Chapter 24: This Is My Worst Existential Crisis (So Far)

It has been two weeks since I came to Yami, after this time I was finally able to go from High-Class Disciple level to Expert level, I am even one step away from going up to Master level but I had to stifle my growth due to a small problem.

I'm getting too much attention.

The experts at Yami are not limiting my growth for the jealousy, some of them show appreciation and even some pride as if they had done something to help me.

They remind me of the idiot Navi who brags about my achievements as if they were his own.

Maybe this is the pride of a teacher watching his disciple grow, something I've experienced watching Kaname and the girls grows up so I can understand them, but they're still idiots taking credit for my efforts.

Although some teachers in Yami want to push me even more to see how far I can go, there are other teachers who have shown concern for my rapid growth and have suggested that I take it easy so that my foundations are not shaky.

The fact that a bunch of crazy people who put martial arts first before their lives saying I'm trying too hard shows my level of obsession with doing my best.

These people have all sorts of high-tech instruments that you would only find in science fiction shows like augmented gravity chambers and limited oxygen.

They also have special alloy wristbands and anklets that add extra weight to the body.

Not only are the facilities and equipment the best in this world, but the food is also prepared by renowned chefs with the best ingredients free of chemicals, pesticides, and harmful hormones for the body.

With all the resources that Yami employs in the development of teachers and disciples, it does not surprise me that these martial artists can surpass human limits.

In fact, I'm sure that if it weren't for the weft armor, Kenichi wouldn't have the slightest chance of facing Yami's disciples.

Although the masters of the Ryozanpaku are true experts, Yami's resources are too impressive.

People forged in safe and controlled environments will never be at the top since they would lack experience, it is the logic of how a greenhouse flower will always be weaker than a wildflower.

Yami understands this so he not only trains the disciples with the best facilities and food but also provides them with quests so that they gain real experience and not become complacent.

I originally planned to make the war between Yami and the Ryozanpaku end with the destruction of Yami, but now that I know what Yami can do I feel like it would be a waste if they disappear.

If it weren't because the plot armor will make Yami lose plus I've really grown fond of Shigure then I would have preferred to be a real member of Yami.

Outside of a couple of troublesome jerks, Yami's people are easy to hang out with.

There are two factions in Yami, the armed and the unarmed division. I have lived with both divisions as my fighting style adapts to both groups.

Normally that would be an offense since the path of martial arts is almost something religious for these people, they only calmed down when I used the logic that the body is a weapon, the weapons are part of the body so both styles complement each other. It sounded like shit out of a fortune cookie and it worked.

My interaction with the armed faction has been scarce as they are more extremist than the armed faction, I only met three people of which two seemed idiotic to me.

A guy named Michael who uses a scythe and Rin who uses the Kosaka style of all weapons.

Yeah that idiot uses Shigure's style and from what I hear the guy seems to have connections to my pretty ninja girl.

When I heard him talk over and over about her little sister Shigure I felt annoyed as the tone with which she spoke was not one of brotherly love.

I was surprised to find that I have a possessive and jealous side as my Bloodlust and Berserker abilities were almost activated upon hearing it. I think so much living with crazy women has affected me, how problematic.

Apparently, I'm not the only one disgusted with that as a weapons master named Raki Hoshinano was trying to suppress her bloodlust.

She is a beautiful black-haired woman of a similar age to Shigure which gives her the title of genius for reaching the level of Super Master at such a young age, only that unlike Shigure she does not possess the same explosive body as my first wife. Still, Raki has nice legs.

Apparently, Raki has feelings for Rin while the latter is interested in Shigure who is my wife… It's a shitty drama.

Raki's bloodlust was not directed at Raki and if my guess is correct then she is hostile against Shigure. I can't let my pretty wife get hurt by even a beautiful woman like Raki so I will have to break Raki until she can get along with Shigure as she enters my colorful harem.

I am a saint.

[Mission: A Sharp Heart

Raki Hoshinano is a calm and beautiful rose full of hidden thorns. Her ferocity can make her enemies tremble during combat.

