Chapter 1

why?

why?

"ahh! why?" staring game in my notebooks assignment and researches.

'f*ck this bullshit, i can't even relate to this theory'

I tried to concentrate to the textbooks and notes that i have.

'The social penetration theory states that the relationship development occurs primarily through self-disclosure, or intentionally revealing personal information such as personal motives or desires, feelings, thoughts, and experiences to others.'

It is either you want to be closed to the person something like that. tsk.

after a minute of discussing it through myself i finally get what it meant and started to rest.

"ha!" the only sounds that i can speak right now i just wanted to ressst.

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*bzzt*

i got up to the sound coming from my phone. I'm shocked that it was 4:30 in the morning, i have classes of 7 AM subject later.

i got up immediately to the bathroom and wash up. And finally i wore my school uniform. The uniform is simply white blouse with a red tie and the red skirt, above the knee. and that's it.

"Ma, i have to eat right now, i'm getting late" i shouted from the other where my mother is in, i check my wrist watch and almost 5:30 in the morning, i've been almost 1 hour in commute all going to school.

Mama don't like me to get some apartment near the school, although i'm 18 years old, just a right age to have their own. I guess it's just a culture in the country. I guess?!

a long sigh coming from my mouth when i thought about that things.

"Hey, biggie. don't be like that in front of the food. Go eat right now" my mother said.

my nickname in the house is Biggie, when i was young i am the chubby kid in the street near in our house, that's why they decided that Biggie and also mama is the first one who gave me this kind of nickname. tsk! i really pray that no one in my classmate knew about this nickname.

"Ma, i gotta go!" after finishing my food and a quick toothbrush.

i just took a jeep to commute going to school and suddenly the driver's engine didn't move, i started to worry if this will continue the possibility of me becoming late at school.

gosh! i needed to go to my school right now!! I panicked.

i tried to peek at the road if we are getting there, its just a distance of walk and my school is in there.

i tried to calm myself, and peek in my wrist watch. It was never ending on and off of the engine, and the driver gets frustrated.

i choose to go down in the jeep and walk towards the road to go to the school. Coz i'm getting late.

In the silence of the road way, and the few cars that coming thru, i get a little chills through my skin.

But still i'm shrugging it off, to not feel any nervousness that i feel right now.

"someone's coming guys!" a guy shouted from the other guy, i look at them and shock to what i saw.

"oh my--" i said through out of my lungs and point at them shock.

The guy in front took a glance at me and smile.