Still not ready and depressed

The sound of the beach was perfect, salty cozy wind swaying her dress, it's late at night and the stars are reflecting thru her eyes. She stared at him, saw unconditional love and happiness. Can't help it but...

"... you're so handsome..."

He chuckled and came closer to her which took her breath away, she's really in love and no one can make her deny it. This young tall Polish-German guy-now her husband never failed to take her armor away.

" and you're so gorgeous..."

He kissed her lovingly and started pulling her even closer. The wind blows and brushes her hair helping him to get more access on her beautiful face. He started undressing her...

He carried her completely naked and started walking inside the room...

She next felt the comfy scented fabric of the bed as he carefully laid her above it like a very fragile glass. He took his clothes off and started kissing her on the neck while his hands started to familiarize even more of her Asian skin.

"...ich liebe dich Lorian" he whispered before he could suck her beautiful breasts that made her moan next...

"ich hmm liebe dich auch mmm hubby..." she replied between her sweet moans...

Both started to feel the fire that's burning inside their selves. Both are lovingly feeling each other's skin, one's left to complete this unforgettable night is to finally be connected again...but the next 10 seconds failed as her depressive self suddenly came with the conclusion of saying...

"... I'm not yet ready and am still depressed "