tw: mild sexual content
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Over the next few days, Wu Yun studies the "Guide for Lovers" whenever he can steal a few moments alone.
Many of the things he has read are eye-opening, at once groundbreaking and painfully self-evident.
Wu Yun feels like a fool for not noticing earlier.
The chapter titled "how to tell if you're in love" is particularly enlightening.
And it does explain the violent curl of jealousy Wu Yun felt in his stomach all those months ago whenever Lan Tian would wake up in the middle of the night saying Ling Yan's name.
Wu Yun is self-aware enough to know he doesn't like dwelling on his own feelings and emotions. They lie tangled inside him like reeds on the shore.
According to the book, that's a common ailment:
"Sometimes, it's easier to know another's heart than it is to know one's own.