Chapter 12

When she finished, we both fell asleep, and I awoke with her arms around me. It was night and I wanted her to stay. We ordered dinner delivered and after eating, we lay in my tub, me between her legs as her fingers ran across my folds and her lips kissed the back of my neck. And we talked. She said she didn’t know why she did it, why she wanted me to suckle on her. But with me between her legs, it seemed that a world of fantasies collided and she needed me nursing on her tit and that suddenly became the most important thing in her world.

She went back to Manhattanville on Sunday after we had brunch in town. It was strange. She was only three years older than Mattie, but she seemed much older. A fully formed adult. Someone I could be friends with. I didn’t know whether I could fall in love with her. I doubted it, giving our different life experiences and ages. When I got back to my apartment, I called Charlotte, my confidante. I didn’t intend it, but I told her everything.