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Anna's POV:

"What if that thing will kill you?" Edward asked in a voice that was laced with loathing for the little one growing inside of me and pain at the idea of what would happen to me as his anguished and pleading depths burned into my eyes.

Immediately I let go of his hand and crossed my arms over my chest while a threatening growl rang out behind me. My husband quickly glared at who most likely was Rose before his eyes softened and found mine again.

"Our baby will not kill me and no Edward I will not have an abortion. And you better not call our baby a thing ever again," I told him calmly but firmly with a slight edge in my voice.

"But…"

"Oh for the love of god Edward I survived James, Werewolves that were not housetrained, Dylan, a freaking army of Vampires, I was shot and died and I travelled through space and time it's not like a pregnancy will strike me down." It suddenly exploded out of me.

I was annoyed with him but reminded myself that yelling at Edward was without avail. He would only felt pushed into a corner and shut down.

Edward was taken aback at my outburst but also winced as I reminded him of each one occasion he nearly lost me.

"I love you and once the little one is here he or she will love you too and you will be happy to be blessed with his or hers presence in your life." I told him in a softer voice.

"Anna," my name was a pained and scared cry of desperation.

He looked so fragile and vulnerable while he was gazing at me. I could almost hear him praying that I would see his reason.

I sighed.

"Well this is one of those situations where I am right and you are wrong." Edward shook his head at my words.

I took a step closer to him rose on my toes and placed a light kiss on his mouth.

"You know I would never do anything to hurt you. This is going to be alright. Have some faith in me." Now I was the one pleading.

His arms sneaked around my waist as he pulled me flush against him, burying his face in my neck.

"I can't lose you." His breathy cry reached my ears.

"You won't." I assured, stroking his back and shoulders for comfort.

After a while he pulled away but didn't let go of me. I knew that he was not happy with the situation but he was smart enough to know that once I made up my mind there was no swaying me though that didn't stop him from trying.

"Uhm….Anna," I cranked my neck to look into the direction of the voice that called my name, "if that is alright with you I would like to take you to the hospital and perform an ultra sound." Carlisle's wise and curious eyes gazed at me in wonder while he looked thoughtful as if he was trying to solve a mystery but then again my pregnancy kind of was.

"Sure but I should warn you in the books that didn't work because the baby was protected by the Vampire version of the amniotic sac. Only Vampire teeth could rip that thing open. The entire birth scene was creepy and nasty to be honest." I shook my head remembering that.

"But then again Alice couldn't see Bella once she had gotten pregnant so maybe in reality it's different."

"Or maybe it's you because you were originally not a part of this world and you have venom in your body…"

"Alright Edward we figure it out." I put my hand up to stop his rant because he was getting frantic.

"Figure it out!" He scoffed and I could hear the displeasure thick in his voice.

"And besides what happened to the reason why you had to be turned in the first place?" He was suddenly anxiously looking between Carlisle and me.

"In my vision she had quite a belly and she was pretty alive." Alice offered.

"When women are pregnant there are many things going on in their bodies, the entire hormonal household is changing maybe….."

"I don't like the maybe in your theory Carlisle." Edward grumped and pinched the bridge of his nose.

He certainly wasn't taking the news of my pregnancy kindly but at least he wasn't throwing a childish temper tantrum either.

Carlisle looked apologetically at Edward and sighed.

"Can I accompany you for the ultra sound?" Rose approached me while hope and anticipation was shining in her brightly lit eyes.

I saw Esme's depths also light up and Alice was impatiently bouncing on balls of her feet with a huge smile on her face.

"Sure you can all come along….." I said and looked at Carlisle asking him silently if we all would fit into the hospital room where he would perform the ultra sound on me.

After we moved to Bettles, Alaska, near the Gates of the Arctic National Park Carlisle started to work in the Bettles Field Hospitals. The house here wasn't as big as the previous one but that wasn't needed anyway Edward and I were not meant to live with our family after I was turned.

Esme had renovated a lodge into a luxury cottage far out in the wildness for Edward and me.

We would have lived about thirty minutes on full Vampire speed away from the rest of the family to be further away from humans on the one hand and on the other hand to have our privacy as a newlywed couple.

"The room in the neurology should be big enough." Carlisle answered.

Emmett and Jasper shrugged to one another but there was a glimmer of curiosity on their faces while Esme, Rose and Alice beamed like the sun on a hot summer day whereas I felt a sinister rain cloud besides me.

