To Pain

Your the only one who seems to understand.

Sometimes I want to control a little bit of you.

Keep it to myself so Ican bear it when you come back for your revenge.

When you try to take control of me and you do.

You come in many different forms.

So many times I didn't reconize you.

Then you attack gripping my throat.

Trying to suck ouyt my life.

But you always leave me.

So I can torture my mind once your gone.

No matter how strong I grow you want to take control.

Showing me the darkness that threatens to eat me.

Toown me and make me another victum.

To ripe away all the light and blind me from the way out.

You makesure the scares stay.

The one who dominates my memory.

Stabbing me on the inside with it.

Making me bleed internally.

I bit my tough even though your making me scream.

The lies I tell to try to keep you from getting to me.

The lies just make you stronger.

Draning the years from my life.

The happiness that I missed out on.

I let you blind me

consuming my thoughts.

I only saw your way of life.

All these years have been wasted.

The walls that I build don't pertect me.

Just the damage that is happening inside me.

With every attampt I'm just driving your knife deeper.

Deep, deeper, deeper, deeper still

Straight towards my own heart.

One day a boy will come along and push it

in the rest of the away.

Then my chances of having something good in my life will vanish.

I won't even realize what it was.