Chapter Twenty Two: You , Me & Our Daughter

I can only see you

I can only see you alone

Look, I'm fair with everyone else but you

Now I can't live a day without you, please

Hold me tight, hug me

Can you trust me

Pull me in tight

_Hold Me Tight

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Jungkook Pov

Even though I was the youngest among the group, I was always passionate about marrying and having family while other hyungs were always like they couldn't think of marriage and kids until they reach in their 40s.

I always wondered how would it feel to be a husband, a father, a grandfather... In beginning, of course I used to imagine a wife and kids but when me and V Hyung started dating, I began to dream about marrying him and having our own little family. But unfortunately, my dreams didn't last long.

Our relationship wasn't ordinary. A guy to guy was a big deal in our country. But it didn't effected us at all. But when it came to our family, our hyungs and our company even our fans being criticised for stanning us, I couldn't stand it and broke up with him that day. And that day, I quit dreaming.

But who could have imagined that our fate had already planned to bring us back together. It gave us the reason and the strongest bond to be together. A little baby girl. A daughter.

Like we found a flower in barren, water in a desert or warmth in cold.

I fidgeted with my fingers as I waited nervously for the little angel. V Hyung was sitting beside me, spacing out, scuffing his shoes on the floor, still in his black suit from Miran's funeral. He changed me into something comfortable when we went back home after funeral but he didn't bother himself to do so before we came to take our daughter home.

"Mr. Kim and Mr. Jeon.. "

A nurse entered with our little angel in her arms. As I heard our names, my heart skipped a beat and nervousness took it toll. I didn't know what were those feelings.. Was it happiness? Was it excitement? Or was I overwhelmed? I was going to finally hold her in my arms. I was going to feel her, touch her..

"Here's your daughter.."

She smiled brightly as she reached V Hyung to hand him our little angel. But her smile died instantly when V Hyung refused to take her and pointed towards me. My heart ached at his action and I felt pity for my angel as my smile faded away too.

He was her father, didn't he want to see her and hold her? Why was he doing this to the innocent soul? I felt annoyed but didn't whine cause as soon as he refused, the nurse turned to me and extended our little angel to me and I quickly went for her and held her featherly in my arms trying hard to adjust my strength so I wouldn't hurt her.

As soon as she came into my embrace, my heart raced in my chest. As I looked down at her, I froze and I couldn't think or acknowledge anything around to me. The world seemed to stop and to adore that perfect moment. I felt a tear of happiness running down my cheeks. She was breathtakingly beautiful and was sleeping adorably with a pout in my arms. My hand quivered as I hesitantly reached for her delicate hands.

My heart fluttered and I fell in love with her right way as her tiny finger curled around my finger, holding it tightly.

"She.. She is so beautiful like you Tae. I.. I.." I tried talking but couldn't because of being overwhelmed. I was speechlessly stunned. I just stared at V Hyung with tearful eyes but to my disappointment, he didn't bother to look at her. When did he become this cold hearted?

"Let's go.." He said with a poker face, getting up from the couch, without giving both of us a glance and started pushing my wheel chair.

I stared at him bewilderedly. I didn't know that Taehyung. Who really he was? He was the only one always getting excited everytime he came across with kids. And now he didn't even bother to give a glance to his own daughter. I didn't know what was going on in his mind but right now I didn't want to talk about that. Cause all I cared about now was the little angel, sleeping peacefully in my arms.

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The ride back home was heart breakingly silent. I kept peeking at V Hyung as he drove like I wasn't even there. I tried to talk but he turned on the radio. So, I decided to stay quiet for our little angel.

He unlocked the door of our dorms, where hyungs were waiting to welcome the new member of bangtan family. I shrugged off all unhappy and worrisome thoughts that V hyung gave me and just focused on our daughter. Cause it was her day.

I smiled as she wiggled in my arms and scrunched her nose and then settled down again. Like she was adjusting to new surroundings.

As door opened and V Hyung pushed me inside, the living room echoed with cheers of welcome and congratulations.

My face lit up with happiness as I saw our 5 hyungs cheering and singing welcome song to the little one.

The whole living room was decorated with pink and white balloons and big welcome hanging with the balloons. Dozens of gifts or you could say whole living room was filled with gifts. Table, couches and even floor was filled with presents for little princess.