Her heart already has an owner but that man is not interested, which fills this warrior with frustration. Instead of hating the man, she is full of jealousy and if it were not her because she does not want to win the hatred of her lover then she would have already sought the source of her jealousy to kill her.

Show Raki Hoshinano the feeling of being loved while preventing him from trying to kill your harem.

Success conditions:

1) Make Raki Hoshinano control her jealousy (0/1)

2) Win the affection of Raki Hoshinano (0/1)

3) Convince her to join your harem (0/1)

Failure conditions:

1) Rejection of Raki Hoshinano (0/1)

2) Raki Hoshinano tries to kill your harem (0/1)

3) Death of Raki Hoshinano (0/1)

Reward: 1 Razor Polishing Cloth, 1 Gift of Love]

Raki turned out to be more troublesome than expected, but I feel like it's worth the effort. Just imagining having a couple of beautiful weapon masters helping me destroy a gangster base in my homeworld makes me feel excited… Also, I could have a threesome with them.

It's a shame that I only got to see Raki once so I haven't been able to understand her entire personality to form conquest plans, but not everything is bad since I have found other objectives.

I have not met all the teachers of the unarmed faction but I did meet a jolly troublemaker who practices Lucha Libre named Diego.

I was able to get along with the subject as I liked to watch wrestling during my breaks in some of my jobs so I was able to give him ideas of new moves that I stole from my world.

I'm not interested in forging a friendship with this guy, what really caught my attention was his beautiful disciple.

Rachel Stanley, a beautiful girl with wavy blonde hair, blue eyes, a body on par with Miu, and an outgoing and bright personality that I like.

We hit it off as soon as we met, we started training together as our fighting styles are similar in the fact that we constantly move to prevent the enemy from predicting our attacks.

Rachel is quite open-minded, she is not afraid to show her body to win over the public but she is not an easy girl that anyone can sleep with.

She is a bit similar to Rimi in many ways so I managed to make both of them become friends which in turn made me very close with Rachel.

Rimi has been a great help in my approach with Rachel, it is not a secret that my meditation technique consists of sexual relations with women that I like so Rachel knows that there is a possibility we end up in a relationship

Rachel and her teacher Diego are not against this, although Diego has told me privately to just make sure not to get her pregnant as that would obstruct her training.

The open-mindedness of this pair of teacher and disciple pleases me a lot. Rachel has no problem in forming a relationship with me, in fact, she herself approached me to tell me that she will be willing to be with me even if I have other women but on the condition that I have to reach the Master level.

She used a seductive tone as she lifted her breasts to tell me that she should hurry to get better or someone else might catch her as she had so many suitors.

I find it amusing that Rachel has actually become attached to me as I am the first person to treat her as a woman worthy of respect for how hard she tries and not all the time I am looking at her breasts and butt like many other men, although of course, I also show interest in her so that she doesn't think I'm an asexual idiot.

The trick is maintaining a balance between libido and respect.

Despite her free demeanor and revealing clothes, Rachel is looking for someone who might love her for who she is and not for what she looks like, which would be quite difficult considering she doesn't mind showing off her body to distract her opponent.

Rachel is perhaps the second woman that I like the most in terms of personality in this world of martial arts, although I admit that I am falling in love with Shigure, the personality of Rachel and Rimi are more to my liking.

Both are cheerful girls who are not afraid to express what they feel, they are selfish who seek their own happiness no matter what others say even if they are friends or family.

Shigure loves me deeply and would die for my sake, but she cannot abandon her friends or her ideals, I respect that, but sadly it is not enough for me.

Rachel is positioning herself to be one of my top candidates for Rasen.

So far I've only thought of giving it to Rimi and Shigure (only after completing my plans to change her ideals).

Izumi is loyal, but it would be dangerous to give a yandere the power to make the impossible possible.

Kaname, Renka, and Kisara are also an option, but I don't feel so attached to them as to give them this power.

Chihiro and the Valkyries are just maids so meh.

About what I'll do with Saori and Honoka I'm still not sure, I can't see them as combatants, and even if Honoka has a talent for martial arts I prefer not to lead her down the path of murder.

