her reflection

I hear some sound, piano sound. I open my eyes. I don't know for sure but I fall asleep at this room. I look a girl playing piano. she look so beautiful and graceful. I just blown up by her plays.

"you finally awake" she stop play

"Ah yes" I stand and pat my thight with both my hands.

"I think I'll go now" I take my bag

"yes" she said

"what do you mean yes? you should go back to your home too" i said

"this is my home " she smile

"this is practice room"

"then tell me what is home supposed to be?" She stand

"the place where everyone hates you? "

she stand close to me

"the place where they didn't care if you sick or tired?"

I shake my head

"then tell me? how can I live safely in that place" she crying, she turn around from me

"I'm sorry" she said

I can see her tiny body and her long hair.

I hug her from the back and whisper

"but here isn't safe too"

I turn her body so she face me

"listen, I don't know what happened but I can help you. tell me everything. if I can't help you, I will stay by your side to protect you. also I makes a promise to you"

I wiped her tears

she begin to tell what happened before she came to the practice room. I hold her hands to give her strength so she can tell every details.

when I was at the academy director room she's dragged by her step mother into other academy room.

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"Mom, I'm sorry" she beg to her step mother

"Mom?" she slaps her and hit Clara's body with her bag

"don't dare to call me Mom with that filthy mouth" she keep hits her

"I'm sorry" Clara kneels down

"you know what mistakes you made?"

she look up to her step mother

"how dare you used the power that just given to true blood of this academy heir"

she crouching and pull her hair

"but, your born into this world is already a mistakes too"

"I'll call the scholarship " her step mother stand

"I'm sorry I'll do anything, please don't take the scholarship. he badly need it" clara said

"then can you die?" her step mother said

her eyes become wider, she silence for a while.

"Yes, I'll die. if you want it I'll die. I can't live like this forever. then I'll better die"

her step mother push her to the wall and strangle Clara neck. Clara's starts choked but she didn't fight.

her step mother stop and release her hands from Clara's neck.

clara fall down to the floor and coughing

"I won't makes my hands dirty. after what your mother done and you done after both of you destroyed my perfect marriage I won't let you die easily. you must live and feel the pain that I feel. your mother sins must be paid by you"

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I don't know what she's been trough all this time. and his father didn't help her but also tortured her. her mother maybe done something wrong but she didn't do anything.

"is it hurt? "I still hold her hands

"is it okay if I said it's so hurt? " She said , her eyes look at me. the way she looks at me like a sword that hit to my heart.

"ofcourse "

I hug her , i dont want to let her go. I mean she get tortured cause she give the scholarship to me. I know all she ask is just to spend a day with her. now I know why her wish is to run away even just for a day.

"I know you aks me to spend a day with you. but I'm willing to spend my entire years with you" I said to her

"are you serious?" She said

I let my hug and look at her

"once man make a promise then it's a promise"

I touch her face softly, I touch her lip. I get her hair to the back so I can look her neck. the marks become fade. I kiss her neck. I can hear her heart beat so fast.

"listen, I'm not a good boy back then" I don't know why I said that

"but when I with someone then I'll really loyal to her. I'll never take my eyes to another person except her" I stick my head to her head

"are you likes me?" She asks

"I don't know" I still stick my head to her

"but I'm attracted to you" I said

"so do you give me a chance to stay close to you? " I put both my hands at her cheeks

she nodded

"is it okay if I lose control like before. cause your smell makes me drunk and fly?"

she nodded again

"are you sure?"

"yes" she said

"is it okay if I want to kiss you now, even we're not dating?"

she silent for a while

"I know, I'm crazy" I said I put my hands down and lean my body to the couch.

"I'm sorry. maybe it's sound offensive to you. but I really can't hold myself. but I'm not sure if this love or just a waver"

"I want you to be my first " she said

"what?" I said, I really surprises

"I never done it before" she said

" clara, you can't choose people randomly. it's your first experience and it's important " I explain to her

"that's why I want you. cause I can't hold myself either" she said

i grab her waist and kiss her, I put her on the top of me. our kiss becomes so wild. but still I'm the older one here. I push her body gently.

"it's dangerous " I said

"no need to hurry. let's go home for now" I kiss her forehead

"I'll take you to the bus stop. and give me your phone"

she take out her phone

I saved my number in her phone

"this my number. call me anytime "

we walk out from practice room together.

we don't speak a word. the school is empty. the sky getting dark, there's so many stars tonight. I look at her, she close her eyes and take deep breath and release her breath like she get out everything that weight her.

when we reach the gate a black car stop in front of us. the driver get down and open the passenger door.

"get in" a man sitting in the car said

it's Clara's father the owner of the academy the one that I meet before.

Clara doesn't said anything and go inside the car. the driver close the door.

they leave me alone here standing with many thought.