You Can't End Something That Never Began

I look at Harry, then at Noah, and back to Harry. There is no way this is going to go well.

"What are you doing here?" I ask Harry, even though I do not want to hear the answer, especially not in front of Noah.

"What do you think I am doing here! You snuck out on me while I was asleep, what the hell was that?!" Harry booms. I hold my breath as his voice echoes off the wall. Noah's face flashes with anger and I know he is beginning to puzzle pieces together.

I am torn between trying to explain to Noah what is going on and trying to explain to Harry why I left.

"Answer me!" Harry yells and stands in front of my face. I a surprise when Noah steps between us.

"Don't yell at her" he warns Harry. I am frozen in place when Harry's face twist in anger. Why is he so mad that I left? He would have kicked me out anyway. I need to say something before this all blows up in my face. He is probably only angry that he didn't get to make me cry first.

"Harry..please don't do this right now." I beg. if he leave now, I can try to explain to Noah what is going on.

"Do what Theresa?" Harry asks and walk around Noah. I hope Noah keeps his distance, I don't think Harry will hesitate to knock him over. Noah is pretty buff, especially compared to Harry's lean body but I have no doubt Harry will hold his own, and most likely win. What the hell is happening in my life that I have to worry about Noah and Harry fighting?

"Harry, please just go and we will talk about this later" I say and Noah shakes his head.

"Talk about what? What the hell is going on Tessa? Noah cuts in. Oh god.

"Tell him, go on and tell him" Harry's says. I can't believe he is doing this. I know how cruel he can be but this takes it to a whole other level.

"Tell me what Tessa?" Noah asks.

"Nothing, just that I stayed at Harry and Liam's last night" I lie. I try to match my gray eyes to Harry's in hopes that he will stop this now but he looks away immediately.

"Tell him Tessa or I will" Harry growls and I begin to cry.

"Noah..I..me and Harry have been.." I start. Harry's angry face shits to smug. I can't believe I spent the night with him, last night it felt amazing but I knew I would end up regretting it. I just didn't know it would get this bad first.

"Oh my god" Noah stutters and his eyes begin to water. How could I do this to him? What the hell was I thinking? Noah is so kind and Harry is cruel enough to make me tell Noah about us in front of him. His hands go to his forehead and he shakes his head.

"How could you Tessa? After everything we have been through? When did this start?" Tears stream down his face from his blue eyes. I have never felt this terrible, I caused those tears. I look over Harry and the back to Noah. My hate for Harry consumes me and I shove him ack instead of answering Noah. Harry is caught off guard and stumbles backward but steadies himself before he falls.

"Noah, I am so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." I am being honest, I don't know what the hell I was thinking.

I suppose I was thinking that Harry could be decent and maybe I could break up with Noah and date Harry. How stupid can I be? Or that I could stay away from Harry and Noah would never know about what happened between us. The problem is that I can't stay away from Harry. I am ton far gone, too far under his spell, and he didn't hesitate to curse me.

Both are stupid and naive options but I haven't made on good choice since I met Harry.

"I don't know what you were thinking either, I don't even know you anymore" Noah shouts and walks towards the door.

"Noah please! wait!" I scream and rush after him. Harry grabs my arm and ties to pull me back.

"Don't touch me! I can't believe you! This is low Harry, even for you" I scream and jerk my arm out of his grasp. I push him again. I have never pushed anyone in my life except him, multiple times.

"If you go after him, I am done" He says and my mouth falls open. Done with what?

"Done? Done with what? Fucking with my emotions? I hate you!! You can't end something that never began" I say, my voice no longer shouting. His hands fall to his sides of his mouth opens but no words come out.

"Noah!" I call and rush out the door. I run down the hall and finally catch up to him in the parking lot. He notices me and walks faster.

"Noah, please listen. I am sorry, so sorry, I was drinking, I know that isn't an excuse but I.." I wipe my eyes and his face softens.

"I can't listen to anymore.." he says. His eyes are red. I reach for his hand and he pulls away.

"Noah please, I am so sorry. Please forgive me" I can't lose him and Harry in one day. Even though Harry was never mine and Neve would be, it still hurts to see his newest level of hated for me. Especially after the way he held me and called my name in his sleep.

"I just need some time, Tessa. I don't know what to think" He says and runs his hair over his perfectly gelled hair.

"Okay" I sigh in defeat. He just needs time to get over this and we can go back to normal.

"I love you Tessa" he says and catches me by surprise when he kisses my forehead and climbs into his car.