72: Live with me

He couldn't be possibly here dahil kakabasa ko lang sa sulat nito and his reasons why he can't come kaya----

I was stopped with my thoughts when he suddenly appeared sa harapan ko mismo, making my eyes stung with hot tears again while looking up at him.

He was just towering over me habang maiging nakatingin lang sa'kin with his usual cold look. Medyo magulo ang buhok nito ngayon with his dark stubbles now slightly visible on his jaw. Mukhang wala na halos itong oras to even shave his face. And with his outfit right now, halatang kagagaling lang nito sa trabaho.

And just seeing him here now, the want to cry so hard was just too strong para pigilan ko pang tumulo ng tuluyan ang mga luha ko. Crying out of annoyance and at the same time in delight na makita ko uli ang gagong 'to.

"Anong ginagawa mo rito? Ba't ka pa pumunta rito??" Inis ko ng tanong sa kanya, not wanted to let him know how I've missed him so much kahit na panay lang ang daloy ng mga luha ko.

"I thought you were busy with Godknows what?? You should've just stayed there at hinayaan mo nalang ako rito dahil-----"

"Dahil babarilin mo'ko sa ulo kapag pumunta pa'ko rito. Tama ba'ko?"

I scowled when he cut that in.

"Talagang gagawin ko'yon sa'yo kung nagkataong nandito lang ngayon ang baril ko." Nanggalaiting sagot ko rito while wiping off my bloody tears na walang pakundangang patuloy lang sa pagtulo kahit ayoko naman!

Bweset!

At sa ikinaiinis ko pa lalo, the bastard just smirked at me with his weary eyes glinting in amusement. Looking like he was enjoying my outburst here!

This bastard!

Inis ko ng pinahiran ang mukha ko saka ito sinita.

"What are you smiling at? Pinagtatawanan mo ba'ko ngayon??? Iniinis mo pa talaga ako ngayon when----"

My mouth snapped shut nang bigla nalang nitong hawakan ang pisngi ko habang nakatayo pa rin ito sa harapan ko.

"I guess you have missed me that much to even give me those threats just to get me visit you here, Ms. Javier."

I glared up at him though I was liking this gesture of him.

"I didn't missed you bastard. At ba't ka pa ba pumunta rito? I thought you were busy with something? Something like 'business meetings'. I wonder kung sino na naman kayang babae ang kasama mo these past few days. Siguro yong barbie doll na naman na kasama mo noon ano? What? Nagsawa ka na ba sa kanya that's why you're here now?" I spatted with short breath, trying so hard not to sound I was fucking jealous just the thought na may kasama na namang mga babae ito.

Mas lalo pang uminit ang ulo ko when this time, an exhausted full smile plastered in his face saka ito yumukod sa harapan ko, taking my balled hands on top of my lap.

"I didn't know you are the jealous type, Ms. Javier."

That made me glared at him more when he uttered that with amused voice.

"I am not jealous!" Mabilis pa sa tongue-twister na sagot ko rito.

"But you are. Pinagseselosan mo ang mga babaeng 'yon when you don't have to. May kailangan lang akong asikasuhin kaya natagalan ang pagdalaw ko rito."

"But why did Liam told me that you are busy with business dates then? Talagang may tinatago kayo sa'kin ngayon."

His brows instantly creased at that.

"Liam told you that?"

My brow shot up when he asked that in a growl.

"Oh yes. Kaya sagutin mo na ang mga tanong ko. Are you with those women again??"

Mas lalo pang dumilim ang mukha nito as his weary eyes became annoyed. Mukhang pagod na pagod nga ito with him heaving up a deep breath before answering.

"No. Nagsisinungaling lang ang gagong Liam na'yon. I was just busy these past few days with something else and not with those women."

"At anong 'something else' naman kaya yon ? Sa pagpapayaman ganun ba that was why you had even sent me that letter kanina saying you can't come dahil sa magiging expenses mo? I really hate you for that!!" Inis na saad ko rito sabay tampal ng kamay nitong nakahawak sa mukha ko.

The bastard just groaned but a small smile was threatening to appear in his mouth.

