BRINLEYS BACK

walking into the front door of my brothers house , I hear voices as I approach the living area the voices get much louder. I hear Brandon and Jaxson having a heated conversation, Nitika is the first to see ,then I hear Brandon say she's my little sister , where is she bro to Jaxson . I stand there listening to Jaxson telling Brandon about what happened in Paris. I feel like such a fool I admitted how I felt about Jaxson only to be pushed away . I wanted to come to Los Angeles to maybe see if I could change his mind, from seeing me as Brandons little sister, and see the woman I am today. Shit all blew up in my face when we walked into Jaxson bedroom and he came out of the bathroom with that woman in his arms , naked , laughing and wet from the shower they had just taken. Don't take a genius to know what happened in his messed up bed. How quick he forgot our kiss , was it so meaningless? Our eyes met , Jaxson asked what we were doing there at his I penthouse and never once taken his eyes off me . it was to much , seeing him with someone other then me I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. So I did the next best thing I ran as fast as I could away from there. Not caring that Brandon had no idea of my feelings for Jaxson, but soon he will and I kept Jaxaon to explain to Brabdon. I couldn't look at Jaxson holding that woman, why can't that be me? why can't he want me ike that . Brandon and Jaxson finally noticed me , during the argument I walked into the living area and when Brandon said where is she , I responded with , I'm right here. Brandon rushes over to me , pulls me in for a hug and I don't respond I just leave my hands at my side and let him squeeze the life out me. Where have you been Brinley, you gave me a freaking heartattack when we couldn't find you . We ? Ya Nitika and me Brandon says , I look to Jaxson but he's just standing look at Brandon and I. BROTHER ! IM GROWN ASS WOMAN ! and I don't need my brother to look after me. Brandon rubs his forehead and turns slightly to look at Jaxson , it's not about you being a woman or me being your big brother. It was pure fear that something might of or could of happened to you . You know Brinley Los Angeles isn't a place to walk the streets by yourself especially when it's turning dark out . And your upset not realizing the dangers around you. OK STOP I SHOUT !! enough I just want to be alone so I'm going to my room and you all can continue whatever you were doing. Goodnight brother, and sister inlaw . I turn to leave I didn't even acknowledge Jaxson and I won't he messed up and when he realizes that it will be to late . I made a fool of myself, what happened in Paris should of stayed in Paris, but like a fool I am I came to LA, to try and change Jaxsons mind. And I got the surprise of my life , how quickly he forgot and felt what was between us. I know Jaxson felt it to the fire between us and the intimacy. He kissed me and I kissed him back with such passion , but I guessing was all in my head. Looking in Jaxsons eyes now all I see is guilt and regret , no hurt no passion no nothing. Brandon motioned for me to go ahead up to my room but not before saying , we will discuss this in the morning Brinley and he stepped a side and left me pass. As I walked the stairs to my room I could hear Brandon and Jaxson talking , Brandon telling Jaxson he should leave and Jaxson responded with okay. I get to my room , throw my shit on the bed and walk to the window in time to see Jaxson entering his car. Before he gets in he looks up to my window and I hide behind the curtain I didn't want him to see me . Jaxson glanced, at my window for a few minutes then got in his car and drove away. Was I wrong , did I feel what I wanted to when he kissed me and when he started taking my clothes off in the heat of the moment and then stopped. Was I over thinking, that he felt what I felt or did he really feel the same , but won't react because I'm his best friends sister.