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Mirroring Jester: Sanguinary

I have a mental condition called multiple personality disorder. There are three personalities I can conjure: 1. Goofy. As his name suggests, his personality is very kind and clumsy. 2. Logical. The rationalist. The personality that relies entirely on his reasonings. 3. Monster.................................................................. I also have a mental condition called Videographic memory. I can remember any movements I see and can flawlessly mimic them. In a world where underworld organizations rule supreme, where physical strength is often biologically unnatural, where guns and firearms have ceased to exist. It's almost too perfect that I'm born in this world, almost as if fate favors my well-being. Almost as if fate is telling me to rule this world... To be the best!

OnizukaShinu · 武侠
分數不夠
34 Chs

In Which, An Extraordinary View on Humans.

<Logical>

The third-course and fourth-course meal has been eaten. All that's left is the fifth course, dessert. It can be seen by how we talk that we have become more intimate. Our relationship is already at a phase that they call 'friends.'

"You said that humans have no value except for their labor, right?" Moriarty asks.

"Mhm."

"Well, applying your view of humans to what Goofy had sai-

"What? Goofy said another thing?"

"Precisely. Goofy told me that you harbor deep hatred towards Monster's violence. But why? I mean... The only thing to hate against violence is if you hate people getting hurt. It's their fate that they're getting hurt. So, why do you hate violence if it's all fated to be?"

I see. So that's what they talked about.

"Hmm... I said earlier that everyone has their own functionalities in this world, right?"

"Yeah."

"Well, I just find it hard to waste such functionalities, you know? Like, for example, if you kill a person, that person will leave the world without ever knowing what their proper functionalities are in this world. Hence they will never know their true potential. I just find it a waste..."

"That's... deeper than I thought."

"Imagine if Elon Musk died when he was a child. We will never know of such an individual. He will die without letting out his true potential-- his proper functionalities."

"I understand. I want to ask you another question. Why do you not want to join me if you are willing to join the Kirisu family?"

"Eh?" I- I've never told anyone this. Not even Laura. How come?!

Seeing my surprised face, she smirked. "Who do you think hacked Kirisu's tunnel?"

"Laura...?"

"No. It's me. I watched the CCTV and analyzed your facial expressions. You were awake the entire time and... you seem desperate. As if you want something from that building. So I thought of three possibilities.

1. You wanted to steal something.

2. Destroy the Yakuza from within.

3. Trying to prove yourself worthy.

I eliminated possibility number one and two so only three is left.

Is my assessment correct?"

"Hmm... Well, I mean... it's correct, but can you really predict what I was trying to do just by speculations? You have no real evidence. So how are you so certain?"

"Would you be surprised if I tell you that it's all instinct?"

"Yes."

"I see."

"Eh? That's your response?"

"What? Are you expecting me to elaborate?"

"Yes."

"I see."

"Tch. If you don't want to tell me, then I'll answer your question.

Why I'm not willing to join your mafia? It's because your Mafia doesn't sell narcotics. Simple."

"Narcotics? You want to sell drugs?"

"I can do chemistry. It's my thing."

"Hmm... That's quite interesting."

"It is, isn't it? I felt ecstatic when I found out what my talent was. I can finally show my proper functionalities to the world. But, of course, probability just has to fuck me up."

"Probability? Is that a personality?"

"No. Probability is probability. I meant it as that. It's unique, you know, how this world, Earth, is moving, how I live, how life even existed. You can never know the probability one can have. Heck! For all I know, we don't know what will happen in the next 5 seconds.

5 seconds later, that door could open, you could flirt with me, and a random chunk of a meteor could shoot towards me at lightning speed. That's why I hate probabilities, yet also... I love probabilities.

I can predict it, yet at the same time... I can't."

"You have a very deep mind for a 14-year-old boy who grows up in a village."

"I read."

"Interesting... But reading is not enough to achieve a mind such as yours. I like you even more and more, Kenma."

"You desire me. That feeling, desire, is fated to be. But we won't know what our true fate is. I can join you, and if I do, that's my predetermined fate. And if I don't join you, then that's my predetermined fate. We don't know what our fate is and we will never know. But one thing for sure is that we can't stray off of our predetermined fate, for every path we take is our fate."

"Kenma, Kenma, Kenma... You're fascinating. I have a question that I wanted to ask from the first time we met. I see in your eyes that you're a curious person and that's good. Curiosity is a major sign for an intelligent human. I'm also curious and thereby the question; are you interested in philosophy?"

"Philosophy can't make money. It has no use-

"Oh no, no, no, no. You have it all wrong. 'Use' is Philosophy. Philosophy is a tool made specifically for the human mind, and by nurturing it, we can achieve previously unachievable things. Science, Math, History, and every subject in school has a direct affiliation to philosophy-- especially in their foundations.

These school subjects are made from philosophy. Philosophy is the true and the very first root of human intelligence. That's why I love philosophy. By learning one subject, I can learn all other subjects."

"I see that you have an extreme passion for philosophy. I read many philosophy books. By any chance, do you know 'Sophie's World by Jostein Gaardner'? I'm currently reading one."

"Sophie's World is brilliant. It shows you the history of genius philosophers."

"Mhm. By the way, Laura Esmeralda, she's working for you as a snitch, no?"

"Yes."

"She's quite strong. With such a small figure and a gullible young face. How old is she?"

"What is that question? Is your self-esteem broken or something after seeing a girl with a smaller figure almost match Monster's power? Oh, and it's not a she."

"Eh?"

"Not. A. She."

"Hmm... I think I misheard th-

"Not. A. She."

"S- so you're telling me. I've been flirting with a boy?"

"Precisely that. Outstanding guess."

"Welp, can't worry about the things you can't change. And the past is, unfortunately, one of them. Shit."

"Haha. Many of Laura's teammates' first encounter is just like yours. Laura is a boy. To be more precise, he is what many younglings these days call 'trap.'" She clarified.

"Ah. Well, as I was saying, how old is he?"

"21 years nine months, two days."

He's strong and relatively young?!

"He's an engineer, no? Is he the one who made his advanced suit?" Please say no. Please say no.

"Yes, but some are partially made by my ideas." Crap. Not only he's a prodigy in the art of assassination, but he's also a goddamn weapon avant-garde pioneer. "All of the programs are done by me." She said as if that's gonna heal my broken pride.

But... perhaps, there is still hope. One last question.

"Does this advanced suit... enhance strength?"

"Even if you don't admit it, you take pride in Monster's strength."

SHE KNOWS!

Well, to be completely fair, my point and emotions are standing out right on the open field where everyone can see.

I should really train to tune down my ego and pride. It's really harming me mentally.

Especially now with all the stress, Goofy has put on me.