59 Seconds
It's 11:59
And 59 seconds
And in just 1 your life will change
A new day a new dawn
A new life as a pawn
In the game of chess that the universe plays
At midnight on the dot
Your life will change completely
You will no longer be yourself
But when the clock chimes 12 times
You will change forever
Your life will end
And start again
And continue through the time
Day after day
12:01 to 11:59
You will live your life
Then start again as someone else
So when you die
At 11:59 and 59 seconds
Reflect on the day you have left behind
Her Floral Dress Tail
She walks down the street
With her floral dress tail trailing behind
Not a care in the world
Not a care in her mind
She walks through the hours
Just passing the time
As her floral dress tail
Is trailing behind
It's muddy and dirty
And torn and tattered
But in her state of ignorant innocence
That didn't matter
So she walked and she walked
And she sashayed and skipped
And she wordlessly stood up
With every time she tripped
She had blisters and bruises and scraped both knees
But she felt none of that
When she walked in the breeze
Someone Else
Do you ever feel like the world is crashing down around you
Or like a tsunami is coming ashore
Or that nothing matters and life is a bore
Do you ever wish you were dead
Or living as someone else
With more tread in the shoes that they walk in
Snake Ring
My snake ring lays flat against my finger
Wrapped around and laying still
It only gets mad when I move too much
Or do something against its will
Laughing Stock
When you overhear others judging something
Or laughing
Do you wonder if they're judging you?
It feels like you're constantly being watched
By the eyes of those
Who turn a rose into a wilting stem
It feels as if you are hated and ridiculed
By those you don't even know
For something you can't control
The Thief's Ending Tale
Slip through the darkness
Slide through the cracks
The best kind of thief
Leaves no footprints or tracks
Their home is the silence
Their joy is the hunt
The cops always chase
But they know where to run
Never get caught
Never back down
The law is the kingdom
Success is the crown
The money is worthless
The fame is the feat
Friends disappoint them
Unless they're of use
They cut off and ignore them
Disregard all boring
Follow the fun
On the edge of the cliff
When there's nowhere to run
Leap to the sunset
Fly in the wind
Once it comes to an end
A new day will begin
That first second after you fall and scrape your knee.
That first second when you scrape your knee,
The world just seems to stop,
Not sad nor happy nor fallen down,
It's everything and not.
How if a tunnel of light came at you,
Like a torrent of thoughts and mind,
In that one split second after,
Everything feels perfectly fine.
Like the skin was never broken,
As though the ground was never rough,
Like you'd never even fallen,
That one second is just
Like you're overwhelmed and underwhelmed,
Both at the same time,
Like a mix between heaven and hell,
A gray area or a blurred line.
The Moments Alone
We met in August
Or maybe September
After all the tears
It's hard to remember
After a year
You decided I wasn't enough
You made that choice for me
You decided like a child that I, and the most personal parts of myself and my mind that you toyed with were broken
Like a toy with a broken part
And threw me out with the trash
Leaving me with a broken heart
Then, after all I want through to get you back
You discarded me again
How many times will I cry over you
Until I realize that the feeling of unworthiness is trying to keep me in check
Telling me that I need to give up
But after all I've done
And all I've felt
I'm not sure it will be that easy
For you are sick when you look on me
And I am sick when I look not on you
You left me with a hole to fill
But I do not know how to do that
So I search and I search
For hours and hours
But when I find nothing
I shy away to my room like a coward
All these moments alone that you left me with
Will never go away
I Love Thee
"I love thee."
Those words slipped unbidden from my mouth
Though I mean them with all my heart
In my destiny awaits you
But over the time I hope to keep
You slip away
Away from my unfirm grasp
Away from the burdens of my past
You living diary you
How I swoon when you are near
But when you slip completely from my grasp
In death your face takes on the innocent beauty of the past
This Too
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
And now at last
The smoke has dissipated
Lost
I am broken
I am lost
I am gone
I am stone
I sit in one place
In a spot near a lake
In the sun
With the deers
And my cracks
In my mind
And once more I shall find
In these woods
Where I lie
I shall go insane
And live in swirls
Until I die
I am broken
I am lost
Nowhere
Do you ever just dead inside
So weighed down but so free
Nothing left to hide
Nothing left to see
And nothing left to hear
When there is nothing left for me
Do you ever feel weighed down by the world
So weightless and free
With your cement coated wings holding you back
When there's nowhere left to be
Bug Boy
Tattoos on my fingers
And bugs in my skin
People crawling all around me
jeering, joking
Drinking, smoking
Making the pain go away in any way we can find
But away we go to a new fresh start
Lost in the art of disappearing into the wind
And the song and dance
In the rain in a long, tattered dress
Ripped to shreds by the long claws of death
By the ocean and death by the sea
Death with a lover, a friend, and death with me
Me oh my
The sky is so red
As if all the blood spilt has just gone to my head
And I'm seeing things
Imagining colors
And shapes
To make and create
The tattoos on my fingers
And bugs in my skin
And the smells and the sights
And the sounds to take in
Into the earth and into the sky
Do you drown in the dirt
Or fly in the wind off we go
With a pretty red bow wrapped around the earth
But it's pulling too tight
And it's splitting and cracking
Me oh my what a sight
To behold
To have and to hold until death do us part
