Sometimes, when Chaos didn't move at all, sleeping like dead, Zuri was worried.
She would come closer to him and watch his chest move slowly and evenly, only then could she back away and lessen her anxiety because he was still breathing.
This sucked, the situation sucked and what Zuri felt right now did not make things better for her. She wanted to get rid of these unsettling feelings and go closer to Chaos, but she couldn't do that.
The repulsion would return whenever she was too close to him and she would end up feeling disgusted with herself and the more she felt that way, the more she hated herself for not being able to be closer to him.
There was a time when she told herself that it was not Chaos' fault for what had happened to her and he was not Emmet. She had killed that man in the worst way possible, but in the next second, she would find herself blaming everything that had happened to her on Chaos.