"Nabasa ko nga yan sa sulat mo.. Siguro hindi talaga totoo yong sinabi mo sa'kin noong isang araw na gusto mo rin ako because you won't say you hated me kung gusto mo naman talaga ako."

That made me glared at him, now ready to throw him out of the window na nasa harapan ko.

"You have send me a letter stating your stupid reasons why you can't come, bastard. Anong gusto mong magiging reaksyon ko dun? I'll celebrate and even write you an 'I LOVE YOU' letter as a response??! Eh kung upakan nalang kaya kita ngayon?" Nanggagalaiting asik ko rito while throwing him a look that could bury him ten feet below this building.

My gaze narrowed in a pinprick glare when a lazy grin crept up into his face. Mukhang tuwang-tuwa pa yata ang gago.

"That was why I am here now to give you the epilogue of my letter. "

That made me frowned at him in disbelief pagkasabi nya dun. Is he out of his blasted mind?

"Epilogue? Pinaglololoko mo ba'ko? Anong palagay mo sa sulat mong 'yon? Isang kwento sa libro na may prologue at epilogue??"

"Well, it was my letter so I can add anything I want with it. Don't you think so?" Came his arrogant answer with a shrug on his shoulder.

That made me glared at him more and I was about to open my mouth for a retort but I was stopped nang bigla na naman nyang hinawakan ang mga pisngi ko and then gently wiped those tears that I hadn't even noticed had escaped from my eyes again with his thumbs.

And I think I looked like a kid right now dahil sa ginagawa nito. But hell, I like this gesture of him kaya ayokong itigil nya ito!

"Ang tapang-tapang mong babae pero ang iyakin mo pala. Liam was the one who wrote that letter but still, you should know that those expenses won't be a waste of my fortune kung para naman yon sa'yo.." He answered with a shrug and with no nonsense in his face, saying it like it wasn't making my bloody heart fluttered. But he doesn't have to know that.

"Are you sure about that? Baka naman napipilitan kalang na pumunta rito dahil talagang babarilin kita sa ulo kapag hindi ka pa bumisita rito?"

"Siguro nga.."

When he admitted that without even trying to deny that, natampal ko na uli ang kamay nitong nakahawak sa'kin as my blood just instantly boiled up.

"Sabi ko na nga ba eh! Wala ka talagang balak pumunta rito!" Galit na asik rito while throwing him a punch on his chest.

My annoyance intensified when he just smirked at me with his eyes dancing in amusement. Mukhang natutuwa pa talaga ang gago na makitang nagagalit ako!

Dahil sa inis ko, I was about to throw him a punch. And this time, I was aiming for his face but he was quick enough to catch my hand and surprised me when he suddenly pulled me towards him, making my eyes instantly bulged out in surprise lalo na't isang dangkal nalang ang pagitan ng mga mukha namin sa isa't isa.

And from upclose, mas nakikita kong pagod na pagod ito ngayon with his dark eyes almost ready to retire any moment. Probably dahil talaga sa kung anong pinagkakaabalahan nitong mga huling araw at ilang oras na byahe niya papunta rito.

And I couldn't help but feel guilty for him.

Then unconsciously, my hands found his face and gently stroke his cheeks. His stubble was rough against my palms.

"You look so tired. Hindi ka ba natutulog ng maayos?" I asked him with low voice.

He gave me a weary smile.

"I was worried sick about you. Jalos hindi na'ko makatulog sa pag-aalala sa'yo at sa trabaho ko." He answered sabay pikit ng mga mata nito before he leaned his forehead against mine.

He was indeed exhausted. At kahit nagtatampo pa rin ako rito for not telling me kung ano talagang pinagkakaabalahan nito but knowing na nag-aalala ito sa'kin, I just can't stop myself but feel fluttered.

Slowly, hinila ko na ang ulo nito palapit sa'kin and then let his head rested on my shoulder saka niyakap ito. He was just too exhausted right now para hayaan nalang itong mawalan ng malay dahil sa puyat at pagod.

I felt his hands snaked around my waist, pulling me closer to him as his face snuggled at the crook of my neck then a long sigh escaped from him.

"Gusto mo bang umidlip muna sandali?" I whispered at him as I lightly stroked his back.