If happiness had any face, that was lying in my arms. She was the one, that took the waves of happiness to coast finally soaking us with happiness.

All Hyungs rushed to us in excitement and bickered that who was going to hold her first.

"I'm the eldest uncle. I'm going to hold her first." Jin Hyung announced, reaching for her but got pushed away by Namjoon Hyung.

"No, hyung I'm the leader of bts and was the first member of bts. I'm going to hold her first." Namjoon Hyung said extending his arms to her before Jimin jumped in front of Namjoon Hyung.

"No, since it's our Taehyungie's and Jungkookie's daughter, I'm going to hold her first. I'm the Hyung of maknae line." Jimin declared, while having a pushing and pulling tournament with Jin Hyung and Namjoon hyung.

"Jin Hyung is eldest. He have the first right to hold the new maknae." I said giggling and extending our little angel to Jin Hyung.

Jimin Hyung sighed in defeat and frowned at me with a pout. While Namjoon Hyung just gave up with his dimple smile. I laughed at their cuteness.

It was when all of sudden, a fret followed by a cry echoed in the house. And everything else went silent, when our little one finally made her presence known to everyone.

Jin Hyung panicked and so did everyone.

"Look you made her cry.." Jimin whined, while looking at her in worry.

"I.. I swear I.. I didn't do anything." Jin Hyung defended nervously as he quickly handed her back to me.

As soon as she came back into my embrace, her cries slowly quiet down. Like she recognised me. I went on ninth cloud as I realize that I was the first one she got familiar with.

I looked down at her with big grin, as she opened her eyes for the first time.

"Oh my.. She.. She has deep grey eyes..." I blurted out in awe as all Hyungs howered over to see her eyes.

And she stared at everyone with wide eyes. Like she was watching some monsters.

"OMG.. OMG.. She's so angelic. So ethereal." Hoseok Hyung nearly screamed out in awwe.

"Keep it down Hobi.. You'll scare her." Yoongi Hyung muttered as he was standing few step away, watching us in amusement.

"Oopps.. Sorry little angel.. Did I scare you?" Hoseok Hyung cooed her, touching her nose hesitantly.

A little smile played at her face at hoseok Hyung cooing, making all of our heart going crazy.

"OMG.. She's smiling.. OMG.." Hoseok Hyung started jumping out ecstatically.

Everyone laughed at him as the whole house filled with joy and laughters.

"Okay let's show our little princess her room. We uncles prepared a surprise for you." Namjoon Hyung clapped excitedly while leading the way to our little princess room.

All 5 hyungs insisted that they would set her room from top to bottom from furniture to her toys to her closet to her bed to her literally everything. And we let them do whatever they wanted. After all they were like her dads too. It was still surprise for me and V Hyung, since we weren't allowed to go inside that room.

It actually was my room that they turned into her room. They transfered my belongings to V hyung's room and had been furnishing her room for last three days.

"Where's Taehyung?" Yoongi Hyung asked all of sudden getting our attention.

It was when all of us looked around and worry filled in us when we didn't find V Hyung there. For how long he wasn't there? We were so busy with little angel that we didn't even notice that he was gone.

He had became weird since I woke up from coma. Even though he was beside me 24/7, but I felt a long distance between us. Everyday, I was trying to read him, to find what was going in his mind but he had shut himself up. I knew he was living in guilt. He blamed himself for everything happened in past. I tried to convince him that it wasn't his fault but all I got was silence.

Of course, I didn't give up and wouldn't give up till my last breath since I was the one broke up 9 months ago. I wouldn't going to repeat that mistake again. I would help him out of this remorseful darkness. But..

Why was he ignoring his own daughter? His own blood..she was innocent. She had nothing to do with anything happened between I, him and Miran. Then why? He wasn't happy when she was born. He didn't visited her, when she was under observation in hospital. And he didn't even hold her today.. And now he wasn't even part of celebrations... What was wrong with him?

"He might be in his room, I'll go and talk to him. You take her to her room. I'll bring V Hyung there." I said while cautiously handing her to Jin hyung.

I was afraid she would cry again but she didn't. I sighed in relief and so did everyone. As other hyung's surrounded her and began baby talking her again, I started wheeling my wheelchair towards V hyung's room, actually our room.