I looked up at my grey cloud and grabbed his shirt to pull him down for another kiss driving my fingers into his silky hair while he pulled me even closer to him.

"Man those pregnancy hormones." Emmett boomed clapping his hands loudly together efficiently breaking Edward and me apart.

Emmett was grinning hugely at me, having this evil glint in his eyes and by the low growling from my side I knew that he was already thinking about all the ways he could tease me.

I narrowed my eyes at him grabbed my husbands hand and pulled him with me as I moved to stand in front of Emmett.

"You know Emmett once I'm huge," I was circling my free hand in front of my still flat belly, "and all of those pregnant hormones really hit my system I will cry for no good reason." His grin fell a little.

"And I have the feeling you will be the one to crack me up each and every time so you may already want to think about how to make me stop crying when all my hormone filled body and mind will want to do is to wail."

The grin fell off his face completely and he looked a little freaked out before he cranked his neck pleading for assistance from Jasper but the empath just smiled evilly and shook his head.

"You would help your brother out, right."

"And miss the fun?" Jasper asked laughing and shook his head again.

Emmett swayed his eyes back to me and we were starring each other down until a big, victorious smile appeared on my face.

"You know you are no fun at all."

"Pregnant women usually aren't." Alice sang as she came up to my other side.

"Ouch," I said mockingly but smiled at her.

As much fun as this goofing around was suddenly my mood was taken down a notch when I though about how this must be affecting Rose and Esme. I looked up at them and saw Esme leaning into her husband with a content smile on her face while Rose was staring at my belly completely fascinated.

0~0~0~0

"Ahh…that's cold." I breathed as Carlisle put the slightly bluish looking gel on my belly.

"Shouldn't you be used to cold by now?" Emmett asked amused.

"It just took me by surprise." I laughed.

"Sorry," Carlisle apologized.

"Don't worry yourself over it," I waved him off as he was reaching for a white plastic piece that he guided to my exposed and with gel covered stomach.

Edward hovered by my head while Esme and Rose were standing on the other side of the bed I was resting on looking on the screen in edger anticipation.

I smiled softly as I saw Alice push herself between Esme and Edward to be able to also look at the screen. I reached for Edward's hand and he gazed down at me when I touched him. He offered me a worried smile before he placed a kiss on my forehead.

Carlisle was brushing the white ball-like plastic thing, I had no idea what that was called, over my belly and some shadows that moved around appeared on the screen. To be honest I couldn't see much there. I knew that those were my insides but I couldn't really recognise anything though the others were staring with fascination at the screen.

"It's so tiny," Rose breathed tenderly in complete awe while she was leaning further in to be closer to the screen.

"I think I speak for everyone who does not own a medical degree what exactly is so tiny and where is the baby?" Emmett asked confused, intensely staring at the screen but not seeing anything much like myself, Alice and Jasper.

"This here," Carlisle pointed at a little dark shadow on the screen, "that is the baby."

I gazed at the little shadow but it was hard to imagine that this little dot would grow into a tiny living being. I knew that of course it would but still it was hard to imagine.

"You are going to be a father," Esme sobbed happily looking at Edward with a mixture of happy emotions that overtook her face.

I glanced up at my husbands face and saw his mixed feelings clearly written on his face. His face formed into a pained masked before he brought my hand to his lips and kissed the back of it.

Rose hissed at him and gave him one of her hate filled glares.

"It's OK Rose he'll come around." I assured her knowing that my husband was in pain over this.

Edward didn't like not to be in control or being clueless. He didn't fair well not knowing about things especially when those presented a threat to my or our family's wellbeing. He then felt helpless and useless and that was something he was not accustom to deal with.

"He better," she muttered under her breath before she turned her focus back on the screen.

"Say Carlisle aren't there those ultrasound scanner were you can see the baby in 3-D?" Jasper suddenly asked.

"Yes, there are. The hospital has one of those in the gynaecology…."

"Can we go there?" Rose interrupted.

"Not without an appointment. The head nurse for the gynaecology is pretty strict besides I think it would be best if I would just order everything that we need. This baby isn't human I don't think it would be smart to make any kind of examination in the hospital."

"Maybe we should move." Esme suddenly threw in.

We all looked at her with questions in our eyes.

"The weather here is too harsh and cold here and unstable. Anna always reacted sensible to great weather changes. We should move somewhere with a stabile climate."

