Chapter 4

~flasback~

Quinn's POV

I returned to my house in my usual late hours ready for a quick shower, everything has been going haywires since I found out my men are being killed out of the bloom. I have had sleepless nights and restless days, ever since Kater died have become like a working machine and colder than I was when I met her. All I feel is rage and anger nothing else and that has made my mafia more powerful.

When my father handed me the business I've have worked so hard so it could be the most respected and feared American mafia. My father has spent years building this mafia and who am to make it tumble down. My mafia is known to be manipulative and brutal that's why I finally have all the police in my pockets but that does mean they don't want to bring me down but they can't because all of my legal business abide by the law so it will be very hard for them to get anything on me.

I removed my clothes and slid the door open to the shower, sighing heavily at the feeling of the warm water cascading over me. I leaned my head foward to and let the water run through my hair, combing it through with my fingers. Showers were my time to think and all I could think about was her even in these two long years I still think of her.

I have felt misarable without her in these long years but that has also made me to work harder to find out who was the cause of her death but during these few years when am almost close, something always come up and wonder why. It as if they are always one step ahead of me.

My thoughts were shattered as Mia made her way into the room. She unhooked a lacy nude-colured bra and slid a matching pair of underwears down her legs, eyeing me through the glass shower doors. I didn't remember seeing her in the house then again my mind was else where. She slid the doors open and crept in behind me, attempting to wrap both of her arms around my waist.

I knew I should've been thinking of the woman pressing her bare chest against my back, my girlfriend and soon am going to propose to her because of our alliance in the business but my thoughts always kept travelling back to Kater. She has always been my true love and is still is and Mia, she's just like a business deal to me.

In an effort to rid my mind of Kater once and for all, I spun around and firmly grasped Mia's waist shoving her aggressively against the wall of the shower. I mashed my lips onto hers in a bruising kiss and wedged my knee in between her legs, keeping them spread for me as I slid my hand down her core.

She had come prepared, she always did know exactly what she wanted. I let my fingers tease her before I lifted her up and slammed her back into the shower wall, digging my nails into the bottoms of her thigh as her tongue wrestled mine. It wasn't romantic, it wasn't loving, it was violent and aggressive. That's how it always was with her. We never made love - we fought, we battled, we conquered.

Locking her ankles behind my back, she pressed her body into mine, sucking on my chest and then neck. I could feel her hardened nipples grazing my chest as she licked up my jangular, it felt nice but it didn't feel right.

Fuck it!

In one swift, aggressive motion, I drove myself into her, thrusting forcefully and making her involuntarily grip fistfuls of my hair. "Oh fuck, Quinn," she hissed as I rammed into her harder and harder. I was relentless. I pulled her legs apart even wider, opening her up as wide as she could go for me and testing her flexibility. She tried to kiss me again, but fuck that.

I quickly dropped my back and stared at the ceiling, avoiding her lips. I didn't want to kiss anymore. I didn't want to know her. I wanted a nameless, faceless woman to fuck away my thoughts of Kater because Mia wasn't doing the trick. God, I was so fucked up even when she's dead she still haunts me. I think of her day in day out, no woman has ever come close to her not even the damn woman who am fucking right now.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" She screamed into my neck as I continued my assault on her. This wasn't love. This was hate. This was anger. Every time I slide out of her slowly, I'd ram myself back into her, battering her from inside. She threw her head back, banging it on the shower wall and groaned...from pain or pleasure, I didn't really care.

I was rough with her, I had a feeling she'd have bruises by the time she woke up the next morning but I knew she didn't care, she wouldn't have it any other way. I stayed completely silent besides the few grunts and groans. This would get the job dome but I just wasn't into it.

"Oh fucking Christ, Quinn!" She barely choked out the words as she spasmed around me, feeling me jerking inside of her as well. And just like that, I dropped her unsteady legs onto the wet shower floor, not giving a shit if she fell on her ass. I grabbed a towel and stepped out of the shower, not bothering to look back at the panting mess I had left behind.

I dissapeared into my closet when I entered my bedroom. I opened one of my drawers reveiling two small boxes, one embedded with gold and purple pattern and the other one was just plain black. I took the embedded one as I opened the top to relieve my mother's ring, its coated with silver and has a beautiful butterfly attached to it in diamonds. I know it looked simple but it held a meaning to it, it was my grandmother's then she passed it to my mother and my mother told me to give to someone special I met in my life.

I wanted to give it to Kater, I know I'm not the romantic kind of person but for her I was willing to do that for her. I was ready to propose to her after our trip in Italy but things didn't go as planned, instead I lost her. I was willing to stay wrapped up on her little fingers but fate played cruelly to us. I know am not one of the best person in life, am cold hearted, cruel, heartless but with her I felt nothing like that.

I was ready to make her be my wife, to be my life partner, to show everyone that she was mine and I was hers but I was too late. I still keep this ring knowing she will always be the one that won my heart.

I grabbed the black box before sliding my sweatpants on and got out from the closet to find Mia lying on bed not missing how her legs were shaking as she stared at me expectantly. I could tell she wanted to go for round two but I had enough of syringing screams, she could make me deaf.

I throw the box on the bed and she looked at me confused as she took it, she opened it to reveal a fancy ring that I sent Gill to buy. I didn't even look at it, I just told Gill to buy the most expensive ring he could find so I could finally get this over with. Women like expensive and fancy looking things so at least that will satisfy her.

I guess my father finally won about this marriage thing. Mia has been of great use in most of my dealings abroad, with her father's casinos my business has gotten much better plus even if I got married to her it won't make much of a differnce in my life. Am not looking for a love story, am just doing it for the betterment of my business.

My father has always wanted me to marry Mia, he has never approved of my relationship with Kater. He always said that I fell in love with the wrong girl that I should marry someone who already knows how this kinds of things operate not am ammature. He just wants to finally tie the both families together and what a better way for the both of us to get married. It would make our alliance more powerful and even if my mafia is most feared in America his not contect with that.

My father could go to any limites, he even threatened to give Jax the business if I don't marry Mia and I had no choice but to accept to his condition. This is my mafia. Not fucking Jax's nor my father's.

Right now, I don't even care who I marry maybe even I will kill her after we are married and take away all of her business, it won't make a difference to me.

"So are you up for it?" I asked my tone coming out cold because it doesn't have any affect on me. She looked at me wide eyed and squealed happily putting the ring on, she tried to hug me but I only took a pillow from the bed and went to the living room not caring what she thought.

I made myself comfortable on the coach not ready to share a bed with someone else. I have never slept with anyone else except from Kater, having sex with Mia is different from sleeping with her and now that have proposed to her I should get ready to share everything with her but not now.