Prologue

Nakatayo ako ngayon sa harap ng opisina ni Dutch ng bigla nalang napatingin sa akin ang sekretarya niyang babae at saka ako nito tinignan mula ulo hanggang paa na tila ba'y sinusuri ang aking pagkatao.

"May I help you?" Mataray nitong tanong sa wikang english kaya naman sinagot ko rin ang tanong niya gamit ang salitang english.

"Can I see Dutch Pavlov?" Tanong ko sa kanya at mukha pa itong nagulat dahil sa pagsalita ko ng english and take note, with an australian accent.

"Pardon?" She inquired and raised her right eye brow while she was looking at me from head-to-toe.

I guess this woman criticise me on what i was wearing today by the look on her face i know she thought me as a beggar person. Paano ba naman kasi nakasuot lang ako ng isang simpleng white t-shirt na pinarisan ng isang ripped jeans na namansahan kanina ng coffee at medyo magulo rin ang buhok ko dahil sa pagmamadali ko kaya ipinusod ko nalang ito at may iilang hibla pang hindi ko naisama sa pagtatali ko kanina.

Ngumiti ako ng palihim ng maisipan kong magpanggap sa kanyang harapan na tila isang pulubi alam ko ba ikatutuwa ng mukhang chimpanzee na ito ang gagawin ko lalo na't kung susuriin ko ito ay mapaghahalataang maarte at matapobre ito klaseng tao.

"M-May i see Mr. Pavlov?" Sabi ko sa kanya na tila nag aalangan at kinakabahan kong sabi.

Bumalatay naman sa kanya ang isang ngiti na tila sinasabi nito na tumama siya sa kanyang iniisip na ako ay nagpapanggap lamang na matapang at magaling magsalita ng english pero ang totoo ay hindi dahil isa akong hamak na pulubi sa kanyang paningin.

"Do you have any appointment with him?"

"No, i didn't but there is some important matter that i want to discuss--" hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng magsalita ito.

"I was wondering kung bakit nagpapasok ang guard namin ng isang hamak na hampas lupa dito sa loob ng kompanya na pagmamay-ari ni Sir, Dutch at trying hard pa mag english na may pa british accent pa kuno eh, basura naman!"

Ay! Gaga! Australian teh! AUSTRALIAN hindi british! Bobo nito. Gusto ata ng sample eh!

Umayos ako ng tayo na tila isang model at taas noo ko siyang hinarap habang nakikipagtitigan sa mata niyang mukhang chupakabra.

"You know what? I was wondering too why this company accept a dumb monkey like you? We know that this is a human society so, how come chimpanzee came here? Hey! Did you escape from the planet ape?" At saka ko pa nilagay ang dalawang kamay ko sa cheeks ko na tila kunyareng gulat na gulat ako sa mukha niya and take note nanlalaki pa ang mga mata ko na nakatingin sa kanya.

"You--" she was about to speak again when suddenly the door in her side opened widely and the man who i wanted to see came out from his castle and raping me infront of this chimpanzee face! Hahaha charot!

"What are you doing here?" He said using his icy voice.

"Sir, this woman keeps asking me to--"

"Im not asking you Victoria" he said in a warning tone to make chimpanzee shut her mouth and take her banana from her bra to eat it madly hahaha joke!

Paawa epek pa sana ang gaga palpak naman! Kaya ayon na pahiya tuloy! Hahaha tinignan ko naman si chimpanzee at saka palihim siyang benelatan habang naka ngisi sa kanya from boobs to boobs este ear to ear pala.

"Whay are you doing here?" He asked me again that made me look at his face.

"Are you mute? Or playing like a dumb? Kung wala kang sasabihin mas mabuti ng umalis ka sa harapan ko dahil may pupun--"

"I want to talk with you privately" agad kong sabi sa kanya habang pinagdidiinan ang salitang privately.

"Come inside" maikling sabi nito at saka ako tinalikuran.

Sumunod naman akong pumasok sa loob ng opisina niya at saka agad na iginala ang mga mata ko sa bawat sulok ng kanyang opisina. The theme of his office is mixed of gold and black color then there is a veranda at the back of his studying area and i bet at the left corner where is bookshelf can be found is his master's bedroom.

Did he slept here? I ask myself while keeping roaming around and looking of each area of his office when suddenly i see his kitchen area that made me answer my thought. He's really sleeping here.