"Don't you think that is a little over the top I mean we just moved here. It's not even been a month." I piped up.

"Esme is right it's too cold here for a pregnant woman." Rose agreed with Esme.

"You know the women who live her also get pregnant."

"What do I care they do not carry my niece or nephew." She crossed her arms over her chest and glared mildly at me.

"Do you want to get a cold or worse and threaten the health or even life of the little one?" Rose's eyes burned fiercely into my own.

"Oh boy," I sighed already seeing in my minds eye how the next few weeks would play out.

They would treat me like a fragile china doll.

"Guys I'm pregnant I'm not about to die." I huffed at them while Esme and Rose were discussing where we should move to efficiently ignoring me.

"Wait!" I suddenly called out and straddled everyone.

"Look in the books the pregnancy only took about two to three months it doesn't pay out to move anywhere."

"It may have been so in the books but we have September the 11th right now and in my vision there was snow in the back yard."

"We are in Alaska," I threw in, "it snows early here."

"Yes, but according to the trees that I saw through the window in the living room we were not in Alaska that kind of tree do not grow around here."

"Trees in the window?" I asked dumbfounded trying to remember if there was even a window in my vision. The visions still caught me so off guard that I was not able to pay much attention to details. And even though I had developed a photographic memory it didn't work on the visions for some reason.

"Haven't you even noticed that it wasn't our living room you were in, in the vision?" Alice carefully asked me.

"Haven't really noticed much besides the huge belly."

"Well it was winter you were still pregnant but not about to pop. It's save to assume that your pregnancy will take longer then two to three months." Alice shrugged with her shoulders.

"I have to agree with Alice. From what I can see on the screen I would say that you are in the forth week what would mean that you got pregnant at the beginning of the honeymoon." Carlisle mused.

"Or maybe she got pregnant just a few days ago and it's growing fast." Edward grumped.

Alice huffed and closed her eyes.

"See Christmas and she is still not ready to pop." Alice crossed her arms over her chest and glared at Edward.

I nodded and sighed as Edward was still holding my hand tenderly but firmly in his while his other hand was brushing through my locks as he leaned down to place a kiss against my temple.

The conversation went on where they left off and when Rose threw in some medical terms regarding my pregnancy while discussing the move with Esme and Alice it occurred to me that I was going to live with three Doctors in the house, well Rose and Edward weren't really practicing physicians but still they had the knowledge.

I groaned and threw my free arm over my eyes.

"Anna, are you alright?" Edward's frantic voice rang in my ears.

"Yeah, I'm fine," Just shoot me please.

"Maybe Montana would be a good choice." Jasper offered all of the sudden.

"Montana? Riverfront! It's not far away from, Missoula, the next big city if we need something. It has just enough people to blend in perfectly and the climat was stabile and mild the last time we were there." Emmett pointed out.

"We haven't been there since the forties," Esme mused.

"The estate is big enough." Rose nodded to herself.

"If the handiman would work in two shifts the house could be ready in two and a half weeks. I need to start with the sketches right away, the huge room on the west side could function as a medical room…" Esme was jumping into action listing everything she had to do.

"Boy, am I causing trouble or what?" I joked lamely.

"What are you talking about? That is no trouble at all. We will take care of everything you just rest well and make sure the baby grows to be healthy and happy." Rose told me sternly before she turned her attention back to Esme and Alice and the three of them were discussing what needed to be done.

Frankly I didn't understand their logic I could also be pregnant in Alaska but seeing how the males all took a step back from their wives I thought it would be the smarter thing to do not to oppose them, at least yet.

I would make myself known if they went overboard.

The next three weeks past in a blur; Carlisle did all kinds of exams on me to make sure I and the baby were alright. He tested my blood every two days to monitor my blood picture and figure out if he needed to alert the substitute blood I was drinking to my needs but so far I was fine with what I had been drinking.

Edward was another matter while everyone else was over the moon by the news of having a little one crawling around the house soon he was my little grey cloud what pissed Rose off unbelievably.

I cheered myself up with the knowledge that though he was mopping around like a stubborn child he wasn't making any plans to get rid of the tiny rug rat.

"Are you alright?" Edward asked me as we were sitting in the back of Carlisle's Mercedes Rose, Emmett and Jasper had already brought some of our cars from Alaska to Montana while Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Edward and I had come with a the plane.

