Chapter 25

Y/n's POV.

We buried Jimin's ashes in the garden of the mansion the next day. Once we were done, we paid our respects to Jimin by putting roses. I had my head lowered but I felt something on my shoulder. When I looked over, it was Tae. He had his head on my shoulder. He was crying so hard and it broke my heart to see him this way.

Tae: He can't be gone. He just can't! I swear this is a nightmare and when I wake up, everything will be ok...

He broke out into sobs and I hugged him.

Y/n: I wish it was a bad nightmare too. But it's not.....

Tae sniffled.

Tae: Why is it the ones I love the most always have to go first?

Y/n: Well.....in a garden, what flower would you pick out of all of them? The one that's the most beautiful. And sadly, the flower would then die when cut. It's all a matter of life.

The members walk over to us and Jungkook opened his mouth to speak when.....

Damien: Mom?

We all turn around to see Damien standing there. My eyes widen in shock. Why is he out here?

Damien: Why is uncle Tae crying? Why are aunties crying.....and dad.

Then he must have seen the stone carving in the ground because he looked frightened.

Damien: Did....someone die....? And where is uncle Jimin...everyone is here but him.....

I smile weakly.

Y/n: No.....he's here, Damien. He always will be.

I look towards the stone and Damien starts crying.

Damien: Is.....h-he?

I nod and he runs towards me and hugs me. He looks up at me crying and my heart aches to see his face shedding tears like this.

Damien: I-I want to put a flower for him.

I smile weakly and nod and hand him a rose. He takes the rose and we all walk over to Jimin.

Damien: Hi uncle Jimin. It's me. Damien. I-I'm gonna miss you a lot. I want to see you again. Please don't forget me, uncle. I love you.

He places the rose down and I start to cry at what he said. It broke my heart. Jungkook puts his arms around me and rubs me on the back.

Rose: Come on, Damien. Let's go back inside.

She takes his hand and leads him back inside, the other girls following behind him.

Jin: We should go in too.

I nod and I see Tae on his knees in front of Jimin's grave.

Y/n: You guys go in first. I'll be right behind you.

Jungkook nods and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I walk over to Tae.

Tae: You know, Jimin was like a brother to me. I joined the mafia last and I never really understood what was happening around here at the time. The other members didn't accept me for a while either. Except Jimin. He helped me. He helped me with my work, with the members, and was always there for me. And there is that same thought running over and over again in my head.....I could have saved him.

My eyes grew widen and I look at him.

Y/n:...what?

Tae: I could have saved him. But what did I do? I just focused on taking everyone down with you guys when I could have been there for Jimin. I could have gotten him out of there or at least had more time with him but no. It's all my fault.

Y/n:....Tae, it's not your fault. You did everything you could. Don't blame yourself. Don't think of it that way.

Tae: But I'd be guilty my whole life.

Y/n: No Tae. You're not guilty of anything. You did your best.

Tae looks at me and smiles slightly.

Tae: Thanks y/n.

Y/n: No problem, Tae. Come on. Let's go inside.

I help him up and we walk back inside. Namjoon meets us at the door.

Namjoon: You all right, Tae?

Tae: yeah. I'm feeling a little better.

Namjoon smiles.

Namjoon: Well I'm glad to hear that. Oh and

y/n, Jungkook wanted to talk to you. He should be up in your guys' room now.

Y/n: Ok thanks Joonie.

I make my way up stairs and I open the door. I walk inside and see Jungkook in deep thoughts, staring out the window. I walk up to him and give him a back hug from behind. Jungkook turns around and smiles.

Y/n: Sorry did I scare you?

Jungkook: No it's fine babe.

Y/n: What were you thinking about?

Jungkook: About how beautiful you were.

Y/n: Oh come on, Kookie! Stop joking around! I know that's not what you were thinking about!

We both laugh and Jungkook gives me a peck on the lips.

Jungkook: Awwww my y/n is so cute when she gets annoyed. Ok ok. Fine. That wasn't what I was thinking about. What I was thinking about was that....y/n...the mission wasn't cancelled even though Jimin died. And it's in two day time. So that means one Ateez member has to come with us. We have a pick from 6 of them since Seonghwa passed and Hongjoong is the leader so he can't come. That leaves San, Wooyoung, Yunho, Yeosang, Mingi, and Jongho.

Y/n: Well then we can choose one of them! That's easy, right?

Jungkook: That's the thing. What makes each of those members special is that they each have a specialty.

Y/n: Which are?

Jungkook: San-weapon expert

Yunho-Technology, Wooyoung-seducing, Yeosang-intelligence,

Mingi- Agility, and Jongho-fighting.

Y/n: Oh yeah ok. You're right. That will be hard. Well then, when we discuss the plan tomorrow with everyone, then we can see where Jimin was supposed to come in and what he was supposed to do and match a member that has the specialty to do that.

Jungkook's face lights up.

Jungkook: Genius! Thanks babe!

He kisses me and smiles.

Y/n: Anytime. Anyways, I'm going to get washed up ok?

Jungkook nods.

Jungkook: I'll be downstairs with the other members if you need me.

Y/n: mm ok.

He walks out and I make my way towards the bathroom. But then I see something horrifying. I scream and collapse onto the floor. Tears start flowing out of my eyes.

Y/n: JUNGKOOK! HELP!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!

I hear the door slam open. Jungkook and the other members rush in and runs over to me.

Jungkook: Y/N! BABE! ARE YOU OK?!?!?! WHAT HAPPENED?!?!

Rose:.....J-Jungkook.....