"Why are you here?" Tanong nito sa akin at doon ko lang siya napansin na nakasandal pala ito sa mesa at nakahalukipkip.

"There is something i wanted you to know" parang baliwala lang sabi ko at saka ako pumunta sa kanyang harapan.

"What is it?" Tanong niya ulit at saka umayos ng pagkakasandal niya sa mesa.

"Im pregnant" direktang sabi ko sa kanya at saka siya tinignan sa kanyang malamig na mata at pilit na binabasa kung ano ang nasa isip niya.

Hindi ito nagsalita ng ilang minuto at tinitigan lang ako hanggang sa magsalita ito.

"Congrats then"

"Well, congrats din sayo dahil ikaw ang ama" naka ngisi kong sabi.

"And do you think I will believe you just because you told me that you're pregnant woman and i'm the father of your child?" Agad naman nawala ang ngisi ko dahil sa narinig ko mula sa kanya.

Nagdududa ba siya sa pinagbubuntis ko kong pareho naman namin alam na may nangyari sa amin? O baka gusto niya lang takasan ang responsibilidad niya bilang ama sa anak namin?

Tinignan ko ito ng ngumisi naman itong lumapit sa akin.

"How i can be sure it is mine and no one touch you after me?" He said and look directly in my eyes like he's trying to read my mind.

"Because im not an easy to get" seryoso kong sagot sa kanya at saka nakipagtitigan sa mala abo niyang mga mata.

"Huh! Hahaha!" He laugh and move backward.

Hala oy? Na buang na? Naku! Kawawa ka naman baby may tileleng sa utak tatay mo. Sabi ko sa isipan ko habang naka pout at hinihimas ang tiyan ko.

"You're not easy to get yet, you gave me your body instantly without any protest? And take note you enjoy it" biglang seryosong sabi nito kaya naman napakunot ang noo ko dahil sa tono ng pananalita nito na tila hindi ko nagustuhan.

"I was drunk that time yet you take advantage with me?" I said with a serious tone.

"Even you are drunk still you will protest if someone touch you but on your case you really like how i embrace and ravished you while you're screaming loudly and begging for more like a slu--" he didn't finished his sentence when i punch his face.

"You know that time when you take me im still virgin and yet you look me like a slut?" Seryoso at galit kong tanong sa kanya habang siya naman ay hinihimas ang mukha niya na tinamaan ng kamao ko.

"I slept with different women in our country yet you allowed me to take your hymen ripped apart?" He said and look at me seriously that makes me feel numb and can't evem speak.

My eyes start to shed in tears so i look in my left side and try to prevent my tears not to fall. I heard him sighed and when i look at him he was looking at the ceiling while his both hands is in his waist then suddenly he stare at me.

"Lets get to the point what do you want from me? Money? Popularity? Tell me! And dont fucking used that stupid child in your womb just to get what you want!" Sigaw nito sa pagmumukha ko na siyang nagpa igting sa mga panga ko.

"I dont need your wealth or popularity mister Pavlov" matigas kong sabi sa kanya.

"Then what?"

"You" malamig kong sabi at saka siya tinignan sa kanyang mga mata at saka muling nagsalita.

"A complete family for our child." Seryoso kong sabi ng tumawa ito ng pagak.

"Hahaha! You want me to marry you? Is that what you wanted to say?" Mapang insulto niyang tanong sa akin at saka napatingin sa tiyan ko.

"That kid will be never mine." He said using his staid voice at saka niya ito dinuro-duro.

Tumayo naman ako ng tuwid at saka siya tinignan.

"It made me clear now" malamig kong sabi sa kanya at saka siya tinalikuran ng bigla naman niyang hinatak ang braso ko that made me face him abruptly.

"Let me remind you if the day comes and you need my money im telling you right here, right now that you cant have any single money fro--" he didn't finished on what he's going to say when i put my index finger in his lips.

"Dont worry if that times come i wont beg for your money because you're the one who will beg at me to see this child that you'd been insulted while ago" then I tried my best to smile at him and leave his office making him dumbfounded.

Is this what I got? Being insulted? If money and popularity is his main issue then he got a wrong perception in me. I didn't came here for that reason because i came for one reason and that is giving my child a whole and complete family. Pero kung puro insulto lang ang makukuha ko sa ama ng anak ko mas mabuting pa na palakihin ko nalang ng mag isa ang anak ko. This is such an unwanted mistake for giving my virginity and hoping that he would agree that we we're giving our child a complete family just for our child sake.