Death was not so easily outrun, however. So when Varamyr came upon the dead woman in the
wood, he knelt to strip the cloak from her, and never saw the boy until he burst from hiding to drive the
long bone knife into his side and rip the cloak out of his clutching fingers. "His mother," Thistle told him
later, after the boy had run off. "It were his mother's cloak, and when he saw you robbing her …"
"She was dead," Varamyr said, wincing as her bone needle pierced his flesh. "Someone smashed
her head. Some crow."
"No crow. Hornfoot men. I saw it." Her needle pulled the gash in his side closed. "Savages, and
who's left to tame them?" No one. If Mance is dead, the free folk are doomed. The Thenns, giants, and
the Hornfoot men, the cave-dwellers with their filed teeth, and the men of the western shore with their
chariots of bone … all of them were doomed as well. Even the crows. They might not know it yet, but
those black-cloaked bastards would perish with the rest. The enemy was coming.
Haggon's rough voice echoed in his head. "You will die a dozen deaths, boy, and every one will
hurt … but when your true death comes, you will live again. The second life is simpler and sweeter, they
say."
Varamyr Sixskins would know the truth of that soon enough. He could taste his true death in the
smoke that hung acrid in the air, feel it in the heat beneath his fingers when he slipped a hand under his
clothes to touch his wound. The chill was in him too, though, deep down in his bones. This time it would
be cold that killed him.
His last death had been by fire. I burned. At first, in his confusion, he thought some archer on
the Wall had pierced him with a flaming arrow … but the fire had been inside him, consuming him. And
the pain …
Varamyr had died nine times before. He had died once from a spear thrust, once with a bear's
teeth in his throat, and once in a wash of blood as he brought forth a stillborn cub. He died his first
death when he was only six, as his father's axe crashed through his skull. Even that had not been so
agonizing as the fire in his guts, crackling along his wings, devouring him. When he tried to fly from it, his
terror fanned the flames and made them burn hotter. One moment he had been soaring above the
Wall, his eagle's eyes marking the movements of the men below. Then the flames had turned his heart
into a blackened cinder and sent his spirit screaming back into his own skin, and for a little while he'd
gone mad. Even the memory was enough to make him shudder.
That was when he noticed that his fire had gone out.
Only a grey-and-black tangle of charred wood remained, with a few embers glowing in the
ashes. There's still smoke, it just needs wood. Gritting his teeth against the pain, Varamyr crept to the
pile of broken branches Thistle had gathered before she went off hunting, and tossed a few sticks onto
the ashes. "Catch," he croaked. "Burn." He blew upon the embers and said a wordless prayer to the
nameless gods of wood and hill and field.
The gods gave no answer. After a while, the smoke ceased to rise as well. Already the little hut
was growing colder. Varamyr had no flint, no tinder, no dry kindling. He would never get the fire burning
again, not by himself. "Thistle," he called out, his voice hoarse and edged with pain. "Thistle!"
Her chin was pointed and her nose flat, and she had a mole on one cheek with four dark hairs
growing from it. An ugly face, and hard, yet he would have given much to glimpse it in the door of the
hut. I should have taken her before she left. How long had she been gone? Two days? Three? Varamyr
was uncertain. It was dark inside the hut, and he had been drifting in and out of sleep, never quite sure
if it was day or night outside. "Wait," she'd said. "I will be back with food." So like a fool he'd waited,
dreaming of Haggon and Bump and all the wrongs he had done in his long life, but days and nights had
passed and Thistle had not returned. She won't be coming back. Varamyr wondered if he had given
himself away. Could she tell what he was thinking just from looking at him, or had he muttered in his
fever dream?
Abomination, he heard Haggon saying. It was almost as if he were here, in this very room. "She
is just some ugly spearwife," Varamyr told him. "I am a great man. I am Varamyr, the warg, the
skinchanger, it is not right that she should live and I should die." No one answered. There was no one
there. Thistle was gone. She had abandoned him, the same as all the rest.
