They slept together in Ethan’s single bed that night—Ethan’s arms hugging Ryan’s back, while Ryan kept stirring, afraid that Ethan’s parents would discover the two boys were not “just friends”. The next day, Ryan drove back home, lost in the miles of county roads and red metal barns, shocked that he was no longer technically a virgin, and shocked that the long-awaited prize of sex had turned out to be so empty and quick. The two boys texted one another for another month, but Ryan never made the drive back to Grand Rapids, and when he finally reached college, Ryan unfriended Ethan online.