"Yup," I popped the "p", "Baby Cullen and I, we are fine."

"Baby Cullen?" Esme turned around looking at me with a questioning gaze before a smile lit up her face.

"I like that." She nodded.

"Since we don't know what it is yet we should call it baby Cullen."

As always Edward said nothing to that while Carlisle also voiced that he liked the idea whereas my husband tightened his grip on me and pulled me closer to him, placing a kiss against my temple.

My cell rang out, fishing it out of my purse I took a look at the ID.

"What's up Alice?" I said after I pushed the button for the loud speaker.

"In about ten minutes we will pass a print shop they do also prints on t-shirts we should stop and get you one of those shirt with the slogan "Home of baby Cullen" and a arrow down to your belly or how about "I grow people, what's your superpower?" or "I'm pregnant and you want to know how I'm doing today?" or "Bun in the oven" or "Warning sudden mood swings or cravings may occur"…." She was totally excited.

"Oh that is a wonderful idea we should defiantly do that sweetheart." Esme was clapping her hands together and Carlisle nodded at her with a warm smile on his lips.

I cranked my neck and looked out of the back window seeing Alice and Jasper in the car behind us.

"Alright then let's get those t-shirts and while we are there we can make some for you guys too. I'm sure there are some slogans for grandparents, aunts, uncles and fathers too."

We stopped at the shop but only got one t-shirt for me with the slogan "Home of baby Cullen" Alice didn't like the quality of the t-shirts and the designs they had but made an appointment to come back with her own clothes and designs.

"I think the fabrics are soft enough Alice." I murmured while I was brushing the t-shirt against my cheek.

"No, it's not and you will not wear it to sleep."

"Then why did we even buy it?"

"We bought that one because Rose will love it when she sees you in it and second my designs will be better then what they had to offer."

"I somehow get the feeling I had been used as a dress up doll but didn't even notice it." I narrowed my eyes at her while smiled hugely at me.

Edward escorted me back to the car. His arm was wrapped firmly around my waist while his face was a blank mask. His impassive behaviour regarding our baby was starting to annoy me a little but it was still bearable. I tried my best to be as understanding as I could with him.

I pulled the t-shirt that was about two sizes too big over my clothes as we neared our new home. I gasped as I saw the huge house that was nestled into the forest.

The house was parted into three complexes that were all linked together and the middle complex that had two levels instead of one like the other two had was made out of windows. The house was painted in a dark wooden beige colour and had a dark brown coloured roof.

I exited the car and admired the new home.

"Baby Cullen, huh?" I heard Emmett's voice.

"Like it?" I smirked at him.

"Of course I do," Emmett said and grabbed me to give a hug.

Edward growled lowly while Rose reminded him not to squeeze me to hard.

"I'm fine Rose really."

"Yeah, Edward you should really lighten up." Emmett shook his head at my husband who immediately wrapped his arm around me the second Emmett let go of me.

"Alice is already planning to make shirts for all of us." I told Rose as she came to greeted me.

She smiled and nodded at me while giving Edward a heated glare before going to greet Esme and Carlisle.

"Let's go inside," I said while I looked up at Edward as he gave me a tortured smile.

I sighed plastered a smile on my face and went to climb the big wooden stairs that led to the welcoming looking front porch with the white metal table and chairs while on the other side of the porch was a veranda swing nestled into a variety of green plants.

The mansion was a beautifully post-and-beam design in a light wood colour. Already in the hallway I could see that the colour shame was a little darker then what I was used to from our houses but still very light with all the white and the variety of wooden colours.

The main room had an open-concept with a huge built-in fireplace featuring large stone facing from ceiling to floor. Large wide-beam, wood plank flooring and beams added to the charm. The Ceiling-to-floor windows offered a beautiful sight of the sea that was only a few feet away from the front yard.

"There is a boat with the house?" I asked with a smile on my lips as I saw the rowboat at the small landing stage.

"Yes, it's ours." Edward murmured while he came up from behind me and wrapped his arms around me resting his head on my shoulder rocking us both a little while we were gazing out of the huge window wall.

The kitchen was fully equipped with granite countertops, built in large double door fridge, custom centre island with a cook top, built in oven, microwave and dishwasher and everything else a cook could dream of.

There was a large open loft upstairs overlooking the lower grand room and the lake. Up there was Esme's and Carlisle's bedroom and his office as well as her art room.

