First Heartbreak

      He was right. People would not think too much of me being with Zain but how will mom see it? Would she think I am a betrayal? Will she understand?

Zain placed his hands on mine and squeezed them. I closed my eyes and rested my head on his chest, he wrapped an arm around me as well and slowly rocked me.

    I could feel his heartbeat and knew he was calming me.

"I know you will feel all kinds of emotions. You are wondering how everyone will see her relationship but I don't care. I love you very much and you know this. I'll take the odds to be with you and no matter what happens, you remain the woman that my heart beats for. I love you more than you can imagine. So my dear we go through this together." 

   He smiled sadly before looking up into my brown eyes. I leaned up and pressed my lips to his. This time my hands caressed his jaw and neck as the kiss became more passionate. His tongue invaded my mouth and soon we were both out of breath.

We parted to catch our breaths.

    Someone cleared her throat behind us and I jumped to my feet to see mom staring at me in shock. My hand flew to my mouth instantly. 

 "Oh no!"

I started panicking. I tried to say something to make excuses but nothing came out. All I managed to do was open and close my mouth like a fish while looking anywhere else except her. I was sure Zain could sense my panic and tried hard to look at her but he stayed quiet and just stared at the floor.

  "Mom it's not what you think?"

   She was still frozen there but slowly made her way over to the couch and sat next to Zain. She took a deep breath before speaking.

"How long has this been going on with you two?"

She asked in a calm and steady voice. Her posture was completely normal but there was something about the way she looked at me....

There was no hiding for me. I would just have to tell her the truth.

  "Before he met Susan"

I said as I slowly sat down. She watched me for a while then sighed.

"Are you trying to tell me that you have met Zain before he met Susan? Like You started dating at a young age?"

She asked in disbelief. There was a big question mark after her last statement. I know what is going on in her mind. She is imagining how young I was when I met Zain and she was never aware.

"I am sorry mum"

I apologized shamefully.

"I helplessly fell in love with Zain Before Fifteen and I could not bring the courage to tell you because you would never let me date him. You would not have allowed me to date him.

 At some point, he met Susan and they got married but I never stopped loving him. I am sorry. The thing is, I never regretted dating him and I coming here, we could not stop our hearts from longing for each other."

I said and waited for her to say something. 

  Mom continued to look at Zain and I in disbelief for what seems like eternity.

"So you could not tell me Jenny? I have lived with you with this for three years and never knew"

She flared up in anger. I deserve all the scolding I can get. 

  "I am sorry mum, you would not have understood and telling you mean no dating Zain which I could not afford."

It seems she ran out of what to say or she has what to say but doesn't know how to put it.

   After a few minutes she seemed to find her words again.

"In as much as I would not have allowed you to date Zain, you should have let me know at least when he married your sister. It hurts to know that my teenage daughter went through her first heartbreak alone without my knowledge, what if something has happened to you?"

I walked to her and sat down with her,

"I am truly sorry."

I apologized. She is getting this worked up with finding out about Zain and I, what would she do if she find out about my biggest secret ever.

   Before mom could say any other thing, A lady walked into the living room with her luggages in a nonchalantly manner. Zain stood up immediately and stared at the lady, shocked.

"Lizzy Chelsea?"