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Before she got hold of her emotions she noticed that she already have arrived at her destination.... she went to the designated place with heavy heart... she knocked on the door... a lady answered

"Mam... i am lucy... sorry to ask this to you but 18 years ago... have you filed a missing complaint on your child??"

"yes dear... i did... did they find him??"... her eyes were gleaming with hope....

"sorry mam... they did not.... so you lost your son uh??"

"yes dear.... why do you ask??"

"actually mam.... i was separated from my parents too.... and now i am searching for them... so that is why..."

"i am so sorry to hear it sweetheart.... and i will definitely pray for you to find them"

"your son will also come to you soon mam... please don't worry"

"he is the reason i am still alive dear.... he will come back.... just like you ... he will also be searching for me and we will meet eventually..."

"sure mam...then i will take my leave now mam... sorry for the disturbance.."

"no problem sweetie.... hope you find them soon"

"thank you mam "

lucy left that place..... on her way to the bus stop she saw a park... she went in.. sat on a bench and took the list of people who had filed the complaint....

it was a bunch of paper with names and address crossed..... when she reached this address she realised that this was her last hope on finding her family with the help of her police friend.... she was heart broken....

her mind went blank... she did not know what to do next... she felt like the whole world had turned its back on her.... for the first time in her life.... she felt abandoned.... she felt as if she was a waste of place on this earth.... she remembered all the mean things that her family in india told about her... she did not want to believe that this was her last chance but... that is the reality and this time unlike the others.... she had to face the reality..... the reality was harsh... it tore her heart into a million pieces..... she wanted to throw everything she had.... she wanted something some miracle to take her to the past... and make sure she wasn't separated from her family.... and she also knew that it was her wishful thinking and it will never happen.....

lucy at that time cannot afford to take some time for her... she had to go to the hotel.... as it was her only way for her bread and butter.... she picked herself up... boarded the bus... reached to her town and went to the hotel....

one of her colleague.... her friend.... bob.... he noticed lucy.... he felt like she was down.... he thought he can do something to cheer her up... so he decided to help her with her work.... he started doing some prep work for her....

when lucy arrived at her work station...she was vegetables all prepped.... everything arranged in an order....

"how is this.... happy with all the prep??" asked bob

"woww... thank you so much bob.... that is really great... thank you..."

"whatever is in your mind.... shake it off... and start doing the work... if time permits i will take you out for a drink..."

"woww that is so kind of you bob... thank you so much"

lucy started working and the food was delicious as usual.....

Half time was over... number of plates have been served.... the manager came in bursting the door..

"LUCY!!" he shouted...

"yes sir ?" answered lucy

"what in the world are you thinking?? what have you been cooking??"

lucy understood there has been a mistake but she did not realise what it was...

"what happened sir??"

"do you even know how to read??"

"was the food not good sir?"

"go look at today's menu and look at what you have been cooking!!"

Lucy went into the kitchen and looked at the menu and realised she has been cooking Thursday's menu on Wednesday....

she went back in

"i am extremely sorry sir.... i got confused in the rush..."

"what are you going to do now.... the customers are angry that they got a different thing from what they had ordered...they are causing rucks now... how are you going to solve it??"

bob realised that it was his mistake she had cooked a different dish... he was the one who did all the prep work for her... he had seen the menu for the wrong day and did the wrong prep work.... as lucy had just joined she did not know the menu properly..... she saw the ingredients and started cooking the dish....

bob decided to say it to the manager before he was stopped by lucy....

"i will apologies to them sir... and i will take one of their request and cook it for them..."

"and the money will be deducted from your salary..."

"yes sir....i am sorry"

"now go out apologies to them"

lucy went out and apologised to every one of the customers.... some of them were good and understood her while some were not.... the were harsh with lucy.... they hurt her with their words... some even threw wine on her.... but lucy was quiet all the time because it her mistake they did not get what they have ordered...

she went back in the kitchen.... did all the work again.... completed the day finally and left....

bob felt really bad for her because she took the blame for what he had done....

lucy on the other hand felt bad... nothing was going according to her... all her deeds ended up in disappointment.... she was fed up with all the rejection and frustration....

she was angry.... she did not know what to do..... she wanted to do something rash.... she was starting to loose her mind.... she wanted to pour at all out.... but she didn't have any means to do it....

she went to a gym.... and started working out... she thought if she worked up a little sweat she will be all right.... the more she punched the punching bag the angrier the felt.... she did not want to stop... she kept punching it for hours and hours....

meanwhile jack's friends had forced him to take a look at the gym the have been working out.... even if he refused them they were not ready to leave him that day... so he was dragged along with them to the gym...

jack heard people talking about a girl who has been working out insanely for hours.... they were also saying if a person works out so much at a stretch it is not good for their health...

other friends of jack were all interested in seeing the beauty who has been working out like a freak.... all of them went to where lucy was.... jack did not know it was lucy until he saw her....

jack was stupefied when he saw lucy there... she was really aggressive... she was all sweaty and worked up.... she was nothing like how she was when she stayed in his home.... he felt like he saw a new person..... the aura around her was dark... no one dared to go near her....

since jack had read her diary he also knew how she was in the past too... there was never been a time when she had been so angry.... he was even wondering if she ever got angry.... he went to a guy who was working there and asked him how long she has been doing this... the answer that man gave him was no were near what he had thought.... she has been doing it for 7 hours... the whole day....

jack decided to stop her... he thought she had gone insane.... he went near her...