This mansion had three apartment-like sections much like our house in Kingesten. From the outside I could only see that there were three complexes that made the mansion but it were four.

Edward and I occupied the one at the south side while Rose, Emmett, Jasper and Alice took the ones at the west side.

The Edward's and mine bedroom had a spacious walk-in closet with built-in shelves and an ensuite bathroom that was large and had a modern design. A built-in fireplace in the bedroom would provide a romantic atmosphere. The high-light of the room was the large deck.

The bedroom was big enough to fit in a small couch and a coffee table near the fire place. The TV was movable and one could watch from the bed as well as from the couch.

The room next to the bedroom was made to be the medical room. When I opened the door to the room I saw that it was already fully furnished and all the medical equipment had arrived and was set up.

Edward sighed as he saw the room. I turned around and put my hands on his chest looking up into his sad and pained pools of gold.

"I ignore your behaviour as good as I can but it does hurt Edward."

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath before opened his them again and spoke.

"You are hurting me too, Anna, by going through with this."

I exhaled a lung full of air as I closed my eyes and my head bowed down. I licked my lips before I looked up at him again and pressed my hands into his chest.

"I hope you know me good enough to know that I would never do anything if I wasn't one hundred percent sure of it and in this case I am. I know that our baby will be a beautiful being. And I hope you are aware of the fact that I would never do anything to hurt you or our family." I said in a quiet and sad voice before I let my hands slid off his chest and I stepped away from him.

But before I could walk away he grabbed my hand and curled his fingers tenderly around mine. I stopped but didn't turn around neither did he made me. We stood with our backs to each other.

"I know that….but I'm too scared of losing you." He admitted in a quiet whisper.

I didn't say a word but only squeezed his hand as the sun broke through the cloudy sky and shone into our bedroom letting my skin shimmer while hundreds of colourful facets were bouncing around the room reflecting off Edward's.

0~0~0~0

"How are you feeling?" Rose asked me looking with sympathy in her golden eyes at me as I let myself fall down on the couch in the living room. Edward who had his arm wrapped around my waist sat down besides me and cuddled me into his side, playing with my hair the way I liked it.

"A little better now that there is nothing left in me to come back up," I sighed.

A day after we moved to our new home the morning sickness started to my dismay I was hoping that I would be one of those lucky ones that were spared of that displeasure but no.

"Here have some of these," Esme said as she appeared at my side with a tray of crackers in her hands offering me a warm smile.

"Wow Esme you certainly stocked up on those." I squeaked stunned as I saw the variation of crackers she offered me and grabbed one shoving the entire thing into my mouth so I wouldn't crumble the floor.

"Carlisle she can't keep anything down," Edward lamented looking at Carlisle who was sitting near the fire place reading a medical book about pregnancies.

Edward and Rose had also been refreshing their knowledge about pregnancies just in case.

"Her respond to the substitute blood is good as long as it stays like this there is nothing to worry about. And you know yourself that the morning sickness will most likely go away in a few weeks." Carlisle responded calmly, giving Edward an encouraging smile before he went on reading.

My husband sighed but nodded and pulled me closer to him kissing the top of my head.

I was watching some TV curled up next to Edward after my stomach settled for the day as Alice bounced into the living room.

"Read for the shopping trip?"

"Again I don't think that is a good idea." Edward grumped.

"We are going shopping for the baby you can either come with us or stay home." I said before I placed a soft kiss on his lips and made to stand up.

Edward of course rose from the couch with me looking as depressed as ever.

"You know Edward if you are going to look like that you might as well stay home." Rose barked at him being annoyed to no end with his mood and behaviour.

My Vampire only scolded at her and wrapped his arm around my waist.

"You should leave him here Anna."

"If I do that he will just worry himself sick and drive everyone else crazy." I looked apologetically at Rose.

His behaviour was tiring and if I thought that giving him a good wash down would do any good I would have let my frustration out but Rose was giving him the wash downs on regular basis already and all it did was to increase his sour, tortured and sad mood.

I was in the huge walk in closet deciding what to wear for the shopping trip while I felt Edward's eyes burning a hole in the back of my head as he was leaning against the short strip of wall near the door that was left unused.

I was just searching for the light grey scarf that I had bought not long ago in the enormous bureau that stood in the middle of the closet when suddenly I felt familiar hands resting on my hips and Edward's lips touched the skin of my bare shoulders since I was dressed in only my jeans and a white top with spaghetti straps.

