64: LETTING OUT THAT FEELINGS

SAM'S POV

My cry was suddenly interrupted nang bigla nalang may humila sa'kin and before I could even react, my face had meet a hard chest of someone.

Alam kong hindi ito kalaban because enemies won't hug me this tight. Enemies would rather strangle me to death than hug me like this. And I was just too emotional right now para itulak ito palayo so I just let him and snuggled more on that chest and cried more.

"It doesn't suit you kapag umiiyak ka ng ganito.."

I stiffened when I heard that deep voice... that Oh-so-fucking comforting voice from some bastard that I am hugging right now.

Itutulak ko na sana ito but he was quick enough to stop it by tightening his hug on me.

"Don't even try to push me now. Hindi mo alam kong ga'no kahirap para sa'kin na gawin 'to so just stay still and let it all out."

When he demanded that, I felt like the want to cry more was suddenly gone. Sniffing against his shirt, I forced myself to spat back.

"At ba't mo naman kasi ginagawa 'to?" I answered in a hiccup. "I didn't tell you to come here at gawin mo ito. If this was so difficult for you, then why don't you just release me now and go home? I don't need you here."

"At kung hindi ka lang sana umiiyak ng ganito, I won't even think about of doing this. Ano ba kasing iniiyak mo ngayon rito? Did these books even deserve to be cried for?"

That made me groaned at that. Reminding me that I was crying right now over my messy life and that darn file na hindi ko mahanap-hanap.

At the thought of that, I burst out in tears again.

"Hindi ko mahanap ang file na'yon..." I cried out as tears flowed like Nile River now which caused him to tense against me.

Having no shame of letting him see me cry now.

"Kanina ko pa hinahanap 'yon pero hindi ko parin mahanap 'yon. There's not even a single book here that could match those three letters in that code at hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.." parang batang sumbong ko rito while hiccupping pretty hard.

I felt his chest heaved up and down so I think he let out a deep sigh.

"Sinabi ko naman kasi sa'yo di ba, na hahanapin natin ang bagay na'yon pero dahil sa tigas ng ulo mo, you came here all alone at pinag-alala mo pa kaming lahat ng sobra!"

The moment he'd scolded that, I pulled out from his hug and glared up at him with blurry eyes.

"So anong gusto mong gawin ko? Isama pa kita rito when you were out there, unconscious and dying! Ayoko ng idamay ka pa rito and get yourself killed because of this case!"I answered while sniffing and in between hiccups.

"Muntikan ka ng mamatay kahapon so how can you possibly expect me to take you in this case? Tiyak mapapahamak----"

"When I said we're going to do this together, then we should do this together at hindi 'yong kumikilos ka ng mag-isa! You've almost had us died in worries dahil sa kalokohang ginagawa mo."

Hearing that, my cry suddenly forgotten. Wiping off my cheeks, I glared back at him.

"I didn't tell you to worry about me. I don't need that from anyone. I could finish this mission with or without your help now. At kahit hindi ko man mahanap ang file na'yon, I could still end all this."

A surprised and at the same time confused look flickered in his eyes. Probably with how I'd possibly do that.

"What do you mean? How are you going to do that kung wala ang file na'yon?"

"You don't need to know that----"

I groaned in protest when he suddenly braced my shoulders and forced me to face him for a confrontation.

"You're going to just kill that man, tama ba'ko? Balak mong hanapin nalang ang nag-utos sa' mga taong 'yon dahil balak mong sugurin 'yon hindi ba??"

"Wala ka ng pakialam kung anong gagawin ko!" When I shouted that back, a stunned look flashed through his face.

"Are you out of your mind now, woman?"

"Call me whatever you want to call me but you can't stop me now! If I can't find that file here, then why not just killed those men----"

"But you might die if you do that!"

I gritted my teeth hard when the bastard had snapped that with eyes ablaze with fire. His hold at my shoulders were too tight as if he was too determined not to let me go and do my plan.

"You might get yourself killed kapag ginawa mo 'yan and you think I'd even allow that!!"

"You can't stop me----"

"I will definitely stop you woman so pull your senses back now dahil tatapusin natin ang kasong 'to ng magkasama and no one will die in the end!! Do you hear that??"

I just scowled at him when he'd yelled that while shaking my shoulder to probably make some senses out of me.

This bastard must've been out of his mind now.

In protest, itinulak ko na lang ito palayo sa'kin but I groaned in annoyance when he just tightened his hold at me.

"Ano ba! Bitiwan mo na nga'ko! You can't stop from my plan and you---"

"No."

My glare at him intensified when he'd snapped that in refusal.

