A reminder of the past

After a shower, we both went to sleep, and as usual, I found myself in the realm of nightmares, where Freyja was waiting

-Welcome back Eric…

-How long has it been?

-1 day, just like you said, time is now stable for both sides

-Wonderful!

I was quite happy for it, but Freyja hugged me

-Freyja?

-I'm sorry…I'm sorry…

I sighed and hugged her back

-I am not upset at you

-But I betrayed you…you have done so much for others…for me…and yet…I didn't trust you…I remained passive when you were suffering…

-Kazuya had a charm ability, it isn't your fault that you weren't thinking clearly

-But I was!! I knew exactly what was going on!! And I still did nothing!!

-How could you know that?

-…Because…because…I was warned by Erizabeth

That made me stop and look at her in shock

-She spoke to you?

-She did…she warned us…she told us…and unlike Peony…we doubted you…

-…

-I'm sorry…

-Then, may I ask why did you doubt?

-I guess…a part of me couldn't believe that you really were as kind as you looked…it was too good to be true…

-…

-…But it was…and I screwed it up!…I'm sorry…

She is crying now…I really hate seeing her like this, so I tightened my hug

-After the life you have led, its obvious you would be wary, I don't blame you

-But-

-And now, those doubts deep inside your heart are finally gone

Before she could speak, I kissed her forehead, making her stop dead in her tracks and look at me with a strong blush

-So let's start again, this time, no more doubts, no more distrust, what do you think?

I smiled gently

"Freyja"

"❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 (Why are you so wonderful?)"

Uh…

-Eric…

-Yes?

-I love you

Ah…yeah, guess I did push it there didn't I?

I wanted to answer but she just kissed me, no more words were said, I was stunned

-Master…

[I genuinely didn't expect it to end like this]

-That's the worst part…you are being honest, you really didn't expect it to end like this…master, were you a casanova in your past life?

[…Leona is my first girlfriend]

-Then how the heck are you able to act like this?!

[Dunno…instinct? I mean I am taking a lot of inspiration from media of my world…]

-That doesn't work!!

[It isn't supposed to…maybe having a handsome face helps?]

-You still lose to her Z rank!

[Eh?]

-Oh for the love of! Analyze!

"Freyja"

"Rank: Z-"

"Age: NO"

"Strength: Z-"

"Agility: SSS+

"Magic:Z-"

"Endurance: SSS-"

"Charisma: Z+"

"Luck: S-"

"Perception: SSS"

[What the…]

-She is very strong, then again, she is supposed to be a minor Goddess

[Isn't she stronger than fucking Mundus?!]

-In her realm, in the mortal realm she would be SS+ at most

[Huh…]

While we were talking, I was still making no moves to stop Freyja, I can't deny that I am starting to enjoy kisses a bit too much…

After a while, she stepped back

-How…wonderful…

-Didn't take you for the aggressive one

-Based on your knowledge from your previous life?

-Nah, that one don't apply anymore, you are a very different person that the one I knew

-Eric…could you tell me?

-Who you were supposed to be?

-Yes…I am curious in regards to that…did you help me because of who I was? Or was it because of who I was supposed to be?

-Still like that?

-No, I am just curious, the answer doesn't matter, I will still love you

-…I didn't recognize you when we first met, you were just a ram girl being attacked and I was there to help, as for my previous life, I liked you, but it was more pity

-Pity?

-Originally, no one but your brother was kind to you, and eventually, just like now you would hit an astounding level of beauty and everyone would change their tunes, but you ignored them, instead becoming obsessed with your brother, to the point that it became unhealthy

-Huh?

-Ya see, your love for him ceased to be fraternal and became obsessive, Triandra and Plumeria were merely tools you used, you didn't care for anyone who wasn't Freyr, but because he cared for mortals too, you grew jealous of them, eventually starting a cruel purge by making them all fall into an eternal sleep and that way, you wanted to have Freyr all to yourself

-Wasn't I the villain then?! A crazy psycho?!

-Yeah, you were, and I pitied you because the only true genuine connection you had was your brother, and in his attempt to save the mortals and prevent you from becoming a mass murderer, he gave up his life and died, you lost it and took it out on the main characters, but by the end, it didn't work, and you died too, with your final action being to revive Triandra and Plumeria since they died in the previous battles, you wanted death to be with Freyr again…and it was implied that it didn't work

-…

-Hence my pity, I didn't want you to go through that, and now I am certain that you won't

She hugged me again

-Sounds like a horrible nightmare…

-The original story was filled with that, but since I now have power, I can prevent such tragedy from repeating

-…Thank you….

-Don't thank me, all I did was prevent a future that was uncertain, my existence here might have changed a lot, perhaps your future was different from the get go?

