F**k You

 Jenny's point of view.....

 "Mom, wakey! wakey!!"

   I heard in the distance and I groaned. I could recognize that voice from anywhere. It was Mitchell's. I gradually opened my eyes and saw the smiling faces of my Angels. They looked at me with wide grins as they had done something stupid like jumping on my bed or throwing a ball or something. I sat up and rubbed my forehead. I sighed and turned to look at the clock which read 7:30am.   

  I stared at the for awhile with my brain processing nothing. I finally snapped out of the blank state and noticed that they are not in their nighties anymore which means they had freshen up. It really has been loon time they woke up

   I didn't know how long I had been asleep but I knew it was far too late for them to be awake. They are not early birds. It has always been me waking them up, not them waking me up. Things are changing and I am afraid that I would realize how far it has gone or it is going. 

"Hey guys"

   I said sitting up,"What's up with the grin on your faces?" 

"Nothing mom, we just decided to wake you up. You have been sleeping for a long time."

I nodded at Mitchell 's response and rubbed my eyes in an attempt to rub off sleep.

  "And besides, you owe us some gists. We want to know how your dinner date went yesterday"

   Remembering last night, my heart dropped. I need to tell them about Harrison and the new development then tell them about their dad. It's going to be a hard thing to do but like always, I will find a way to do it. I know the outcome yet I am ready to tell my biggest secret to them. I hope that they will take it well and not judge me too badly. They can handle a lot more than I can imagine right now.

    I know it's only going to hurt them more if I don't tell them. Eventually, they will find out so let me save myself the stress and tell them when I can before Harrison will change his mind and decide I should not tell them again. That dude is unpredictable.

"Oh really. Before that, we will need to have breakfast."

  Mitchell grunted and Michael just shrugged his shoulders then kissed me on the cheek and walked out. Mitchell turned and followed him without saying a word. I didn't quite understand why she had to be disappointed. I told her that I will tell them after breakfast.

  I shook my head sadly, stretching and yawning at the same time. I felt so lazy to get out of bed. I would be going to the restaurant today, I don't think that after what would happen later, I will find the strength to go anywhere and besides,I don't normally go to the restaurant on Saturdays and Sundays. These two days are our bonding days.

  This week has been a total roller coaster ride and I don't think that it will end well.

 "You are a superwoman, you always find a way out of your troubles. I can trust you on that"

My inner mind reassured me. I took a deep breath and stood up walking towards the bathroom. My stomach rumbled a little bit from hunger yet I ignored it and continued to walk. I can't remember what I had last night for dinner and again, my dinner date turned out disastrous.

  I halted in my tracks suddenly.

"Wait a second, Harrison did not call to check up on me. How much does he trusts his workers?"

I mumbled angrily. I always know he is a selfish man. 

  He claims to love me yet he never called to know if I actually got him last night and did he keep on tag on me like he always does?

  I spun angrily and headed towards my bag. I did not know why this was so important to me. As far as I am concerned, there is nothing happening between Harrison and I. He is just being selfish and self centered, that's why he would not want me to be with my babies' daddy.

  I scrambled through my bag and when I found the phone, I saw just a text. I wasted no time in opening it.

"I will be having lunch with you and your kids today, expect me"

 I scoffed and quickly typed a reply.

"F**k You"

   After sending this text, I immediately regretted what I had done. I should not have responded, which would have kept him on edge whether I saw the text or not but now, he would feel relaxed and arrogant like always. I did not reply to impress him because I have no feelings towards him but he would feel I did so and that's what is giving me hickey up now. This whole situation is absurd, it makes no sense to start dating someone when it's clear that you don't love him. It's so fucking childish! 

"I'm gonna kill him someday for all the things he put me through."

I promised myself and threw the phone carelessly on the bed as I left for the bathroom the second time. I should better get on with my day. I need all the energy I can get today.