"Kung kinakailangang itali kita sa'kin just to get your senses back and stop you from that stupid idea of ending everything, then I will, Ms. Javier!" Then with that, I yelped out in surprise nang biglaan nalang akong buhatin nito sabay tayo mula sa' sahig. Causing my arms to instantly snake around his neck in a scared of falling.

"What the hell are you doing???" I yelled at him in alarm while gaping up at him in surprise.

"We're going home now. You will not make any move until you're back to your senses." He grumbled before he'd started to walk towards the door.

And there's no way I'd let him do that now. Kaya naman agad na'kong nagpumiglas rito which caused him to stop his steps.

"Ano ba!"

"Ano ka rin, gago!! Ibaba mo'ko ngayon din! Hindi ako sasama sa'yo!" I shouted back at him while wriggling myself so much para mapilitan itong ibaba ako.

Causing him to groan and his face to grimace, Dahilan para tumigil ako bigla sa' kakapiglas rito. Being reminded with his condition right now.

"You will come with me whether you like it or not, Ms. Javier!"

"No! Sinabi ko na sa'yo na hindi ko na kailangan ang tulong mo kaya ibaba mo na'ko! You are still injured at nagagawa mo pa talaga akong buhatin ngayon! Nababaliw ka na ba talaga----"

"Siguro nga! Siguro nga baliw na'ko!!!!"

My mouth snapped shut when he suddenly cut that off in a shout! Dark eyes intensely glaring down at me.

"Siguro nga baliw na'ko dahil hindi ko man lang mapigilan ang sarili ko na magkagusto sa isang katulad mo! Call me an idiot but that's that! Happy now??"

The moment those words came out from his mouth, all I could do was just gape at him with wide eyes and with held breath. Then came that abnormal thudding in my chest again.

Did--Did I heard him right?? Did I just heard him said that?

Yes. Sam. You just heard him admitting that he was worried about you.

When my mind answered that, di ko mapigilang mapalunok na lang ng laway.

This is--- insane!

Now the thudding in my chest intensified, making me out of breath. Yan ang napala mo ngayon, Sam! Kung hindi mo lang sana ginamit 'yang bunganga mo, hindi mo sana maririnig yon sa kanya!

My instinct was telling me only one thing... Ang tumakbo ako palayo sa lugar na'yon at palayo sa kanya. To run while I still can dahil dumating na nga ang kinatatakutan ko.

And I agreed with that..

Pulling myself together, pinilit ko ng makawala mula sa' bisig nito which made him grumbled again.

"Will you stop struggling, woman???"

When he growled that, I glared up at him.

"Ibaba mo na kasi-----"

"Bakit? Tingin mo ba talaga basta-basta nalang kitang papakawalan ngayon?" He scoffed at that with a slight shook of his head.

"Dream on, woman. You'll come with me whether you like it or not. Hindi mo alam kung ga'no kahirap para sa'kin na aminin 'yon sa'yo so never think about of running away from me. You'll be held captive from now on until you'd come back to your senses."

"You can't do that! You----"

"CAMERON! Ang tagal mo naman diyan----"

That got our heads snapped to the opened door when Liam suddenly made that entrance.

"Liam?"

"Oh..Hi Samantha! Nadisturbo ko ba kayo rito? What about you, Cam? Okay lang ba ang sugat mo?" He greeted with an amused look in his face.

The bastard just groaned at that and just continued to carry me. Liam was quick enough to step to the side of the doorway to give a way.

"I can walk on my own so put me down now!"

When I growled that out, I couldn't help but cursed out when just glared down at me and continued to walk like he had heard nothing.

This shit!

"Ano ba!! Nakikinig ka man lang ba??? I said put me down now before your wound would open up again!"

In my utter annoyance, hindi pa rin ito nagsasalita and just keep on walking palabas sa lugar na'yon like he hadn't even heard that warn.

Nagsisimula ng dumilim sa labas but I can see him kept grimacing right now kahit pilit niyang itinatago ito.

I could really kill him now! Ang tigas talaga ng ulo!

"Mr. Del Fuero! Nakikinig ka man lang ba?? Ibaba mo'ko sabi eh!" pagpupumiglas ko paring sigaw sa kanya, now so annoyed with him.

"I am perfectly fine so just don't move."kalmadong saway nito sa'kin saka tuluyan as he stiffly walked outside.

Gusto ko pa sanang magpumiglas pa rito but when I spotted Mason outside while smirking at us in satisfaction, all I could afford to do was growled in protests and bared my teeth in silence.

Lalo na ng mapansin kong nakangisi ng nakasunod sa'min ngayon si Liam. Grinning at us with a knowing glint in his eyes.

Oh God! Why do they have to give those looks! As if they had won a lottery ticket.

This is so embarrassing! Why do they have to come here and put me into this situation now???