"lucy...."

lucy did not answer him

"lucy you have to stop.... this is insane... you have been working out for 7 hours now.... stop it.."

lucy took none of his words into account... she had no idea of stopping

"lucy.... stop it.... this is not good for your health....stop it..."

Lucy was already weak form all the continuous work she did... she already had a temperature in the morning.... she was weak... she started getting sloppy... her legs started feeling numb.... she was loosing control over her body... her vision started getting blurry... she was losing her consciousness.... soon before she even realised it she had fainted....

jack took her in his arms and rushed to the hospital.... the doctors treated her and let her get some rest...

"how is she doctor?? what happened?? why did she faint??" jack was impatient

"Anger is the reason for her current condition . It causes your body to release adrenaline, your muscles to tighten, and your heart rate and blood pressure to increase. Your senses might feel more acute and your face and hands flushed. However, anger becomes a problem only when you don't manage it in a healthy way... and she didn't manage it properly... this is the worst anger management i have ever seen...The long-term physical effects of uncontrolled anger include increased anxiety, high blood pressure and headache. Anger can be a positive and useful emotion, if it is expressed appropriately. this girl she locked all her negative emotions within herself when she reached a limit where she can no longer hold it in.... she expresses it as anger...Inside your brain, neurotransmitter chemicals known as catecholamines are released causing you to experience a burst of energy lasting up to several minutes. This burst of energy is behind the common angry desire to take immediate protective action. when you keep it inside yourself... this kind of things happen.. and she also had a temperature... all these caused her to faint but her subconscious is still angry and that is not good... you better do something about her rage... or else it will be really bad... stress and rage can shorten your life span.... if you want this girl to live longer.... you have to teach her how to manage her emotions.... she has to express them.. keeping them inside is going to do no good...not for her and not for her loved ones too... and what is about all the scars on her body??"

"what scars doctor??" jack was confused...

"is she some sort of mountain climber or some sort of adventures girl?? how could she get so much scar?? should a girl look after her looks??"

"what are you saying doctor??" she still did not get what the doctor has been saying....

"come with me"

the doctor took him in and showed all the scars all over her body....

"this explains her dairy...." jack was thunderstruck..... "how could they treat a girl like this....." jack felt sorry for her.... she was sad because he was no better than them....he also did the same thing as them...

he felt bad.... he felt miserable..... he decided to help her and take care of her.... he can't undo the pain she had experienced in the past but he decided to take care of her in future.... he decided to not let her go.... he decided to not let her feel any pain anymore.... he decided to be there for her as a brother... moreover he had always found to be dragged to her as a brother... it was like they were connected by something..... it was like they were related...

he took care of her untill she woke up....

Lucy woke up after a few hours... she was surprised to see jack as it has been long since she had last seen him....

"jack??"

"lucy?? ohh you are up!! are you ok?? does it hurt somewhere??"

"no jack... i am perfectly all right... but you??"

"ohh... i went to the gym with my friends and i saw you there.... "

"i am sorry you had to see me like that.... i just wasn't able to control myself.... i don't understand what happened to me.... this is the first time too... i am sorry if i had hurt you somehow..."

"please don't be..... you did not hurt anyone... it was just you were angry "

"i felt so angry that my mind started screaming to do something.... something harsh and rash.... i didn't want to hurt someone near me... that was why i went to the gym... i thought i will feel good if i punch or work out a little... but the more i worked out the more i wanted to.... a lot of things that happened in the past started flowing right through my mind... i felt like i was a different person..... i never once was like that in the past... did something happen to me?? why did i feel like that all of a sudden??"

"it was because you didn't express your anger at time.... your mind wasn't able to hold your anger and sadness anymore.... so you burst open.... but it was really great of you... you decided to go to the gym..."

" all the faces of my dear ones came through my mind.... i felt as if i was hurting them...i wanted to stop it...but i wasn't able to do it..."

"calm down lucy.... we will work on your anger management..... you rest for now"

"thank you so much jack!! i would have had no idea about what to do"

"no problem lucy..... i will take care of you from now...."

"take care of me?? what do..."

"actually i am sorry lucy.... i read your diary"

"you read my diary?? but..."

"i know... i know it was not very good of me to read it... but i somehow did not realise it untill i finished it fully... i am sorry lucy..."

" no problem jack... i had nothing to hide in it too..."

"i am sorry about how you had to spend your childhood like that.."

"there was nothing we could have done about that.... however all of that is over.... i will no longer see them or even go near them... ever"

"you shall not.... i will help you look for your parents here.... you can come for me anytime.... i too will think of some way to look for them..."

"actually i had a plan and i meat a dead end in that too..."

"what was that plan??"

"i had a friend who worked for the police... he was in quite a high post...so i asked him for the list of people who had filed complaint about their missing children before 18 years... and i went to each and every address on it... but i was out of luck... none of them were my family..... but i was really shocked about how many people have missed their children.... i feel really sorry for them.."

"Don't worry lucy we will look for a way..."

"ok jack... thank you so much"