I opened the door, as I struggled to get in the room and closed the door behind as I moved in further.

The room was dark. So I let it be. I turned the torch light of my phone to find my way inside the room. As soon as I felt his presence, I turned off the light. If he wanted to be in dark, I wouldn't push him to light instead I would slowly help him out of that dark.

I knew he was sitting on the floor, cause I could feel him.

"Tae..?" I broke the intense silence of the room by calling him but got no response.

"I want to hug you Tae. And I know you're on the floor. So, I'm coming there too." I said while trying to move out of my wheel chair. I knew it was useless cause I couldn't move my lower body but I knew V Hyung would quickly respond. And he did.

"Are you out of your mind? Stop being childish Jungkook. You're not kid anymore." He nearly yelled, grabbing my chair startling me since it was dark.

It was dark and I couldn't see him but I could feel that he was up from the floor now sitting on the bed holding my chair.

"Tae, I want to sit beside you. Can I?" I asked meticulously.

"No, just go and have fun with everyone." he said while letting go of my wheelchair.

"There is no fun without you. I need you. Your daughter needs you. Everyone needs you." I said, while trying to grab his hand but met with only air.

"Jungkook this is the first and the last time, I'm telling you. Everything I did till now, forgiving Miran, letting her kid in our lives was just because you asked for it. I did it because it was your wish. But don't ever expect me to love or care about that kid. I'm not her father. She's not my daughter. It's just in papers. That's all." he declared dryly.

They were the most heartless words I had ever heard in my whole life. But hearing them from V Hyung made it heart breaking. A tear made it way down my cheeks at his coldness.

"What happened to you Tae? Why are you like this? You aren't the Tae I loved. Why are you doing this please tell me. She's your blood. Her mom died the day she was born. She needs you. You need to raise her and give her the life full of love." I cried out while breaking down into tears.

"You..You want me to raise her?" He stuttered and I could feel he was crying too.

"Yes. I want to raise her together with you like a family." I said sniffing.

"Whyyyy? Why do you want to raise the daughter of the person because of whom you got into accident, you stayed in fucking coma for months and now you're suffering paralysis? Who are you? A humanitarian or a benevolent? Who do you think you are? After all she did to you, you're going to raise her kid as a parent?" he cried out as he shook me aggressively.

"KIM TAEHYUNG... Miran is dead. She suffered enough for her wrong doings. So, for the fucking sake, forgive her. And when will you understand that it wasn't anyone's fault, it was just our trial. And stop calling my daughter like that. I never thought of her as Miran's daughter, I thought of her as your blood. And your daughter is my daughter cause we were, we are and will always be a couple. You got that?" I yelled at the top of my lungs.

I never got that aggressive in ages but I had to because I had to put some sense in that gibberish mind of his.

But when I got no reply, I got more furious. He was getting on my nerves.

"KIM TAEHYUNG, fucking answer me right now." I roared with extreme loathe.

Suddenly, the room lit up and I saw V Hyung walking back to me from the switch board. When did he left to switch on the light? Why didn't I notice?

I glared at him but my eyes softened when I saw his swollen red eyes. Had he been crying all the time in the room?

"Come here.." I ordered still acting annoyed but I wasn't anymore. Because of his puffy face and painful eyes.

He did what he was told without waste of a second. He knelt down to his knees while placing his hands on my both thighs, looking at me with his puppy eyes.

"Tae, please can't you just try to forget the past and try to cherish the present. We've been through so much. It's time for us to embrace the opportunity to be happy. You're worried about me, I know. But doctors told us that it's temporary. I'll be fine believe me. And you know, today was the most happiest day in my life, cause you gave me the best gift of my life. A beautiful angel. My family is complete now. You, me and our daughter." I said while cupping his face in my palms, as tears kept rolling down his cheeks.

And as I finished talking, he hugged my legs, leaning his head in my lap, he cried like a baby.

"I love you Tae." I said, while caressing his hair.

"I.. I love you too Kookie." He said between sobs while raising his head, looking at me.

"But I love our daughter more." I said playfully, wiping away his tears.

"You're mean." he complained with a pout but smiled as I bent down to peck his lips.

"Let's go our daughter is waiting for us." I said holding his hand in mine and promised myself to never let it go, no matter what happens.