Azulia Pov

I was scared but as Suga pulled me to a private area of the beach that I didn't want to think about being as hunted as Bea had described. I had really hoped it wasn't haunted. So, I did my best to relax. Suga had noticed how tensed I was so he helped me to relax. I smiled as my body relaxed and I hugged him as he wrapped me in his towel. After hours of drinking and cuddling with Suga, we then went back to their vacation house. Suga and I shared a room. We decided to watch a movie but I don't know what it was. And as we watched I felt his eyes on me as if they wanted to touch my body. I in a tipsy state agreed but it was a mistake as he kissed me and left his markings on me. I yelped with lust . My body trembling under his touch. Both craving it and denying it. My body wanting more and my mind warning me no. We kissed and my mind went black as I gave in but as we went further he wanted more. He took off my shirt and unhooked my bra. His soft lips kissing my breasts and sucking upon my skin leaving a trail of hickies as his hands roamed in my body. His soft kisses and hickeys that stopped at the top trim of my swimsuit bottoms. He stopped looking at me and I gulped in response as his hand was know on my swim trunks. I froze as I knew he would see my very own shame, in truth I've always hated my body but as the years grew longer and someone broke me non-stop I began to hate my body more and so I made one big cut from the bottom of my belly button and it stopped before my V****a. I never wanted anyone to see this scar but as he pulled off my swimsuit bottoms I couldn't help but scream.

My scream wasn't what you may have thought it was. My scream also wasn't for what you may have through it was for either. for I could only scream out "NO" inside my head. I could only push him off my in my head . I could only cry out in my mind. For my mind was the only place my pain could reside.

My body reacted naturally. It had wanted him even if my mind didn't. Even if In my head I loathed it.

I let him do as he pleased but as he became more and more rough I had flashbacks from the past. The force he used, the words that hurt, the scars he left. All of him over me like I was a child being held down for her shots . I couldn't help but remember everything that, that man did to me but I couldn't cry. let alone scream but Suga kept on because I couldn't tell him to stop the feeling of helplessness took over and I submitted to him fully because I couldn't do anything else.