-…No…

-?

-Before I met you…I was thinking like that…

-Ah…

-I would have gone down that same road, I would have lost everything…if not for you…

-Freyja…

-Eric…please…remain by my side…don't let me become that monster…please…

I kissed her, that was enough of an answer for her, we remained like that for a while, before I finally told her

-I will, until the end, I just hope you know who you ended up with

-A sinful man who will likely seduce a lot more innocent girls with his charm? I am aware

-Lovely

I gave her a quick kiss

-I promise though, that I will give you more love than you ever thought could be possible

-Oh…

She looks very cute when she blushes, heh, well, I will make her other self jealous, I may not be Freyr, but that only means I am not bothered by the blood connection, frankly, I never expected things to go like this, but I'll take it!

"Freyja"

"❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 (3rd lover)"

-And another one bites the dust, master, how many will you have before you are satisfied?

[Dunno, I just want to see them smile, everything else means little…I only hope sis doesn't have a heart attack when she sees her sisters in law…]

-Oh, poor Megan will have a meltdown…

[Sorry in advance sis…]

…

…

-A-Choo!!

-Megan sweetie are you ok?

-I'm fine mom! Someone must be talking about me…

-Ok, enjoy yourself sweetie!

…Yeah…that's difficult…for all of us mom…

…Big bro…

It has been a year since it happened…and yet I am no better than the day I found out…

I miss you big bro…why? Why did you save her? No one would have cried if you had let her die…

Idiot…idiot!

My tears once again began to fall

Don't you know how much mom and dad cried?! Don't you know just how broken I was left?! How distraught everyone was?! How could you just die like that?! For her?!

I miss you…mom misses you…dad misses you…

Why was it you and not her?…Why…

I looked at our console, it was covered in dust…I haven't been able to play it ever since the accident…every time I try memories flood my head and I start crying again…

Big bro…I miss you so much…

It's not fair…everything that used to bring me joy now makes me cry…I miss you…

-It's not the last time you will see him

?! What the?!

-Hold on to hope, you will see him again

Am I hearing voices?! Am I going crazy?!

-No, you are not, your big brother is working very hard to see you all again

Big brother…lives?

-Yes, but not there, I am sure you have heard of the term…he got, Isekaid

-!!!

-There is a chance he will see you all again, after all, he misses you just as badly, but he is trying, don't go giving up now

-Wait! Is he ok?! What world is he in?! Is he happy?! He is not in those deconstructions right?!

-My, my, what a cute little sister he has… no wonder he broke down when another girl called him that

-…

-Don't worry, while he had suffered setbacks, you of all people should know how stubborn your brother is

-…Will I truly see him again?

-I swear, don't give up hope ok?

-…This is not me going crazy…right?

-Let me give you proof then

Suddenly, a cd spawned right in front of me, it was made from pure light…this…this is supernatural…big bro got isekaid…

-This will allow you 2 to speak, but it can only be done with one family member, so sorry, but your parents will have to remain in the dark, this is the most I can do based on his achievements, but the more he does, the more I can do in return

-I can speak to him…?

-Yes, for as long as 2 hours, after that, you will have to wait again until he does enough to warrant another

I took the cd and the voice stopped, I rushed to the computer and put the cd in, however, a message showed up

"Lock your room, this is for your eyes only"

I did and the screen began to load, after a bit, an image appeared, a boy was reflected on my screen, short black hair, purple eyes, wearing a blue shirt, white jacket and a blue scarf… he looked like big brother…but a lot more handsome…however, I could tell it was him, and just like me, his eyes were filled with tears when he saw me

-Oh god…Megan…? Sis…? Is…is that really you…?

That was his voice…it's him…it's actually him…

-Eric…big bro…you are alive…

We both were crying, but we didn't wail…this was too important for us both, we had a time limit, I didn't want to waste any time, so I went off on him

-IDIOT!! IDIOT!!! YOU GOD DAMN IDIOT!!!!

-…Sorry…

-WHY?! ANSWER ME WHY!! WHY DID YOU SAVE HER?! WHY DID YOU DIE FOR HER?! WHY DID YOU LEAVE US?! WHY!!!?

He was smiling sadly, I can only imagine how awful I look, but I couldn't care less

-Sorry…I wish I could give you a satisfying answer but…I don't know myself…I just…I saw her about to get her due punishment but…I still ran to save her…no thought…no hesitation…I just went…and when I came to…I had pushed her

-You acted on your own?! You didn't think?! You just acted?!

-…Sorry…I am so sorry…

I can't…not when you whimper like that…

-I never wanted you to suffer sis…I never intended for any of this to happen…but I couldn't…I can't ignore people who are in danger…

-…Huh?