To be honest, all the strong girls who join my harem will have to follow my path, that of a murderer, and I don't want that for my pretty Honoka as I prefer to have her as a distractor to deal with my migraine.

Speaking of Honoka I start to remember the shitty situation I am in and the reason why my mind was wandering in my situation with Yami to forget reality.

Good God, I want to kill myself.

I know that I am scum of a human being, worthless garbage that would do the world a favor if I only died, but despite all my flaws I still have three personal rules that I was never willing to cross.

1 Don't break my promises even if it ends badly for me.

2 If I do something I will do it well, no half work.

3 Even if I sleep with married women or cheat on innocent girls, I will never sleep with a little girl.

I want to die.

I underestimated the promotion from High-Class Disciple to Expert. It is not only about choosing a path, it is also the period where the Ki explodes with all its force to reach the limit of human potential.

This increase in Ki is complemented with the meditation technique, if you use a technique based on deep breathing then you will enter a calm state where you will focus on breathing for a couple of days without eating or sleeping.

I finally understood why there weren't people as stupid as me to use sexual intercourse as a meditation technique.

Apparently, the concept is called 'dual cultivation' were not only the martial artist benefits, but the woman also gets improvements in her body since she can nourish herself with a part of the Ki.

So far everything sounds great, the problem is that explosive increases in Ki cause a state of overexcitement that if left untreated can cause death.

That is why Jenazad had a fit of laughter when she learned of my meditation technique.

Jenazad may be a jerk but she was very helpful in getting me women for my upgrade to Expert class.

The problem is, something's wrong with her fucking head and she thought it would be a great idea to include the sister of his own disciple, a cute brunette girl named Raden Tidat Lona.

Raden is the princess of the Tidat kingdom so this will bring shit political trouble, I can deal with that but the real problem is that Raden didn't come alone.

Jenazad you son of a bitch!

It's fine if you bring married women, maids from Tidat's palace, a princess, Yami's future recruits, she even managed to bring in the French assassin's assistants that I had almost forgotten about. All of that is fine ...

But why the fuck did you have to bring little girls ?!

For the first time in 5 years, I lost control and things went to shit.

The huge room I find myself in has a pungent smell of feminine fluids as several women are sprawled across the room.

Raden is in the center of the bed since being royalty was given special treatment, the problem is that in her arms there are a couple of sleeping brats.

I had enough self-control not to insert my member into a couple of little girls, but I still used my hands to make them pass out from the intense orgasms ...

I want to die.

"Hey Listen! That was impressive! Not only did you manage to render 38 women unconscious from the pleasure! " - Navi began to fly everywhere with an excited and proud voice. - "You even broke the innocence of a couple of lolis! As expected of my partner! A scum who knows no limits! Muahahahahaha! "

SHIT!!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH !!!

...

Whatever, I've always hated myself so I can deal with this.

I just must not let anyone know this ...

At that moment my cell phone began to vibrate giving me a bad feeling.

When I looked at the screen I saw that it was a message from Rachel, we became so close that we usually send each other messages when someone has to go out on a mission, I usually like to talk to her but when I saw the content of the message I felt the beginnings of a nervous tick in my left eyelid.

[Rachel ♥: I see you had a lot of fun honey ~

(¬‿¬)

That's fine, better hurry up to improve so that you let me taste a little of that strength

(~ ￣ ▽ ￣) ~]

So far everything was fine.

Damn Rimi, I'm going to punish you, I shouldn't have included her in this orgy.

[Rachel ♥: By the way, Rimi sent me an interesting picture (─‿‿─)

I didn't know you had those tastes, you really are a beast (╯ ° □ °） ╯

Although I don't dislike her (✿ ♥ ‿ ♥)

Rest honey ~]

Attached to the message was a photograph of me where I am doing adult things with the pair of brats using my fingers and mouth.

I knew Rimi had taken photographs, she likes to keep memories and I do not forbid it since she stopped her habit of uploading everything she does to the internet and keeps the photographs as a private treasure.

I just didn't think he was photographing me at that moment ...

I'm going out in front of this fucking shit !!

And I'll smash Jenazad's fucking face !!!

I swear!!