I've married the man whose responsible for my broken heart. I've hurt, cried, and pitied myself enough. And no more. I'll make him regret ever breaking my heart. I'll never forget and forgive him for his betrayal. I hate him..with every fiber of my being. I hate his annoyingly handsome face. His hypnotizing ocean blue of an eyes. I hate his frustratingly well-built body. But what really hits me in the guts HARD is the fact that no matter how much I try to prevent myself from ever feeling something for him again, he just makes it SO.DAMN.HARD. for me to. One moment he annoys me, and overwhelms me the next. Will the protective walls I built around my shattered heart hold for long no matter how much I struggle to keep it strong? Will I ever, if not truly heal, be able to fully love and trust someone, him, again? Or will I just make a run for it before I gave in and make the mistake of handing my already broken heart for the second time?
Naiashia's POV (Nayasha) [nickname:Nash]
"I'm so happy for you Nash.." said Nikki
My best friend, while trying so hard not to shed a tear.
I smiled and took her hands in mine.
I love this girl, and I know she loves me too.
She smiled back at me and grinned.
There's my girl.
"Thank you, Nikk." I sincerely said.
Our eyes conversing the words we can't and don't need to say 'cause we both know what's on each other's mind.
We've been best friends for a long time.
"I can't believe you're getting married. I can't believe you'll be marrying him! I mean, I don't doubt you.. you're pretty, gorgeous even!...." She paused..
"and Ghawwd! He's the epitome of male perfection and what's more? The guy loves you! Gossh!! I'm just so so happy for you Nash! You're like a match made in heaven. You two are perfect!" she beamed.
I giggled at that
Then I felt an arm snaked around my waist pulling me flushed to its body.
Yes, that scent..
"I love that sound. Hey love." Said Drey, my fiance...
"Drey.." I said as I leaned my head on his chest.
He kissed the crown of my head and squeezed me affectionately close to him.
"And I love you," I said shamelessly and blushed.
"You both look perfect together. Have I ever told you both that?" Nikk said that made me giggle again.
"Every chance you have Nikki. Every goddamn chance.." he replied.
Which is true.
"You bet I have," Nikki said.
"So you taking Nash away now? Isn't it too early? It's your engagement night! can't I at least steal my best friend for an hour?"
"Uggh! I can't imagine if you get to be her husband, I think I won't even have a day with you Nash! How terrible is that? It'd kill me!" she ranted.
I rolled my eyes.
Ever the drama queen.
"No, actually no, I'm not taking her away from you." Drey said to Nikk and faced me.
"I need to leave love, I have an important matter to take care of, I'm sorry I can't drive you back home tonight. Would you save me worry and ride with Nikki here?" he said and gestured to Nikki.
Some important matter to take care of?
In the middle of the night?
and what's more important than this night?
OUR night??
I hesitated a moment.
He might have seen the disappointment on my face because he cupped my face with his hands and looked into my eyes.
"Hey, I'm sorry I can't stay okay? I'll make it up to you. Please? I really have to go." he said.
And I felt like he really needed to..
Whatever it is, he was desperate to deal with it and leave.
Leave ME.
I can see it in his eyes..in his stance.
I nodded numbly.
He then smiled and his mood lifted up and kissed me on my forehead.
I smiled too.
I must love this man so much.
"Thank you. You're the best." he said and winked at me, said something to Nikki that I did not hear 'cause I was not paying attention, and excused himself and left the place.
All of a sudden a bad heavy feeling so strong It made me scared crashed into me.
I just know something bad will happen. I don't know what, how, and when it's gonna happen but I don't feel good about Drey leaving.. I'm afraid for him.
Then suddenly there are dozens of bad images of him covered in blood flashed in my head and I was very afraid.
I don't like this feeling.... not a tiny bit.
So I decided to follow him..