-In my time in this new world sis…I have nearly died like 6 times…every time, because I can't ignore it…I can't ignore others…I have to save them…my soul screams at me to save them…I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…to you…to mom…to dad…oh god…I am so sorry…I never wanted to hurt you…

Don't cry like that…or else I'm gonna cry too…

-I missed you so much sis…I miss mom…I miss dad…I want to see you again…there is so much I want to tell you…so much I want to share…

-Big bro…

-…Hah…I…it feels…so good hearing you call me that again…

I want to cry…berate him for leaving us…but can I truly be angry at him for saving someone? Even if she is a bitch…

-Sis…how is everyone?

-…How do you think? How mom and dad felt when they had to bury their own son?

-…God…I didn't want any of that to happen…I'm sorry…mom…dad…sorry…

He looks awful…he may be more handsome now but…the grief in his expression pains me…he saved someone…and all I am giving him is grief…god…I…

-Big bro…

-I…I am working on it, I will find a way back, I promise I will apologize to mom and dad myself…sorry for leaving early…

-No…you did something admirable…you saved someone…I'm just being awful…I shouldn't berate you…I miss you so much but…when I finally see you again I…I…

-No, it's fine

-No it's not-

-You are my little sis, you can be as spoiled as you like, my duty as your older brother is to always make you happy…and I failed you…you have nothing to apologize for…I deserve all the criticism you have, don't hold back ok? Let it out

-Damn it…IDIOT! IDIOT!! IDIOT!!!

I couldn't help myself, I screamed at him, I shouted, I was so frustrated…I don't want to insult him…I don't want to be angry at him…especially when he does such a miserable expression…but I am just so angry…all the pain…all the tears…all those nights either me or mom cried ourselves to sleep…

He never fired back…no matter how unreasonable I was…no matter the awful names I called him…I was crying so hard I could barely see him anymore…but he just listened, quietly…fuck…I'm the worst…I'm sorry big bro…I'm sorry…

But, as I cried, I suddenly felt a very gentle hand on my head, it was patting me…

-I know this hardly can be considered an apology…But please…wait for me…I promise, we will meet again, face to face…

Dammit…dammit…it's not fair…why…why can you always soothe me?…Why can I never be angry at you for long?…Why does this hand feel so warm?

-So…can I ask you for a selfish favor?

-Favor?

-…Cecilia…look after her…please

-?!

-I know…it sounds crazy…and I know you hate her…but I saved her, I don't want her to experience hell because of what I did…please Megan…take care of her…if she is still unreasonable after what happened, then screw it…but if she isn't…if she has changed…please…

-…You are an idiot big bro…

-I know

-…I will try

-Thank you sis

Again, that warm hand…

-Are you doing that?

-Yeah, I have learned magic here, what you are feeling is a mixture of light and wind magic, it cannot express my longing for you, but I hope it soothes you…I promise…I will find a way back

-…Ok…

He has become even better than when I last saw him…more…mature…

I looked at the time, we have only 30 minutes left…I spent an hour and a half berating him…ugh…what is wrong with me? I finally got the chance to talk to him again and I wasted so much time…

-Don't look like that sis, you had to get all that off your chest, I understand, it's my fault to begin with, so please don't be sad…

-…Big bro…

-Come now, wanna hear about this world?

-…Yes…

-Lovely

He smiled kindly at me, as he always did when I acted spoiled…

-This new world is like ours, it's not a fantasy setting, but an urban one

-And yet they have magic?

-Aye, and monsters too, there are these things called gates that are like tears in reality, and from it, monsters spawn, monsters like those we have faced in our games before, I recently cleared one filled with Nioh youkai

-Nioh?!

-Yeah, this world, Urdak is a mashup of worlds we know, games we played, characters that now live, they are people we can meet here…I have met and befriended many legends sis…you wouldn't believe it…

-Wait! So there are videogames characters and enemies there?! How many have you antagonized?!

-It's all good sis, I have strong friends and allies who will protect me, keep me in check if I go too crazy…

-Then…who have you met?

-Well, I befriended King

-?!

-Her name is Claire…it was indeed Claire

-I knew it!! Did you help Jean?!

-Of course, I paid for the surgery and put Mr. Big in prison after beating his bitch ass, King will soon be my bodyguard

-Awesome!

I can't believe I am now laughing after all I said…but…I feel so much lighter after getting it all off my chest…big bro…even now…you still look out for me…

-I also fought Link ya know?

-Link! Was it a spar or a fight to the death?! We both love him but…

-Don't worry, he is good in this world, and he is like my brother, much to my surprise, in this world he is siblings with Zelda and Impa

-Which game they resemble?

-Botw

-Wait, if they are siblings, how is Zelda gonna awaken? I assume you befriended her too?

