CH 2: Now I'm a baby

"Now I'm a baby and it's horrible...

I mean, I knew I was going to reincarnate, that is, I would become a baby again, I didn't mind the truth... But I didn't know it was going to be one of the worst experiences I've ever had.

First of all, I woke up while being carried in a basket covered with cloths during a heavy storm, the truth worried me a little because I already knew they were going to abandon me.

I don't hold any grudge against the one who is supposed to be my mother in this world because even though I couldn't understand what she said to me, I could see and hear her sadness when she spoke to me and looked at me.

It was strange that I could see and hear even as a practically newborn baby and you'll wonder, how do I know I was? Well, a few months have passed since then and I still can't crawl very well.

But getting back to the subject of being a baby is that it's a horrible experience and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, not being able to control your body and having to depend on others, now I understand a little better about the disabled.

Fortunately, the family that took me in after my mother left me at their house are good people, I mean at first they had an aura of sadness around them.

The lady, or I should say girl since she doesn't look older than 20, sometimes she would just look at me with a distant and sad look for a while, the guy too although to a lesser extent and the maid, if they have a maid she would give me strange looks sometimes, but for everything else she behaved quite indifferently.

And yes, like any self-respecting otaku, I already know what world I'm in, now I'm in the Mushoku Tensei world and it seems to be one where Rudeus doesn't exist looking at the aura around Paul and Zenith.

It's a shame really, I feel a little sorry for Zenith in that style, losing a baby must have been hard and now having to take care of another must be a constant reminder, despite that she doesn't treat me badly and treats me with a lot of affection as if I were her son, although sometimes she gets lost in her thoughts.

Paul on the other hand is mostly indifferent, he's not a bad person, but it's noticeable that losing his son affected him.

Lilia is like the original, she seems to have realized that I didn't act like a normal baby, this is not my fault, I have enough with having to be cleaned and breastfed.

This last thing wouldn't bother me if it weren't because I'm being breastfed by one of the girls I liked in my previous life and who is having relations with another man practically every night.

Fortunately, now I'm a baby and I don't have that kind of needs and that the Libido skill doesn't affect my mind or body, but even so my adult mind can't stand it at all.

But not everything is bad, as you know, I got two things when I was reborn, the first would be my Libido skill and the second the ancient mana cultivation grimoire.

My Libido skill is ignorable it's not something I'm going to use in the near future, but the Ancient mana cultivation grimoire on the other hand I have to say is the best thing that could have happened to me.

The first thing to say is that after being reborn certain information from the grimoire flowed to me, things about how to use it and so on, nothing too complicated and if it weren't for that information I would have also ignored the Grimoire until I was old enough to take it out and use it, but it's no longer necessary to wait.

Because the Grimoire has the ability that once a day and for 1 hour it allows me to enter a mental space where I can read the Grimoire, in this space I have an adult body although without remarkable features, unfortunately time passes the same as in the outside world.

But then I took advantage of that, so at night every time Zenith and Paul do it I enter the mental space and fortunately when I leave it they have already finished.

I have to say that the mental space is nothing special, just a nearly empty white room except for the Grimoire that is floating in the center of the room.

If I hadn't died and gone through all this reincarnation, I would have been very amazed by that event and although I am amazed at being able to enter practically my own mental space, I got over it quickly.

On the other hand, these months I have been learning a lot about magic and I must say that the creator of this grimoire was a true connoisseur since everything is easy to read even for someone with zero knowledge and very concise without any unnecessary padding, everything is very well summarized so that it can be understood.

But despite that and having spent months reading and reading at a not at all slow speed since in my previous life I liked to read and had learned several reading techniques, I haven't even been able to see the end of the first level that I am in.

The book is supposed to be divided by levels although the book doesn't mention anything about a level higher than the one I'm in.

Right now I'm at the Apprentice Mage level, the lowest level and to be able to access all the knowledge I had to spend a whole month practicing being able to feel and absorb mana from the environment.

It was a really difficult task and I had to have a lot of patience, but fortunately I live in a world where humans can use mana without much problem unlike the world the book comes from where humans can spend years without being able to feel and absorb mana from the environment or others don't even achieve it.

It was a feeling like the one in the world of "The Beginning After the End", I could feel small particles of light around me after that I just had to attract them to me and again I had to have a lot of patience for that.

And that month I had a lot of fun reading the most basic concepts and descriptions about mana, but now I'm delving a little deeper into this level more than talking about spells, it talks more about the creation of magic circles.

Yes, unlike Mushoku Tensei in that world they use magic circles to use spells without having to go through the embarrassment of reciting an embarrassing spell out loud.

Fortunately that will save me from embarrassment, since I'm not Rudeus and I don't have the Laplace factor, so I can hardly see myself having a large amount of mana being just a child under 10 years old and being able to cast spells without having to recite a chant.

But well speaking of magic circles, these are very useful because they improve the power of the magic cast, increase its range of effect and make the use of mana more efficient with less unnecessary wear and tear and a smaller amount of mana required. And of course they also prevent the caster from needing to recite the chant to cast a spell.

On the other hand, the magic of this level is the lowest rank of course and is commonly called in that world as everyday magic, although if I compare it to the magic of Mushoku Tensei then it would be like beginner level magic.

Although with this you can use more elements since it even has lightning spells.

But anyway, that would be all, as I'm a baby there's not much to tell the truth, the only entertaining thing that happens is when I enter my mental space and read the information that is in the Grimoire.

In total, I think it's about time to start taking this seriously about learning the language, to speak and be able to crawl and walk, since I had been leaving it a bit aside while I reviewed what I had learned about the magic of my grimoire.

'And I think I already know what my first word is going to be' - I thought as I looked at Zenith...

"Ah... Hello, Kiel I see you're awake" - Zenith greeted me while looking at me from the side of my makeshift crib.

I smiled and then from my mouth came some words that shocked Zenith so that she would then let out a loud squeal of happiness and start jumping while grabbing me and lifting me in her arms to start giving me small kisses on the cheek and repeat what I said.

'In the end, it's hard being a child' - I thought with a sigh as I was kissed on the cheek by Zenith.

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Hello again, here's a new chapter, I just have to say that I won't have a release schedule, I'll just release the chapters when I have them ready.

So I hope you liked this somewhat boring chapter and if you see any mistakes don't hesitate to tell me.