"I love you so much," he murmured quietly.

I closed my eyes and a small sad smile graced my lips.

"I love you too, Edward."

"I hate the distance between us. It feels as if you are out of my reach no matter how close I am to you," his voice grew desperate and pained while his arms sneaked around my belly and encircled me, pulling me further into his body as he tightened his grip on me.

I exhaled heavily and let silence fall between us before I said the next words.

"Then come back to me."

"I am here but I don't know how to reach you." He whispered breathlessly in my ear.

I pressed my lips into a thin line and traced one of his hands with my fingertips before preying it off my hip and placing his hand on my belly.

"You know how." I breathed lacing my fingers with his while our intertwined hands rested on my tummy.

Edward whimpered and buried his face in my hair taking a deep breath but not saying anything.

0~0~0~0

"And here I thought that going to Bloomingdales with Alice was the worst kind of shopping trip." I mumbled as I let myself fall down into the huge comfy bed.

We had been to seven different stores for baby supplies, bassinets, buggies, toys, rompers, nursery items and many things more. I had nearly forgotten just how much stuff such a little one needed. But the amount of things the little one needed was not the problem but the fact that Esme, Rose and Alice blew everything out of proportion.

I doubted that baby Cullen would care if his or her rompers were mint green or forest green or everything was up to date with the newest fashion but I was not getting into that minefield.

We didn't buy anything yet only looked around though I couldn't help but buy a very comfortable rocking chair, though as a Vampire I would be comfortable no matter what.

Esme, Rose and Alice were making list of what to buy and they were outrages. I honestly didn't see the reason why it had to be rompers with a label on it that cost a small fortune but I was not going to argue.

Suddenly I shot up taking in a deep breath as I did so. I couldn't allow myself to think that way. I knew how much everyone would love baby Cullen how much they already did but if he or she got spoilt rotten there was a chance that he or she wouldn't turn out to be a good person.

I didn't want my kid to be one of those that didn't know how to say thank you or didn't appreciate the little things in life but always expected the best of the best regarding it as a given.

My own thoughts surprised me and a smile appeared on my face. I was already thinking like a mom scary.

While the resolve was forming inside me I heard Edward's light footfall as he walked out of the bathroom, he was barefooted. He stepped directly into my line of sight smirking slightly at me whereas his hands moved to the hem of his sweater and he slowly pulled the fabrics up his muscular torso, exposing those yummy abs that were contracting with every one of his moves.

After an almost tortures amount of time he pulled the sweater over his head letting it fall down on the ground at his side. There he stood in front of me then, just a few feet away wearing only his jeans that had the top button already open.

"What are you trying to pull?" I asked him with a smile in my voice.

My husband didn't say anything instead he made to move in my direction closing the distance between us before he knelled down in front of me.

His hands went to my knees and pushed them apart so he could scoop in more and rested between my thighs. His hands never left my thighs instead they started stroking my sensible flesh through the thin pantyhose I was wearing.

I sighed in contentment and braced myself behind me on the bed with one hand while my other hand went to drive through his messy, soft locks.

Edward moaned lowly while my nails where scratching his scalp and he leaned in to burry his face in my chest. He kissed each one of my, with fabrics covered, girls before he skimmed his way up to my bare neck.

My husband nibbled his way up to my jaw following it's line before his lips finally found their way to my mouth. First he left three soft and tender kisses on my lips before he pushed them apart with his tongue, deepening our kiss and his actions grew more heated.

Soon the kiss was one of passion and desperation while his hands were roaming every single part of my body leaving a trail of liquid fire in their wake.

"Please let me make love to you," his voice was a breathy plea while he nibbled at my earlobe.

I was surprised by his request we hadn't made love ever since we found out that I was pregnant, much to my chagrin. Edward would hold me tenderly and kiss me but it never went beyond that.

I had no idea what caused the change in his mood but I was going to take full advantage of it.

His body was pressed up against mine and I could feel every wrought-up breath he took against my chest while his one hand held me close to him whereas the other was deeply buried in my hair.

A smile graced my lips and I grabbed his head in my hands, he looked unsure down at me for the briefest moment before I guided his head down to meet my lips whereas my thighs sneaked over his waist and I crossed my legs behind his back, holding his tightly pressed to my body, silently demanding of him to carry on with his mission.