-…More than that

-! Did you…

-This world is different from ours after all…so the most cliche of isekai themes rang true here too

-Harem?! You did that?! You got a harem?!

-…Yeah

-Big bro…

-Don't give me that look! In this world it's ok!

-I know but…feels weird knowing I will have more than one sister in law…then…you are dating Zelda?

-Yup

-I am impressed, guess that handsome face of yours is useful huh?

-It helps, but it ain't all

-How many do you have?

-3, I am dating 3 girls

-3…Man…that feels odd…can you make them happy big bro?

-Of course, I wouldn't dare try if I couldn't

-…How long have you been there?

-…7 years

-7?!

-It hasn't been long there I see, judging by how young you still look…

-…It's only been a year

-A year…I am glad the time dilation is not so brutal for you…

-But it is for you!

-Not to worry sis, in this world, thanks to mana, lifespans are increased heavily, I can last up to 3k years easily

-That's a long time!

-Yeah, so when we meet again, I will still look like a young fella, and so will your sisters in law

-God damn…I see that you haven't had that bad a time there

-I gotta try to enjoy myself, no matter how much I miss you all, I must focus on becoming stronger, the sooner I get results, the sooner I will get to see you all again

-…Big bro

-Yes?

-…Please tell me, who are your girlfriends? We already have 1, Zelda, what about the other 2?

-…Leona

-Silent soldier Leona?!

-Yup

-Haha! Was it just meant to be? Your annoying main is now your lover, millions of guys here would crucify you for it

-Oh trust me, I would be the enemy of men back home, also, Link and Mipha are a thing here

-Really?! You gotta make sure they remain a thing! Have you seen signs of calamity Ganon?!

-Yeah, but he won't awaken yet, and even then, me and Link can kick his ass! Add Impa and Zelda and this is overkill!

-Eh…so who is the last?

-I should introduce her shouldn't I?

He look off camera and smiled gently, a different smile than the one he gives me…

-Come on, you have to meet her

Soon, a breathtaking girl appeared by his side, I couldn't believe it

-FREYJA?!

-Um…hello…

-Brother! How did you do that?! Wasn't she Yandere levels of obsessed with Freyr?!

-Yandere?

-A girl that can be as sweet as honey on one second and turn psycho at the next

-Please don't compare me to my game counterpart! I am no longer that incestuous maniac!!

-Eh? Did you change the plot big bro?

-I had the chance so I took it, but at the start, I didn't recognize her

-How come?! She is drop dead gorgeous! Unless you were blind you wouldn't recognize her!

-Well, when we first met, she looked different

-Ah, I see, you met her when she was being harassed by those losers right?

-Nailed it

-And what did you do?

-Drop kick

-As usual, you aren't subtle at all big bro…

-Screw subtlety! Drop kick to win!

-I swear…

…

-Say, big bro

-Hm?

-…Why did you never fight back against Cecilia?

-…Cuz I was weak, I didn't dare fight back because I was weak…I am no longer weak, I will no longer remain passive when I can help, that is the major change sis

-…Hm

He has changed, for the better…heh, wonder how mom and dad will react to the 3 daughters in law…! Wait!

-Big bro!

-Yeah?

-What kind of Mc are you?!

-…Eh?

-Are you dense?! Carnivore?! Beta?!

-I'd say the hopeless lady killer

-Hey!

-But he can be quite passionate when needed

-Don't say that to my sister!!

-Oh come on, at least she has to know you are no beta

-Ugh…

-How do you even know what it is?

-I am a goddess you know? Seeing as you would use a bunch of words I didn't understand, I took the liberty of checking darling's memories

She already calls him darling?!

-You did what?!

-Don't worry, I didn't prod too much, just enough to catch your way of speaking, honestly, how could you even deal with those main characters? I thought you were passive but those guys take it too far!

-So you aren't a carnivore then?

-I don't want to talk about that to you sis…

-Are you embarrassed?

-OF COURSE I AM!!

Finally! I got a reaction out of him! He seemed to have noticed too and we both began laughing

-I truly missed this…

-Me too…

I looked at the time, we only had 20 seconds left

-…Time's up

-So it seems…shame, I was enjoying this

-…Big bro, take care of yourself, make sure you can one day come see us again

-You too, please do what I asked

-I will, Freyja…please take care of my brother…I know he can be a handful…but please…I don't want to lose him again

-Promise!

-Ok…goodbye big bro

-See ya Meg…take care of mom and dad for me please…

And then, the video cut…

"He will get more time, believe in him"

I will

I dried my tears and smiled, big bro is doing his best there, I have to do my best here too…I also have to care for Cecilia too…hopefully she changed her tune after what big bro did

…Ok…yeah, I'll be ok…

I will see big bro again