"I've missed you so much...."

I shivered when his hot breath fanned against my skin, sending shivers down to my spine. Making me tightly hugged him with him sounding so sincere with it.

I sucked a deep breath as I just remained silent.

"I thought I was going to lose you that time.." saad nito maya-maya, tightening his hold at my waist, as if I'm going to disappear if he won't do it.

"But I'm fine now, bastard. Kaya wala ka ng dapat pang ipag-alala ngayon.."

That made him pulled out from me with a deep scowl in his face.

"Pero hindi ka parin makalakad ngayon, Ms. Javier! I shouldn't have even let you leave that time. Hindi sana 'to mangyayari sa'yo kung pinigilan lang kita noon. E'di sana, hindi ka naghihirap ng ganito ngayon with your damn condition!" Came out his outburst.

And looking at him acting like this with his nose flaring out, I can't help but grinned at him, enjoying him seeing like this while I just stared at his face.

His cold exterior was starting to crack down..

Oh.. I just love this view.

Seeing my reaction, agad namang tumalim ang tingin nito sa'kin as his brows almost overlapping at each other.

"What are you laughing now? May nakakatawa ba sa mga sinabi ko??"

I just grinned more at him and then boldly, I reached out for his messy hair to brush it off. The frown in his face suddenly gone in a second nang gawin ko'yon as surprise flickered in his eyes.

Probably surprised with me doing this now. Well, it was a surprise for me as well na ginawa ko ito ngayon because I have never done this to anyone before.

"I was just happy na malamang marunong la rin palang mag-alala. Akala ko nakalimutan mo ng buhay pa'ko rito."

"What??! Akala mo talaga nakalimutan kita, Ms. Javier?" Galit ng tanong nito, making a creased line on his forehead became more prominent.

"You don't have any idea kung gaano kahirap para sa'kin na hindi ka man lang mapuntahan rito and yet, you foolishly thought that?..." He went on with his sermon while I just kept grinning at him, not really listening to him as my gaze just glued on his mouth.

And the more I stared at it, the more I want to do something in that mouth of his.

"I couldn't even sleep a wink dahil sa pag-aalala sa'yo pero iniisip mo lang na kinalimutan kita when in fact, I couldn't even get you out of my head..." pagpapatuloy pa nito but before he could even finish his famous sermon, I quickly cupped his face with both hands before I closed the gap between our faces to silence him with a kiss. Causing him to stiffen against me.

The kiss just took a few seconds before I stopped and pulled out to look at him in his eyes.

I smirked when a protest groan rumbled in his chest nang itigil ko na ang halik na'yon. He had a dazed look on her face and his eyes dilated with sexual desires.

"Continue your lecture now, Mr. Del Fuero... Makikinig ako." Panunuyang utos ko rito while smiling at him.

He let out a tormented groan before he answered.

"The lecture can wait, Ms. Javier. Hindi mo alam kung anong ginawa mo sa'kin ngayon."

Then without letting me react with it, he pulled my head for a deep kiss.

My hands instantly wrapped around his neck as I returned his kisses. His kiss was demanding, urgent and passionate as his warm hands kept wandering at my back. With the only thin cloth of my hospital gown covering my body, his touch was burning hot against my skin.

I sucked a breath when he started to nibble my bottom lips with his teeth, awakening some unfamiliar aching feeling inside me.

Oh God. I don't know what he was doing to me now. He was just awakening something from me na ngayon ko lang naramdaman sa buong buhay ko.

Unconsciously, my hands moved down to his chest and under his suit with urgency, feeling like my hands had its own mind as it was stroking up and down on his chest, aching to feel his skin against me and making him groaned with my bold action.

A frustrated groan came out from me when he suddenly stopped kissing me. He was heaving with deep breaths against my lips as he leaned his forehead against my own.

"You are really going to be the death of me..You have no idea how much I ached to touch you like this, Samantha.." came his hoarsed voice with his lips grazing my own, teasing me with it.

And hearing him calling me by my first name gives me that strange feeling of being wanted. I could've call him by his first name as well but before I could even open my mouth for a retort, his mouth had claimed my lips again.

