Ocean - Things Aren't Looking Good
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Ocean
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I was glad that I didn't have to go to school today. In all honesty, with everything that had happened yesterday, I was feeling miserable today. My head ached and throbbed like crazy. My eyes were heavy from lack of sleep, not to mention that they were puffy and red from all the emotions that I had been feeling. I refuse to admit that I had been crying.
And to go along with all of that, there was a hollow, empty sort of ache in the pit of my stomach. That ache tended to act up when I either saw or thought about Ben. I think it was a sort of sympathy pain since I knew how I would feel if Makai had rejected me now that we were together. I know it's not the same thing. Not by a long shot.
To begin with, Ben and I were in opposite positions in our unique situations. When it came to who was the main person that would chase or love the other first, Ben was more like Makai, and I was more like Ryan. Though even that isn't a good comparison.