05

"why are you doing this?! Why? Am i not enough?!!" i heard an familiar voice from my dad's office.

It's been 2 months since Harris and i hangout and it is 2 months since he confessed that he had a girlfriend. My graduation is coming i hope he will attend.

"im sorry" and then i heard my dad's voice, he's crying and also mom. Omg what's happening? I went closer to hear what are they talking.

"alfred how about mariko?? What is she gonna feel if you tell her?? Do you even loved us?" i heard mom shouting and crying again. I'm so confused.

"i-i don't know. We shouldn't tell her about this one, i know she'll get hurt" dad was crying

"no..." mom answered

"celine please!" dad was begging. I opened the door and saw mom sitting on the floor while dad was kneeling. When i saw them crying, my tears fell.

"M-mariko" they looked shocked.

"what is that? Mom? Dad? What? Tell me" i asked them while I'm calm.

"mariko it's nothing" dad answered

"really dad?! I heard everything!" i shouted

"that's not right!" dad also shouted at me. My anger went up, i can't help it.

"and not telling me the truth is not also right!" i yelled and mom held my hand.

"your dad has other family." mom told so i turned into icy one. I don't know what to do and say so i just cried.

"im sorry darling please forgive me" dad is hugging me but i pushed him.

"why dad?! are we your first or we are your second?!!" i asked, Shouting and crying.

"you are the first! Your mon is only my wife mariko please" dad begged in front of us.

"then why?!" i shouted

"i-im sorry" as he said that, i went out and just ran outside Our house. I don't know where to go, i just found out that i was calling harris but he's not answering his phone and then next i found out that i went to harris's house.

"harris!" i knocked the door. "harris!" he did not asnwered or opened so I tried to open the door and it's open so i enter. I saw a clothes on the floor, a womans clothes tho. A woman's clothes and harris shirt. I followed the clothes until i reached the bedroom and there! I saw harris and a girl, having sex.

"ugh ugh" the girl was moaning. So my ears got irritated uhh

GREAT! i went out and ran again home. I went to my bedroom and took a bath. I fixed myself and lay down on my bed and cry overnight. Asking God why? I also tweeted:

@mariko_herrera

Lord, why do i have to feel this pain?

@mariko_herrera

do i deserve this?

I got 5k likes and 670 comments after a minute. I-i don't know what to feel.

And then here we go again, i cried again until i fell asleep. I woke up 2pm in the afternoon, i saw myself in the mirror, so ugly! But i continue to cry, i still can't believe. I just want to rest this time, i want myself, only me.

I cried until i fell asleep again, when i woke up it was already 8 pm.

Cry, sleep, eat a little, repeat. That was my routine for a month. Thank God it was our 1 month break like semestral break. So there is no classes.

I tried to make a vlog, and there. I posted it on my YouTube account. I also tweeted my name on yt so that they will know about it.

@mariko_herrera

Hi guys! Im gonna vlog :))) hope you support me! Here is my channel!

*the links of my channel*

I got a lot of likes, comments, shared tweets, retweets in a minute. And when i checked my YouTube account, i got 709 subscribers! That fast oh my gosh. I just posted my intoduction hmm.

I was planning to earn my own money so i think that being a Vlogger will help you to earn your owm money since i have talents on editing vlogs and pictures.

I know, i have problems but yes. I am trying my best to be okay. I want myself to be okay. I want to ease the pain that i am feeling right now.

After 5 hours. It's 1:00 am already so i decided to make a live on my ig account.

"hello! I'm mariko" i greeted. After 5 mins, i got 500 viewers already.

ARE YOU OKAY?

DID YOU CRY?

OMG MARIKO IS SAD.

I SEE PAIN YOUR EYES, MARIKO

WHAT HAPPENED?

the comments was about my situation. They saw my pain, my sadness and my tiredness.

"hey, im fine! Imma post an everyday vlog if i can :)" i told them.

OMG WE ARE SO EXCITED!

HOPE YOU'RE OKAY.

THAT'S NICE.

TRY TO NOTICE OTHER THINGS MORE THAN YOUR PROBLEMS!

they said again in the comment section.

"THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT! tell me what is a nice name for my subscribers?" i smiled.

Marikos!

Angels!

rikos!

They commented and a one comment that catches my attention.

HERRERAS!

"i knew it! Herreras. I will call my viewers a HERRERAS. Thank you for the comment!" i told them. Honestly, they made me smile.

"subscribe to my YouTube channel then! I will really try to upload an everyday vlogs!" i shouted. I'm really excited for this. I know i can forget my problems because of vlogging.

WE ARE ALSO EXCITED FOR YOU, MS MARIKO!

PETITION FOR MARIMO HERRERA TO MAKE AN EVERYDAY VLOG!

my heart melted when i saw the support of the people on me. And i want to thank God for this.

"i'll end this live then, we should sleep! Habahaha we need to be healthy! Have a good night, my herreras!" i ended the vlog in a minute. I went to my vanity mirror and looked at myself. I looked pale but never mind, i promise to myself that im gonna be the Mariko Athena Herrera the vlogger! Hehehehe.

To be continued...