A soft moan escaped from me when his hands started to move down to my lower back and then to my waist. Gently stroking it up and down as his touch feels like burning me with sin. Shivers surges through me and down to my soul especially when his kisses began to move down to my neck, an action that made me tilt my head to the side to give him a full access of my neck. I felt his teeth grazing my skin and before I could even stop myself, an embarrassing loud moan escaped from my mouth when he started to nibble and suck the soft spot at the crook of my neck.

Oh my God .. What in God's name is he doing to me now? Why is he making me feel like so woman now with him just touching me this way?

And then not long, I felt his hands moved down to my hips and I yelped out in surprise when he suddenly pulled me up from my wheel chair as he got up on his knees.

Napapakapit nalang ako ng mahigpit sa leeg nito nang tuluyan na itong makatayo and even started to walk towards the bed without even cutting off the kiss.

And after a few seconds, I felt him stopped with his steps as the soft edge of the bed touches my thighs.

And with a groan rumbled inside his chest, he abandoned my lips again and pressed a kiss on my forehead and then to my cheeks.

I just kept gasping for my breath with my closed eyes, catching my breath while leaning my forehead against the side of his face, trying to calm my raging hormones inside and the loud thudding in my chest.

I heard him heaved up a breath as his hold at me tightened.

"Wanna live with me in my house, Ms. Javier?"

That made me looked up at him and stared at his eyes. Dark eyes that was glinting with sexual desires on it. And I can't detect joke in his eyes right now.

"W-What do you mean?" I asked breathlessly though I already have an inkling kung anong sinasabi nito. I just want to hear it again.

"Gusto kong iuwi ka sa bahay ko at doon kana tumira." He answered with his still hoarsed voice.

Kahit na gusto ko ang inaalok nito, I still couldn't help to raised a brow at his offer.

"Talaga? Gusto mo'kong tumira dun 'kasama mo'?" I asked with unconvinced voice, making him frowned at me in disapproval.

"Do I really have to repeat myself, Ms. Javier? I want you to stay in my house because that way, magiging safe ka dun with me being around with you---"

"No."

"And that way----" bigla nalang itong napatigil pagkarinig sa'kin as his brows furrowed at me.

"No? What do you mean?"

"I said no, as in hindi ako titira doon and I will stay at my aunt's house." Dahil ayokong tuluyan na'kong mawalan ng kontrol sa sarili ko tulad ngayon.

His touch just made me feel so vulnerable and ai don't think I could hold a grip of myself if he'd do that while I'm around him.

At higit sa lahat, my aunt is my mom and I have to be there for her!

Gusto kong sabihin 'yon sa kanya but I guess, now's not the right time to let him know about it.

A growl instantly rumbled from his chest saka yamot na nya'kong ibinaba sa kamang nasa likuran ko, carefully laid me at the edge of the bed para paupuin ako dun.

"And why would you not? Mas mabuti nga 'yon at mababantayan kita ron ng maigi and no one could ever attempt na saktan ka dun."

I snorted at him which made him glared down at me habang nakatayo sa harapan ko.

"The last time we've talked about living in your house, Mr. Del Fuero, you had swear na hinding-hindi mangyayari yon so I should just kept on dreaming that, your words. Naaalala mo pa ba 'yon?."

His face instantly darkened when I mentioned that, reminding him how he had always shoved me away from him before.

"Well, that was before woman, at iba na ngayon!" He growled out with low voice habang matalim na nakatingin sa'kin.

"Ows? Pa'no naman kaya naging iba ngayon aber? Matigas at mainitin pa rin naman ang ulo mo hanggang ngayon so how does that become different?"

"And did you know that you are still the most depressing, cold, hot-tempered and stressful woman I've ever known! You are more stressful than closing any business deals with my foreign investors."

That made my glare at him intensified, suddenly annoyed with him saying all that out of aggravation.

"Okay, sige. Sabihin mo na lahat ng gusto mong sabihin sa'kin ngayon. Dagdagan mo pa ang mahabang listahan ng mga dahilan ko why I don't want to stay with you in your house!"

This time, mas lalo pang tumigas ang pagmumukha nito as his look at me became an icy cold glare.

"You are the...."