His own mother had abandoned him as well. She cried for Bump, but she never cried for me. The
morning his father pulled him out of bed to deliver him to Haggon, she would not even look at him. He
had shrieked and kicked as he was dragged into the woods, until his father slapped him and told him to
be quiet. "You belong with your own kind," was all he said when he flung him down at Haggon's feet.
He was not wrong, Varamyr thought, shivering. Haggon taught me much and more. He taught
me how to hunt and fish, how to butcher a carcass and bone a fish, how to find my way through the
woods. And he taught me the way of the warg and the secrets of the skinchanger, though my gift was
stronger than his own.
Years later he had tried to find his parents, to tell them that their Lump had become the great
Varamyr Sixskins, but both of them were dead and burned. Gone into the trees and streams, gone into
the rocks and earth. Gone to dirt and ashes. That was what the woods witch told his mother, the day
Bump died. Lump did not want to be a clod of earth. The boy had dreamed of a day when bards would
sing of his deeds and pretty girls would kiss him. When I am grown I will be the King-Beyond-the-Wall,
Lump had promised himself. He never had, but he had come close. Varamyr Sixskins was a name men
feared. He rode to battle on the back of a snow bear thirteen feet tall, kept three wolves and a
shadowcat in thrall, and sat at the right hand of Mance Rayder. It was Mance who brought me to this
place. I should not have listened. I should have slipped inside my bear and torn him to pieces.
Before Mance, Varamyr Sixskins had been a lord of sorts. He lived alone in a hall of moss and
mud and hewn logs that had once been Haggon's, attended by his beasts. A dozen villages did him
homage in bread and salt and cider, offering him fruit from their orchards and vegetables from their
gardens. His meat he got himself. Whenever he desired a woman he sent his shadowcat to stalk her, and
whatever girl he'd cast his eye upon would follow meekly to his bed. Some came weeping, aye, but still they came. Varamyr gave them his seed, took a hank of their hair to remember them by, and sent them
back. From time to time, some village hero would come with spear in hand to slay the beastling and save
a sister or a lover or a daughter. Those he killed, but he never harmed the women. Some he even
blessed with children. Runts. Small, puny things, like Lump, and not one with the gift.
Fear drove him to his feet, reeling. Holding his side to staunch the seep of blood from his
wound, Varamyr lurched to the door and swept aside the ragged skin that covered it to face a wall of
white. Snow. No wonder it had grown so dark and smoky inside. The falling snow had buried the hut.
When Varamyr pushed at it, the snow crumbled and gave way, still soft and wet. Outside, the
night was white as death; pale thin clouds danced attendance on a silver moon, while a thousand stars
watched coldly. He could see the humped shapes of other huts buried beneath drifts of snow, and
beyond them the pale shadow of a weirwood armored in ice. To the south and west the hills were a vast
white wilderness where nothing moved except the blowing snow. "Thistle," Varamyr called feebly,
wondering how far she could have gone. "Thistle. Woman. Where are you?"
Far away, a wolf gave howl.
A shiver went through Varamyr. He knew that howl as well as Lump had once known his
mother's voice. One Eye. He was the oldest of his three, the biggest, the fiercest. Stalker was leaner,
quicker, younger, Sly more cunning, but both went in fear of One Eye. The old wolf was fearless,
relentless, savage.
Varamyr had lost control of his other beasts in the agony of the eagle's death. His shadowcat
had raced into the woods, whilst his snow bear turned her claws on those around her, ripping apart four
men before falling to a spear. She would have slain Varamyr had he come within her reach. The bear
hated him, had raged each time he wore her skin or climbed upon her back.
His wolves, though …
My brothers. My pack. Many a cold night he had slept with his wolves, their shaggy bodies piled
up around him to help keep him warm. When I die they will feast upon my flesh and leave only bones to
greet the thaw come spring. The thought was queerly comforting. His wolves had often foraged for him
as they roamed; it seemed only fitting that he should feed them in the end. He might well begin his
second life tearing at the warm dead flesh of his own corpse.