You may now kiss the bride and wait for the marriage to end
Of an era and end of the start
One mind
One body
But two separate hearts
On my sleeve
I don't wear it with pride
I sulk and sashay in shame and discouragement
And envy too
Many things going on in this world and too many words to connect
So goodnight and goodbye
As it comes to an end
Blood and Gold
The blood in they water is thicker than gold
And runs just as heavy
It courses through the beautiful
And poisons those who aren't by turning itself to lead as punishment for not being enough for others
For never being enough for others
Because the rules of society state, bullet point by bullet point,
Number 1, you must be perfect or you will be shunned
Number 2, you must be skinny or you will be shunned
Number 3, you must be smart or you will be shunned
And number 4, you must always follow these rules
For if you don't the gold will turn to lead
And the shining will turn sunken
Until the day you die and start rotting underground
Beneath the trees
Beneath the flowers
Beneath the grass
Beneath the dirt
Hour by hour
We hurt and we hurt
Until the mind numbing pain
Turns us blank
And we live life by walking through the gold flowered field
Of poisonous lead hiding in the pollen
Of the flowers
Of the pain
And of the dirt
And of the hours
Of all the hurt
And all the lies
And the rules
And all the flies
Swarming the rotting rot
Underneath the soil
And without a care in the world
Through the field will eventually come a child
Who runs past the grave chasing blood red butterflies of gold
Then the child turns a kid
And the kid turns a teen
And the teen becomes subjected to the rules
Of blood and gold
And she tries her best to keep her perfect body and keep the thought of her days in Sketchers and pigtails out of her head
Because no one wants to date a loser whose inner child runs amok
Says every beautiful person to those people
Who just want to live without having to give their souls to their life of imperfection
Because we don't get to decide if the gold in our blood is good enough when it's decided for us
Rabbit Hole
Spinning, twirling round and round
Dancing round the truth through town
Past the barber, past the grocery store
Past the mall, and past the little hole in the wall that everyone loves
Round and round around the truth
We lie and lie in wait of those who don't
To puncture them with our forked, snakelike tongues of misdeed
Of greed and lies
We lie in wait in the dark of the night
Ready to poison the next passerby
With yet another combination of a smile and a lie
Because why
Why tell the truth when dishonesty calls
Why do that when we can fall down a rabbit hole
And spin ourselves in a web of lies that cannot be undone
Build relationships on top of a pile of crumbing numbness
I'm done
I'm done with the lies
I'm done with the trying
I'm done with it all
So when I give in and fall down the rabbit hole
Do not try to save me
Because soon underground I will lie in wait
To lie to my friends
And die in the end of it all
With my double face and forked, snakelike tongue of lies
Eyelash
Flittering, fluttering eyelashes
Sit still upon a lash line
Batting at the slightest hint of seduction
Upon those hazel eyes sits a tool of mass destruction
For one bat could bring down an army of men and women with their beauty
Smother
Away we go
Onwards we trek
Away from it all
Away from the hell from whence we came
We walk for hours
Amongst the flowers
Of blue and green
Yes you and me
We walk and talk and gawk at the clouds in the sky
The horrible, thundering clouds in the sky
Me oh my
The rain begins to pour down
Upon our heads and upon the ground
And the colorful flowers grow smotheringly big
And choke us in pollen and beauty
Together we die and we rot on the ground
And our bones become covered in flowers
And years later the spot becomes a town
Where whenever it rains
The sirens will sound
And the flowers will grow
Grow up from the ground
And choke out every last being who couldn't leave the town
Then a new town appears on the graves
Called the glades
And the flowers no longer grow tall
When it rains
And the pain of losing it all ceases
And the people grow smug
So one day when it rains the flowers will once again grow tall and break through the walls
Fo the houses and stores
And the stories of these flowers told to children will all come true
With a crash
And a shattered
And leave the town battered
Amongst the fields
Of blue and green flowers
Doll Bones
Based on the book Doll Bones by Holly Black
Doll bones
Doll bones
Safe and sound
Sleeping on the dirty ground
Through the first through the woods
Ashes to ashes
Broken toys
Eyes that follow your every move
It moves when you're sleeping and when you look not
At the doll
Full of ashes and bones
In a glass case in your home
To a grave
Oh Eleanor
Oh Eleanor dear
End of the World
One more day
One more minute
Until the end of the world
Hours tick by
And a girl
She sits on the edge of a cliff
With her feet hanging off of the edge
She just sits
And she sits
Away from it all
Watching the world burn in front of her
And just as she's about to fall
A hand reaches out
It's her good friend death
And it reaches out it's bony hands to catch her
To save her
And carries her down to the bottom of the fall
Where together they lay
Enjoying the glow of the fire
Not the sun
For the moon is out now
It's the dark of the day
It's the end of an era
The end of the way
She walked in the world
Timid
And frightened
With her purple dyed curls
That floated in the wind
And her smooth, beautiful skin
She now lays on the ground
All covered in ash
With a gash on her cheek
Home at last
Willow Tree
Promises broken
And promises kept
Tears held inside
And tears wept to the sky
And tears wept to the clouds
Shrouded in darkness
With a small silver lining
Not one person can see
You and me
We weep together
Under a willow tree
Blood and fire
Swirl through the streams
And their dreams and the chances of promises
Kept and promises broken