"I am what?" I snapped at him, challenging him to continue that with raised brow.

He just tightly closed his eyes as he ran a hand through his hair---an indication of his exasperation.

But after a while longer, I noticed him let out a sigh before he reached out to cup my face again. His dark eyes instantly softened habang matiim itong nakatitig sa'kin.

"You are the only woman I want to stress me out forever so if you please, stay with me in my house?"

Oh shit. Why does he have to look at me like that? As if he was tempting me to say yes with his thumb began to trace my swollen lips habang namumungay ang mga mata nitong nakatingin sa'kin ngayon.

And damn with him for making me feel the want to give in now dahil gustung-gusto ko ring makasama ito!

Pero kung sasama ako rito, then what about my mom? Am I just going to let her leave all alone again nang hindi man lang nakakausap ito ng masinsinan kung bakit nya talaga ako pinaampon noon?. I just wanted to know that dahil sa pagkakakilala ko sa kanya, hindi naman ito gagawa ng isang bagay nang walang tamang dahilan...

And I want to hear it from her. I want to understand her why she had to protect me from my own father...

"If you're worrying about your mother, I've already talked to her and she already said yes."

That made me looked up at him with surprised and confused eyes.

How the hell did he know that?

"Alam mo na??" Gulat na tanong ko rito.

When he nodded, that made me blinked my eyes at him in confusions.

"Kung nagtataka ka kung pa'no ko nalaman 'yon, your mother had told me na nalaman mo 'yon bago ka maaksidente.." he started to explain as he kept tucking the few locks of my hair to the side.

"Your mother is blaming herself for what happened to you kaya naman gusto niyang sa'kin kana muna titira---"

"Pero gusto ko pa siyang kausapin. Marami pa'kong gustong malaman sa kanya.." I answered with low voice sabay baba ng tingin ko.

"She wasn't ready to tell you everything yet at sasabihin niya lang ito kapag naayos na niya ang lahat... Kapag maayos kana. And I already hired a special therapist para mapabilis ang paggaling mo at ng makalakad ka na agad.."

That made me let out a deep sigh as I just stared at the floor under my bandaged legs.

I'm happy to hear that from him but this could only mean one thing, hindi ko pa malalaman kung sino talaga ang tunay kong ama. So I guess I should just go with him then dahil kung hindi nya parin talaga ito sasabihin sa'kin, then I should be the one to find my father kaya naman kailangan ko agad na magpagaling. Especially when I was closed in finding that file now.

And speaking of that file..

"Okay, fine.. I'll stay in your house.." sagot ko na rito, now finally made up my mind.

A satisfied look instantly registered on his face nang sabihin ko 'yon. But wait, may ilang kondisyon lang akong hihilingin rito bago pa magbunyi ito na masusunod ang gusto nitong tumira ako sa bahay nito.

"Good. I thought I still have to force you coming with me.." he stated with a satisfied nod.

"Oh. You don't have to dahil sasama naman talaga ako if you just promise me one thing, Mr. Del Fuero..."

That made him look taken aback when I retorted that, asking some condition from him.

"What? What was that?"

"Find that file for me. I know nasa dating bahay lang namin ang bagay na'yon."

A surprised look instantly flashed through his eyes habang napapatigil ito.

Making me raised a brow at him as I looked at him in puzzlement. Lalo na nang bigla nalang uling tumigas ang mukha nito and instead of giving me a yes or no, he just stayed glued on his feet habang matiim lang na nakatitig sa'kin, looking like he was tormented inside and debating to give me an answer.

"What now? Give me your answer now.. Are you going to find it for me or not?" atat na tanong ko na rito as I became impatient now.

Because the more he make me wait for it, the more I become curious to know why this sudden suspicious reaction from him.

Mas lalo pang umarko ang kilay when his jaw started to twitch and then a loud sigh escaped from him.

"About the file."

"Yes. What about the file?"

He groaned and then pulled the chair from the far corner of this room saka umupo dun malapit sa'kin.

Giving me a hint na seryoso ang susunod na pag-uusapan namin.

And when he settled down on his seat, he started.

"I already found the file."

Bigla nalang akong napatigil nang marinig 'yon mula sa kanya.

