Mental Escapist

18th of March in the year 2022. Time of day, 11:19 in the afternoon. *Written on my phone*

It's been lot an awful day. Despite going outside just to get an extra cheap cup of black coffee at its smallest size at the convenience store, that terrible tasted like the mucky water of an unflushed toilet full of faeces and piss.

I managed to get a hold of my anger. Despite the fact that I already let myself go and give in to insanity and just to merely accept and embrace my true me, a gift of creativity and extreme intuitive intellect. Rather than a curse, they call a disease, an illness… A disorder.

As soon as I headed inside the convenience store outside the 4-storey building by the plaza of town. Which was around the east side of the town square, by one to two blocks away from the municipality hall. And in front of it was the huge park wherein, in the very middle of the town square, was a small hut made of bricks and stones mixed with cement and a bit of gravel.

It was a beautiful sight that gave me outmost nostalgia. That is why I usually come here in Guagua town just for the sake of reliving my younger days as a high school teenager during his phases from one fandom to another during the early 2010s. Such as CreepyPasta, Stockholm, anime, the Gothic subculture, the quiet kid with his favourite hoodie that is probably a complete edgelord who thinks gore is the coolest thing better than porn.

Despite porn being advertised in all gore websites. Especially best gore being taken down for some reason.

Not to mention my FNAF phase, where Minecraft used to be fun and cool until the dreamstans came to ruin everything.

Dream is a cool guy, the fact that I can agree he's the best Minecraft youtuber, I just hate the stans and his toxic fans that force Dream to have sex with a minor called TommyInnit.

Back then when Georgenotfound made ARG and iceberg contents were delightful, Quackity making LeafyIsHere content that will definitely make crazy Minecraft stans hate and cancel him, and most of all, before Corpse Husband used to be cool that he took advantage of his amazing soothing voice that was deeper than the Mariana Trench, just to make the best horror story content better than Chills.

Now they've fallen down to the fascism of YouTube demonetising everything to make every YouTube video family-friendly and does the opposite for YouTube Kids.

That is the exact same thing that had happened to PewDiePie, which is the main reason why I stopped watching him.

Freedom of speech is now just an illusion. The fact that sensitive SJW's and self-proclaimed feminists, and racist 'Karens' censoring every word in the English dictionary, saying they're all slurs and offensive.

Believe me, I've been on both Twitter and Reddit. I have both accounts there. They are clashing with one another. And I am in neither side.

I think both platforms are great, but the people on either sides, both of them, are horrendously stupid, dumb, and retarded.

Stupid being an offensive slur for people with an intellectual disability. Dumb being an offensive slur for deaf people. And retard being a slur for the ones who actually suffer it. That is what they all say.

The fact that people have different types of metabolism which they can't control. I was hated by "the fat race", yes you heard me right. They claim to be the fat race and they hated me for being too skinny on Twitter even if they know I eat like Nico Avocado, the obese YouTuber that eats 50 hamburgers a day for YouTube views. I still don't get fat because of my high metabolism, which is out of my goddamned control.

They call me " fatphobic" and racist to the fat people race, which they also do to their doctors.

These types of people on social media claim to be better than doctors despite their doctors that are only trying to save them from getting a heart attack and studied it for over 6 years just to get a degree and help people. They still kept ongoing with their god complex. Not to mention their narcissistic behaviour and attitude.

Body positivity is fine. It's good for you. Just don't do or say stupid stuff like this on the internet and encourage obesity.

And I had all these gruelling thoughts in my head as the voices get louder. I realise I've been zoning out for literally 30 minutes in front of the counter at 7-11. I finally snapped back to reality after being dissociated from space and the cosmos of thoughts in the void of oblivion.

"I'll have the usual." I said.

"Sir, I don't know you." She said in the rudest way possible.

"Oh, so you're a new worker here. Cool! I'll have a small cup of black coffee, please."

"What size?"

"Small."

"What flavour?"

"Coffee."

"Here!" And she just threw the cup towards the counter, not giving a damn I'm the world, acting all sassy.

I took the cup and went to go get some ice. Which all the rest of the workers know that I always get ice first before going to the coffee machine.

Usually the clerks here know me as their most loyal customer and they instantly give me a small cup in the nicest way possible and grin at me as soon as I come here. And they always tell me first if the ice by the soda machine is working or not before I even think about it. Their service here is the greatest despite I hate the taste of the coffee here. Which I appreciate. Quality in service is always better than the content itself.

Then, I went to go get some ice and the new clerk lady did not allow me and was very rude about it, truthfully.

So, I just went to the coffee machine having to bear the hot stinging sensation on my tongue which is very painful. Because I usually am the type of person who gulps and chugs any coffee in one go. Especially five shots of the smallest espresso cup. The bitter the better, as long as the taste is in good quality with enough punch of caffeine.

The coffee machine only gave half of my entire cup and I pressed the button again. But she had to stop me. It's not fair. She told me I can only get once. The cup is fucking half empty!

Usually the clerks here give me a chance to get the full cup each and every time. But this bitch probably doesn't know what she's doing here.

Which I have to commend her. She's just still new here and she's just doing her job. I can't be mad at her for doing what she thinks it's right for the store and keep her job. So, I respect her for that.

Then, I headed to the hospital to see my father. Then, the skinny brown crack addict looking guard stopped me with his eyes red. He looks intoxicated. He told me I need to wear a face shield. The fact that quarantine is over he literally stops everyone from getting inside unless you have a face shield. He doesn't care if I have my super expensive medical K95 mask on. He wants all of us to wear both facemask and face shield in order to get in. Half of the people inside don't even have a face shield. And the rest are wearing both their facemask and face shield wrong!

I was pissed off. I just wanted to visit my father after fighting cancer.

I went outside to buy a face shield, which I did. The most suspicious thing is, no one in every store doesn't sell face shields anymore since quarantine was lifted off. But the closest store had to face shields on display in the most attractive way possible.

It's so obvious the guard was paid to do this shit.

I went to buy anyway rather than having to go Karen mode by asking for the manager because everyone in the hospital obviously know he's lying. He even freaks out to deny the fact he was paid to do this by the store right outside of the hospital's driveway.

I just didn't want to cause any trouble because I'm already in a bad mood. It's summer in the Philippines and I want to calm down from the literal heat of the scorching sun. I felt knackered from all that walking, really.

Then I was let inside and a Karen just had to make a scene for the rest of us instead of me acting out to the point of getting kicked out not to visit my father that's sick.