending was wonderful! I wish we could have that kind of relationship" she brought her own book as we read it together, I'm happy that she liked It... still marriage huh? She'd probably find someone better than me before that even happens

9 years.

"Haha, I got even taller now but it seems like this is the limit" Yuka boasted how tall she is now, though her height is just up until my shoulder.

"Hmm Yuka, Uhm have you find someone yet?" I accidentally said.

"Not yet! I'm still waiting for someone. I know he's about to come but I'll wait even how many years!"

"Ahh..." I was relieved somehow.

"Well then thank you for letting me visit again!" she kissed my forehead and then left the room. Ah she still does things unexpectedly...

11 and a half years. I was piling up my money just in case I have some emergency.

"Ren nee-chan came with me" The door opened behind Yuka and so Ren sat near me.

"Well then I'll let you two have a talk" Yuka went out and I was left with Ren.

"I'm sorry on how I single-mindedly acted back then... I don't know your side; I don't know how Yuka felt I only acted on my own" she lowered her head on me. She no longer wears an angry face; her face is now.... I'd say, beautiful.

"No, it's alright, I've done my mistakes too so it's only fair for you to act that way.... You're just concerned about Yuka..." I don't hold a grudge on her, what she did was just right.

"But still... I robbed you off your happiness, I took Yuka away from you... If you want, I could pay you with my body..." she stared to unbutton her shirt.

"Ren, I have no interest in sort of stuff ... Well, I'd be lying if I don't say that I didn't want to accept your offer but.... You saying sorry is enough... You did nothing wrong but I forgive you" she smiled a bit and then nodded.

"If you want... If you got out here, I'd let you sleep with me for a night" she giggled a bit before she left. People do change huh? Yuka went in after that...

"So, if you got out, please go straight to our house!! I'll be waiting!" Yuka said rather excitedly.

"Yeah, I would"

With that she left, still, she won't visit the rest of the time since she said that we can be together after that few months. And so, I waited.... 12 years have passed and many things have changed, though I'm still familiar with the place. It still is as crowded yet peaceful. I went ahead to the house, I have nowhere to go to after all... I squeezed the doorknob and it wasn't locked... I opened the door and what surprised me was a feast laid out on the table, a man with shaved head carrying a baby... Alex have become calmer now... Hannah-san that despite being past her 50s, still looks young except for the silver hair streaks on her head. Ren that sits just sits not afar from Hannah, smiling towards me after I open the door

"Welcome home Onii-chan" Yuka suddenly hugged me that made me fall on the floor. She gently pulled my ponytail toward her and she kissed me on the lips, deeply as she closes her eyes, tears come out but only a little bit.

"Yeah, Yuka I'm home" I gently embraced her.

"Well then, do you still love me?"

"Yes"

"You won't mind if I force you to marry me and Ren nee-chan?"

"What?"

"You can have us both" she let out a gentle smile and Ren also looks towards me.

"Well, uh... I suppose I don't mind" Oh father, mother...I haven't yet to forget you and yes your son is getting married to two beauties... oh hail the Lord

"Then you promise you won't leave me ever again?"

"Yes"

"You promise that you'll stay with me forever" her tone has become quite scarry but still... I answered with an honest answer that made her let out a sweet smile

"Yes, I promise, after all, I love you, Yuka"

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