Oh shit!

"The file? Nahanap mo na nga talaga ito??"

Excitement surged through me when he slowly nodded his head.

"Where? Where and when did you find that file?"

"Right after you left from my house para pumunta rito sa death anniversary ng parents mo. Liam took a certain book from your house. 'WHERE THE SUN DOESN'T SHINE'.

He happened to be a fan of that book at dahil sa kanya at sa tulong ni Mason, nahanap namin 'yon."

"You've found that file inside that book? As in in that book?" I asked with doubtful voice.

"MJB stands for that author's name of that book, Ms. Javier. And '206' means a specific page. I know you have remembered that book."

I quickly nodded at him. Because heck! Mahalaga sa'kin ang librong 'yon at lage ko ng nakikita yon but why I hadn't even realize that na yon lang pala ang ibig sabihin nun.

Pero kung nahanap na niya ito, then does that mean alam narin nito kung anong laman ng file na'yon?

When I thought about that, I quickly looked at his eyes na matiim ng nakatingin sa'kin, as if he was already expecting me to interrogate him.

"Sinong tinuturo ng nasa file na'yon?"

He didn't answered right away and just stared at me with hesitation in his eyes.

"Mr. Del Fuero?"

Napabuntung hininga na lang ito saka ito nagsalita.

"Before I answer your question, pwede bang sagutin mo muna ang tanong ko, Ms. Javier?"

"Anong tanong?" I asked with furrowed brows, wondering why he was looking so frustrated now with him being interrogated about that file.

"Anong gagawin mo sa taong 'yon kapag nakilala mo na ang taong 'yon? Ang taong posibleng may kasalanan sa aksidenteng nangyari sainyo ng pamilya mo more than ten years ago?"

That made me stiffened when he threw me that questions now. Making me shifted down my gaze to my casted legs as I started to be lost with deep thoughts.

Ano nga bang gagawin ko sa kanya? I've lost my family before dahil sa taong may pakana ng aksidenteng 'yon... And I had swear to kill him kapag nahanap ko na ito and then killing myself after that. And dali-dali lang gawin ng bagay na'yon.

But that was before.. before I even discover that I still have my real parents here at bago ko paman nakilala ang isang gagong nasa harapan ko ngayon.

The situation had changed so much now... Just the thought na maiiwan ko ito at hindi ko na ito makakasama pa, nagsisimula ng sumikip ang dibdib ko.

Kaya naman isang bagay lang ang kaya ko pang gawin ngayon...

nagtaas na'ko ng tingin sa kanya and then fixating my eyes on him, I answered him what I truly want.

"I'm going to kill him if he was indeed that man, Mr. Del Fuero."

I stopped myself to reach out for him when he suddenly cursed out a breath at that habang parang may iniinda itong kung anong sakit sa loob.

No doubt. Hndi nya gusto ang naging sagot ko. Pero yon ang gusto ko noon pa man. Ang patayin ang taong 'yon sa sarili kong mga kamay..

"You don't have to kill her, she's dying after all..."

I quickly blocked that thoughts away from my system nang maalala ko naman ang boses na'yon, that voice na nagsisimula ng lumabo sa utak ko.

With balled fists, tinanong ko na uli ito.

"So now, answer me. Sino ang tinuturo ng file na'yon? Kilala ko ba sya?"

A tormented groan rumbled inside him before he met my eyes. Eyes that made me want to grab him to comfort him.

"Hindi ko alam kung anong nasa file na'yon, Ms. Javier. Hindi ko pa nakikita ang laman nito hanggang ngayon."

"What???" I asked in disbelief, can't believe I am hearing this now.

Oh shit.

He growled out saka agad ng tumayo mula sa kinauupuan nya.

"You heard it right, Ms. Javier. Hindi ko alam ang laman ng file na'yon dahil may passcode ito at hindi ko alam kung ano 'yon. Take a rest now, Ms. Javier. Babalik nalang ako rito kapag naayos ko na ang paglabas mo rito mamaya." Malamig na saad nito sa'kin with dismissal tone before he started to leave for the door, not even glancing at his back kahit na anong tawag kong gawin rito, just walking towards the door with stiffed back.

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