Chapter One//Ten Days

This Story is indicated to any girl out there who feels lost and alone. I understand in some way.

CHAPTER ONE

I stood at the edge of the cliff that gloomy day.

Part of me needed a place to think without being interrupted, and another part of me actually thought about jumping that day.

The sky was dark grey, and then I felt the first cold drop of rain. And then second. Pretty soon, I was standing there as rain ran down my face and soaked my hair. It was cold and I was shaking, but I did my best to ignore it.

I didn't bother putting my hood up or seeking shelter. If I Decided to jumped that day, I'd have landed I'm water anyways. Getting wet beforehand wouldn't matter.

I took a step closer to the edge. The waves crashed down below, but they were too far for me too hear. I could still imagine the sound of them roaring as I got closer and closer after jumping. Soon enough, I'd be relieved with the calming sound of the water before it all ended and in the end. It would be the best way to go.

I needed to it. Now, I thought. Because waiting would only cause me to change my mind and complicated everything. And in the end, death is inevitable, so why not just end the pain know?

Prolonging it is useless.

I closed my eyes, just relaxing and letting the rain consume my thoughts. I was about to slip off, when a voice I didn't recognize spoke.

"Please.....don't do it."

I froze, unable to move. Another obstacle. Another person standing in the way of my only way out.

"Everything will be okay. Jumping isn't the answer...."

I slowly turned around. My eyes were already gazed over and a tear manage to slip out. It was unnoticeable due to the rain, but my red eyes had made it obvious.

"My name's Grayson. Grayson Anderson." He took a small step closer.

"Just go" was all I manage to spit out.

"And just leave you here? what kind of person would I be if I did that?" He smiled sadly

"I just.....I've made up my mind you're wasting your time." I looked behind me and back down at the water. 'Soon', I thought.

"Please. You have so much to live for." He took another small step forward.

"You don't know me. I don't have friends. No one will care if I die, So I'd rather be dead and at peace than being alive at stuck here." My voice trembled. "This place.....It's hell. all of it."

"Well I want to be your friend. I'll care. And I'll feel so ashamed of myself if you end up jumping." He seemed genuine with his words, but I just knew that once he saved me he would forget about me. he wouldn't actually want to stay and be my friend. It would ruin his image if he was seen with me.

And even if he did want to be my friend, I wouldn't want it to be under these circumstances. He would only stay as my friend because he'd feel obligated to do so. I didn't want to looked at some charity case. I'd want my friendship to be real and genuine.

Pity. It would all be out if pity. that's now how friendship is supposed to work.

"I....I just want to die. I've wanted to die for a long time, but now I finally have the courage to it, And it doesn't seem scary anymore," I replied but only half of it was true. Yes, I'd wanted to die for a long time. There was nothing here to look forward to. I was tired of being looked like a cheerio in a bowl of fruit loops. I didn't fit in here, but I knew that I'd fit perfectly with the water. I'd jump and the water would pull me in for an endless hug, and I would swim forever.

The lie, however, was that it doesn't seem scary anymore. I was more willing to go through it, yes, but I was still terrified. I didn't know what to expect afterwards, and if it would work.

My life was the only life I'd ever get, so choosing between life and death would never be an easy decision.

Grayson took a other two small steps closer to me. "Let me help you. Let me show you how beautiful life can be. You don't need to die to find peace." He held his hand out to me, and I could see that his eyes were filled with hope. A sense of hope that I would take his hand and choose to live because of him.

So I took it. He pulled me in for a tight hug. I was brawling, but he stayed. And after a few minutes, he asked me my name.

"???" as I said my name quietly