LISTENING

LEO'S POV

Earlier today when I left the house I had not said a word to Arsinoe, I knew I was wrong so, I shouldn't have said such things to her last night and be cold to her this morning so 5i decide to head back home before she had left for work. when I arrived at home I was informed she left immediately after I did and apparently forgot her document on the dinning table so I decided to take it to her to her office so that I could actually apologise.

On my arrival to her office I say Alex's driver who confirmed that his boss is here to see mis Arsinoe. when I heard that its lile this sudden anger was filled in me and all i wanted to do is strangle him, so I just went directly to her office on the top floor. when I got there as usual Laura was there, as soon as she saw me she rushed to where I am saying that her madam is busy, I paid no attention to her and jist walked right in. As soon as I walked in I could see Alex trying to kiss Arsinoe, all my senses left my brain and all I wanted to do was just strangle him to death. He on the other hand had the audacity to tell me what he knows and feels, wanting to take my wife away, seeing how miss informed he was I decided to tell him, I wasn't telling him this so that he can leave her alone I was telling his so that I can see the pain and the hurt from his face which I did. A gutted argument fell and as always it was about her, I am not sure if she enjoys all this because she seems too. she eventually spoke up and asked him to leave, I could have swore that did make me happy inside that he asked him to leave and not me, I guess it feels guess to be chosen at this situation. after Alex had gone i did not want her to think that that's enough to empress me so I started calling out to her behaviour, I knew I was hurting her feeling but I was hurting too. I love her so much but I can't keep letting her do what she wants. I know of her love for him and i know she might never feel the same way for me but i can't stand sharing her feelings with anyone I want to be the only one she loves even though I know this is going to be very impossible🤦‍♀️. When she asked me to leave I was not surprised and i did not even let her say it the second time. I just........ left. Alot of emotions were going through me and all I wanted to do was just feel numb, thats what I have been wanting to feel of late. I knew this love was going to hurt me and destroy me but i had to be strong. I went back to the company and immersed myself on all the piles of documents I could possibly get my hand on. little did I know how time passed and night had already fallen. I thought of going home but what would i say to here so I decided to sleep at the office. I had a back good inside my office so most of the times I did not need to go home at all rather I would do everything I need here especially if I was not acting or anything like that.

Days passed without me going home, I could see calls going through and I could have sworn thats her number but I just did not have the power to pick the call a d hear her voice even though that's what I wanted to do at this present moment, I had missed her voice and everything about her but i can't keep hurting her like this I just can't. I ignored all called even the mansions call because it was too much to take in. Today I decided to go home but before that I decided to get a couple of shots from the bar before I could face her, thats what i told myself but I ended up drinking the entire whisky bottle, maybe i just wanted to feel numb infront of her so that my emotions will be secured from total breakdown🤦‍♀️. And after drinking my soul out I asked my driver to take me to the mansion, I was ready to head home. listening to my inner thoughts.