"Mr. Del Fuero! Sabi ng ibaba mo'ko eh! You're embarrassing me with your friends!!" When I whisper-yelled that, he just shrugged before he answered.

"You better shut up now if you don't want me to shut you up myself and embarrassed you more to these people."

Hearing that, my mouth snapped shut when his voice sounded threatening.

Threatening me to kiss me again. This bastard!!!

Makakalbo ko talaga ang gagong 'to!

When we've reached his car, saka pa lamang niya ako ibinaba and pulled open the car door for me at the backseat.

"Get in now."

"NO. I brought my car with me so----"

"Get in now if you don't want me to make you do it myself. Iwan mo na rito ang sasakyan mo."

"NO! ayoko." Matigas na sagot ko rito while staring at him in defiance, not wanted to back down with him na siyang ikinatalim ng tingin nito sa'kin.

"Get in now, Ms. Javier.."he slowly warned but heck! As if he can make me!

"NO! I will drive my own car at mag-isa akong uuwi sa apartment ko!"

"You are not going back to that place again! Alam mong sirang-sira na ang lugar na'yon kaya---"

"You've been there?" Gulat na tanong ko rito when he'd uttered that.

"Of course. So you better get in now before I'll make you."

"No! I won't listen to you kaya umalis ka ng mag-isa mo!" And then with that, tatalikod na sana ako para pumunta sa sasakyan ko but before I could do so, I yelped out when again, bigla na naman nya'kong binuhat.

This shit!

"Oh my God! Pwede ba bitiwan mo'ko!!!!" sigaw ko rito habang nagpupumiglas. He can't make me do what he want!

With my eagerness to defy him intensified, mas lalo pa'kong nagpumiglas dito.

"Wag kang malikot----argh!"

I stopped struggling when I suddenly heard him cried that out. And I became more alarmed nang makita ko itong napapangiwi na naman ngayon as he slowly put me down on my feet.

"Mr. del Fuero? Okay ka lang ba??" tarantang tanong ko rito but he didn't answered as he just kept grimacing while clutching his side.

"Samantha? Anong nangyari?" tarantang tanong ni Mason na hindi ko man lang namalayang nasa tabi ko na.

"Cam? Okay ka lang ba?" came Liam's question na nakalapit na rin pala sa'min. Both of them sounded so worried about him.

Hindi na'ko nagsalita paa and just checked his shirt kahit na hindi ko na ito halos maaninag ngayon. Good thing he was wearing a white shirt right now kaya naman naaninag ko agad ang maliit na pulang markang 'yon sa damit nito.

Shit! Eto na nga bang sinasabi ko!

"Now you're bleeding again! Ito na nga bang sinasabi ko sa'yo eh!" inis na bulyaw ko na rito, now wanted to smack his head for being so stubborn.

"For Christ's sake, Cam! Pinipilit mo pa kasing buhatin si Samantha kahit hindi ka pa magaling!"

When Liam scolded that, a growl instantly came out from him.

"Shut up, Liam! Hindi ko kailangan ang sermon mo!"

Agad na napasimangot ang kaibigan nito when this bastard yelled that out.

Napapailing-iling na lamang ako rito. Expect him to retort that kahit nasa ganitong sitwasyon pa ito.

Goodness! I guess I have no choice now kundi samahan nalang muna ang gagong 'to.

Letting out an exasperated sigh, I lightly pushed him off from my way and then I opened the car door at the driver's seat of his car saka pumasok na'ko agad sa loob.

"Get in now. Ihahatid na muna kita ngayon." I ordered without looking at his way.

When he didn't answered, inis na'kong tumingin uli rito and found him just standing outside with a grimace on his face. Liam and Mason were on his side habang nakangisi lang ito sa'kin. Ano naman kaya ang nginingisi-ngisi ng mga taong 'to ngayon?

With gritted teeth, I just raised my brow at them and then pointedly looked at the bastard.

"Ano ba? Gusto mo bang buhatin pa kita papasok dito? Ikaw na nga 'tong ginagawan ng pabor, ang tagal tagal mo pa! Get in now!" agad na dumilim ang mukha nito when I sarcastically spat that.

"Sige na, del Fuero. 'wag ka ng pakipot. Pasok na." Mason agreed sabay tulak dito papasok sa may backseat.

He just kept growling in disapproval but he get in anyway. Mason took the honor to shut the door beside him pagkapasok nito. Then with a playful grin in their faces, nagsibalikan na agad ang mga ito sa sariling mga sasakyan nito.

When Liam started his engine saka nagsimula ng umalis sa lugar na'yon, agad narin akong sumunod rito, ignoring the grumbling bastard at the backseat na panay naman ang pagngiwi ng mukha nito.

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