Chapter 330 HAZEL'S BIRTHDAY 1
I got woke up the next morning still trapped by the man laying beside me, even in his sleep he held me so firmly to himself. I tried pulling Alex's hands from my waist and ended up making his grip on me really tight. What was I supposed to do now? He's trapped me this way and until I openly admit to forgive him for his foolishness and promise not to leave he wouldn't let me go.
I know what this man is capable of doing. He knows I hate more than anything when he kills people which now seemed like a norm to him. Only an insane person goes around killing people, I know Alex is insane, but I try to at least make him sane again. At least make him see things and reason like a normal person, I hope G*d doesn't judge me for his sins cause I've really tried to change him for the better.
I was tired of our constant fights, I loved him so much to fight all the time, maybe when I had no idea of anything happening was way better. Cause I could sleep at night not thinking the man beside me is a murderer. I could feel his hot breath on my skin and knew he was awake but had refused to say a thing. Maybe he had no excuse whatsoever this time, I was waiting to hear his excuses this time.
"Let me go, Alex," I said after having waited for a few minutes and he still refused to say a thing. Alex still said nothing, we were both consumed in the dark clothes of silence, he was wrong this time. There were no excuses, of finding out his dark secrets from someone else and not confirming them first from him thereby making me a betrayal and an unfaithful wife. "What can I do to make us stop this fight?" I heard his deep voice close to my ears.
His words only got me angrier and I clenched my hands into a fist gritting my teeth firmly. "Let me go, Alex, what you did is not forgivable," I spoke through gritted teeth. I knew Alex was a stubborn man, but I thought he'd consider his family first before making drastic decisions. "You know I did that to save you."
"Like I said Alex, there are many other ways to save me if you wanted to. You worry so much about saving I and the kids, but have you thought of the danger you're putting us into? Have you thought of the enemy you've created from your actions?" I tried to push back my tears. I shouldn't cry before him. I knew what I went through before he saved me, seeing or imagining any of my kids going through the same faith scared me more than ever.
With how vengeful these people were, they might never spare them or i cause Alex never did either. What if his so-called protection is not enough? Avery knew everything about us, she's been here before, and she knew everything about Alex's defense. They're family, it's normal she knows so much.
For the first time in years, I was scared. I could feel my body vibrating from my thoughts. My imaginations were becoming unbearable for me, my fears were choking me, making me unable to breathe freely. Now more than ever I was at my weakest point. I wouldn't have to care for only my life, but the life of four others was dear to me.
I shouldn't dream of leaving Alex or even imagine it, especially now we were all in danger. Somehow I have this feeling Avery was not the only one plotting something evil against us. It felt like there was more to it. Just as I thought, I quickly recalled my dream a few weeks back. I much as I didn't want it to be real, it felt real cause most things were similar to what was happening now.
The baby who called me mama was definitely not my Leah, even if she looked so much like her. What if...
"I won't let any harm come to you or the children, I'd rather die than allow it." Alex declared tightening his grip a bit. I turned to meet his gaze finally, "Just promise me you will not kill anyone further cause of mere altercations." I said, but it didn't seem like he was accepting my words. He seemed to be hesitating a bit, "I need your word Alex, I want you to promise me." I let out frustrated, that I couldn't hold my tears anymore, I was tired of the constant deaths. "Will you forgive me if I agree to it?" Alex asked and I had to nod at his words.
"Alright then, I promise not to kill anyone without trying to have mutual understanding with them." He said wiping my tears with his thumb before whispering a "Happy birthday." It was only them I knew today is my birthday. Over the years, Alex made it a norm to always celebrate my birthday, according to his words, it's a day he just cannot forget. "Thank you," I whispered back.
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As much as he didn't like their constant quarrels and fights even if he's tried for the past one month not to upset her, they've been living fine till their stupid family meeting. He still wanted her to have the best birthday of the year. She was his woman, after all, if he did nothing for her, he didn't think he could do it for someone else.
He helped her out of the bed and took her for a warm bath, happy they've settled their differences. At the end of the day, a little talk goes a long way than shouts and fights. It still hurt him to see fear in her eyes, the one she always had when her stepfather was around. It took him years to help her bury those feelings and now his sister has brought them back.
However, he knew why she felt that emotion quickly, she was pregnant and her last was not a good experience at all. She was scared of going through similar pain and struggle for the second time, and most importantly keeping his children safe. They were so little and innocent to suffer for his sins, that's why he told her he'd rather die than let harm come to them.
If he's been slacking before, Hazel's fears brought him back. He'd teach her once again why she shouldn't be scared in his arms, maybe she's forgotten the man she's married to.
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I received lots of gifts from everyone, that includes Alex's parents even if it was just the previous night they were giving me attitude. Alex decided to throw a little party for me, and I still wondered how he came up with such without me knowing, it's not like I'm aware of everything he does.