Chapter 2

<p>_______________________________________<br/>AN: I don't know why you read this<br/>_______________________________________<br/><br/><br/><br/>After that revelation everything starts to clear a little bit more and with that clarity I start to understand what I am<br/><br/>I'm the fleeting conscience thoughts of who I was before I merged with Artoria Pendragon who at the time was most likely a child <br/><br/>But why are we only just remembering at the end of it all, unless at the time her young underdeveloped mind and soul couldn't handle a fully developed consciousness and existence <br/><br/>So wall my soul and consciousness merged and made hers far stronger than it should have been, no wait ours <br/><br/>So well I am her and she is me, the me of before memories must have been locked in the very deepest part of our soul and mind<br/>Only to emerge when it was time or so I think<br/><br/>" Hey Artoria hold out your fist"<br/><br/>I say remembering a certain anime(AN cough Naruto cough)<br/><br/>Artoria still looking so lost and confused does so awkwardly while looking questioning at me<br/><br/>As are fists meat we close our eyes subconsciously, feeling as if shackles that have been holding me my whole life freeing along with everything falling in place <br/><br/>Bits and pieces of memories flow through my mind of a world at peace, of a time that I know so well but is yet to come <br/><br/>Of things to be invented, foods to be created and cultivated so many wondrous things to come and go <br/><br/>But something that grabs my attention is something I recall, anime and novels a past time in my last life I used to escape the reality I've came to find bland and to find joy in others creations such as Naruto, Code Geass, Bleach, <br/><br/>Fate<br/><br/>A story of masters and servants battling it out for a holy grail and wish <br/><br/>A character wishing to save her country from ruin <br/><br/>A naïve master wishing to save the world from war and suffering <br/><br/>Betrayals and revelations I'd never thought possible<br/><br/>A perspective I've never had before begins to clear things I thought were my mistake's, burdens and regrets that I've placed upon myself for the longest time we're not just solely mine<br/><br/>I feel as if a cloth it had been wrapped around my head began to loosen and fall away <br/><br/>I can not save my Country for its destruction is needed for humanity to move forward and an age to pass, i may not like this fact but at this point it's set in stone and i now see that clearly but what should I do now <br/><br/>I'm a heroic spirit for at least one grail war and it will most likely be the fourth <br/><br/>I need a plan to break away from the World. No wait I'm still technically alive in my time and if I immediately terminate the contract I'll bleed out resulting in my death and be taken to Avalon<br/><br/>That's the answer to the questions I've yet to ask: Avalon <br/><br/>If only it were not stolen and lost to time it could've most likely healed me<br/><br/>" WAIT that's it"<br/><br/>I don't have it now but I know when it will be and how it will be used, although that comes with its own set of problems <br/><br/>Such as if I get my hands on it and end the war, would it travel back through time to my body with me<br/><br/>No wait it should, I'm alive if only barely in my time so my soul is most likely being summoned in a spiritual body constructed of the legend of King Arthur <br/><br/>How else would I still have Excalibur when it was disarmed from me by Mordred and on my death be returned to Vivian, but Avalon came with no such instructions and is 100% mine <br/><br/>All I'd have to do is soul bond to Avalon as I should have along with Rhongomyniad, with my mind restored and my memory sorted through and organized for later use<br/><br/>A dark shade of emerald eyes open in the darkness<br/><br/>" Well now that's all sorted how does this work, HELLO SUNMON ME"<br/><br/>I yelled with no response whatsoever to the void or whatever this dark space I find myself encased in <br/><br/>"sigh"<br/><br/>Well with nothing to do and no idea when I'm going to be summoned or called upon <br/><br/>" I suppose I should train more, being stuck behind a desk all day bens bad on my instincts and swordplay i've also got to remember the magic lessons i've learned as a child from the dick wizard"<br/><br/>Focusing my mind to create the inner world l'd enter as a child to get instructions from Merlin on magic and etiquette <br/><br/>In an instant I appear on the familiar and nostalgic grass covered field i'd swing my sword for hours on as a child getting instructions from sir Kay on my form <br/><br/>In an instant I'm reminded of how inhuman I'd become<br/><br/>" Becoming a king means no longer being human"<br/><br/>Fuckin Merlin man <br/><br/>Of course I wouldn't be human, I was never truly treated as one <br/><br/>my whole life was planned before I was even born <br/><br/>Wake up, <br/><br/>tend to the farm and chores,<br/> <br/>Train in the ways of a knight by Sir Kay<br/><br/>Go to sleep only two be thought by Merlin in my dreams<br/><br/>That asshole, I never truly got sleep till I became a king but that was only 1 to 2 hours at the best of times<br/><br/>"Merlin and Morgan are truly perfect for each other"<br/><br/>Both seem to be good with dicks though <br/><br/>" Thank God for that"<br/><br/>I say while remembering the time Merlin used magecraft to turn me into a pseudo-male capable of producing sperm for the duration of a week <br/><br/>Only for it to completely stay and be completely irreversible, it was funny seeing true panic on his face at that time <br/><br/>Now that I think about it it's probably because of my wish, being male to female would've been hard but I get to keep my dick so<br/><br/>"Ooh"(Sigh of relief)<br/><br/>Well time to start focusing and refreshing on all that I've known and come to known <br/><br/>"Suppose it's time for one of those epic training montage skips that I've seen in my memory"<br/><br/>I say as I am about to go through everyone of my memory, The life I've known and a life I'll come to know.<br/><br/><br/>_______________________________________<br/><br/>Good <br/>Bad <br/>What's it gonna be leave a comment if you have one?<br/>Peace✌🏼</p>