silent..

The world will never be kind to you..no matter what you do . that's just how the system works ..the early you understand it the better..

These were the words of a warrior who fought and died protecting his loved ones..

- what happened...is that it .. is this the end of this shitty novel ..what the psycho duckling in the nest is happening...

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Please please God send me a sign..tell me it's not the end ..

After questioning the author's sense of humour and everything...she got quite...(finally) she knows no matter how much she talks there will be no answer provided to her ..

She is just a mischievous soul filled with kindness...she talks to herself sometimes and her mind is never silent..it screams and shouts telling her to calm down or rest but she can't.. that's just how it is..a graduate with no job... working part time to feed herself and save some for her loved ones...she was also once a little girl with so many dreams..now she can't even think of dreaming anything ..her wings are broken and claws are chopped off....she is bleeding heavily but no one can see it .. because the blood is neither red not golden...its white ...so white that no soul can see it ..sometimes she thinks it's a punishment given for her past life deeds ..

Now at the age of 25 here she is sitting silently on her bed ..again thinking about her life...she wants love..it's not like there's no one ..she have a mother who loves her ..a little brother who never feels like her brother...a step father who mostly ignores her existence...but sometimes she thinks ..just why is my soul black and white and not colourful like others...they can laugh,cry ,get angry,feel sad all they want but..she can neither cry nor laugh..yet she what she do is pretends.. pretends everything is normal... everything is fine..she is happy with her life when she's clearly not ..her mother cares for her .she gently asks her and gently hugs her .she wants to cry but don't want others to know or feel worried about her ..she don't wanna be a burden on anyone. Yet here she is .. sitting silently on bed while staring at nothing..but this time something is different...her mind is silent so silent that it's almost scary ..

Her body gently falls..she knows it's different..she is different..what she is feeling is different..she calls her mom...yet her mother couldn't pick up ...the mother who always pick up on one ring is silent...she wants to talk .she wants to yell ,yet no words are coming out...she wants to cry yet no tears fall .no wants to move yet her body refuses to follow her mind ...and finally she starts thinking about the end words of the novel she finished reading today ..the world is not kind ...will never be ...and silently she falls asleep but this time to never wake up...

Death was never an enemy...it's a mother who takes everyone in her embrace and give the salvation...

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I am not death yet I'll wait for you here in this place ..in hope that you'll come again..

I hope you find the embrace that makes you feel safe ..but will pray it's not the embrace of death... because even if it's gentle it's heart heartbreaking for your loved ones ..

Your beloved is waiting