His past

"Look Katherine, there are things you don't know about me, that's why I'm afraid to get into a relationship with you" we walked back into campus as he talked about himself.

I couldn't care about listening to him. All that was on my mind at that moment was him and I kissing. I can't believe I did that. I wasn't the kind of girl to do things like that, especially with someone who I wasn't sure I had a future with.

"Things like what?Can you please open up to me? I need to understand you, so I know where I stand in this undefined relationship of ours' ' I said, as I stood still staring at his face.

He smiled and took me to an empty class to talk.

"I steal Katherine"

My eyes widened in surprise as I stared at him, inwardly I wasn't judging him, cause I didn't know what circumstances must have led to that, so I had to ask him questions and listened to his reply.

"Why did you steal?"

"I needed money, but it's not that I stole from the poor, I stole only from the rich"

"That still doesn't justify the act, you're a stealer" this made me think about all the accessories he was usually wearing, "gosh, could it be that he stole all that?" I asked inwardly as I stared anxiously at him, waiting to hear more about his past.

"I know, I did bad alot in my past, and I'm trying to change for the better"

"But you had a relationship in the past which you took very serious?, Cause I saw a girl on your status, you posted before on her birthday and you wrote in the caption that she was so important to you "

"Yes, that's my first love, and I love her alot" he responded.

"And you still love her now?"

"Yes I do, I can't stop loving her"

" what a jerk, so what I'm I to you, you are so wicked, you're just using me, but I was being ignorant because I believe I'm different at least that's what you always tell me, that's why I'm still here " I said inwardly as I tried to keep my tears from coming out.

"But I love you Katherine, you're different from all the girls I've met, others are waste, you are special and you deserve better things " this got me pleased and happy, I felt special and this made me pity him, I myself knew I was special no need for someone to tell me.

"Thank you Michael, so tell me what other things have you done?"

He smiled at me and looked away.

"I've smoked before and I've dated two lesbian friends " this got me more surprised and a bit scared of him.

"And they were okay with you dating them both?"

"Yes"

Then the main question dropped on me, I needed to ask him this, if not I won't be at peace with myself.

"Did you have sex with all the girls you've dated?" I asked as my saliva went down my throat making sounds him and I heard.

He smiled again, this time I could feel he saw himself as a really bad guy now with that smirk he gave.

"Yes, I sexed them all, but I'll never do that with you, I'll never do something to you, that I know you would regret and hate me for, I don't want you to hate me"

Exhaling and inhaling slowly, I tried to let out a quick smile, but inwardly I saw him as a bad and naughty person, "is there any nasty thing he hasn't done?" I asked inwardly, as I stared angrily at him.

Suddenly my eyes gazed at the ring on his middle left finger.

"Why do you always wear this ring?, I see you with it at all times, you don't take it off, it looks very old"

"Yeah, I even bath with it, I can't take it off, it's my luck charm, it protects me from some people I'm hiding from "

Wow, this is another statement that got me scared and anxious, was this guy into something bad or what?, was he a ritualist?, I wondered.

"I don't understand, are you into something Michael?" I asked anxiously as I stared seriously at him.

"No I'm not, I just feel safe with this ring " this got me thinking if he had mental issues for saying that, so I tried to take off the ring, but he strongly resisted.

"Okay, fine, you can keep wearing it, it's not my concern anyway "

"Okay, tell me about yourself" he asked as he stared at me, well nothing to hide for me, so I simply told him about myself.

"Well, I'm not an extrovert, I love reading, writing and listening to music "

"Well that's not what I want to know, but that's necessary too, and from the kiss and your personality I know you haven't kissed or had any relationship before and I know, I kissing you was your first kiss "

I nodded and stared quietly at him.

"What's your type of guy ?" Well I didn't expect this question coming since he doesn't want a relationship, I thought inwardly as I got myself ready to answer after clearing my throat.

"Well... I like guys who are truthful, loving, generous, someone who would love me with all they have, someone who values what I love and would always want to make me happy, a responsible person, that's my kind of guy "

"Hmmm okay..., Not bad.." he said as he placed his hands on mine, holding it softly, gosh I don't understand this person at all, he just keeps on giving my mind confusion,

" Is it that you want me or not?" I asked inwardly.

"You are a good person Katherine and you deserve the best" I couldn't get exactly what he meant, but all I did was smile.

But that didn't stop me from thinking about what just happened between us, the kiss and his warm touch around my body.

"You should be heading back now, so I can head back to my house too, I have some other things to do," he said.

"Yeah, I should be heading home" he escorted me back to the hostel and left immediately.