The day we met part 2

On 16 March 2023, I went to meet Tani again, maybe this would be the last time with him, and he called me a stalker. When I saw him standing in front of me, I felt overwhelmed by feelings, overjoyed but scared because I did not know where it would lead to. I already knew he did not want to talk with me after what happened. But he was so precious. I gave him a last chance to get him again. I got to realise that it's ended. I had to accept it already. Maybe my heart still beats for that one person. I do not know why I'm holding onto him when he Is already gone. I met him for the first time, and I melted. His eyes were looking so magical. The way he said stuff was as sharp and soft at the same time. As his cute tiny nose and a bit chubby cheeks with messed up hair, a little fat but so cute and looking so gorgeous at the same time, his face was not clear at all but oily with some imperfections making him perfect at the same time. I felt like I fell for him again. Even though I knew it, I should not. To not show anything, I smiled effortlessly. But my eyes were so attached to him that it became the best day of my life. The way he took my specs to try them made me feel so free. I felt warmth. I felt safe. I felt like a layer of sadness is peeling off me, letting the inner juicy happiness show. I can't express the love I had for him cause I was so nervous he would run away. That day I met him for the first time, he apologised to me multiple times cause he never knew that I would come to meet him. He apologised to me for the way he treated me back then.

But I only told him that it was okay. I came here to meet you all. Let's be happy. We talked a lot with each other. Yes, I was there for him. I never knew I could love this hard also. But I did, and maybe even in the next life, I still want him cause no one can replace e him.

Yes, he hurt me, and I did that too. Maybe he felt so suffocated by our friendship that he just let it go. I want to leave a simple message for him here. "I am still waiting for you as a friend this time."

We all have different stories of the one we love, and just like our life, the stories take some turns, but who knows when they will open the chapters of secrets? I try to end my life's chapters in my way, but it's just a way I try to convey stuff here with you. Through this story-telling, I end up creating fake scenarios in order not to lose myself. The chapters are never-ending. Just like every person in life, until the earth's end.

So, I think that's all about my first love, and still some more, but let the story continue. I will tell you about him some more.

To be continued.....