3.dreams and reality
Wristeria apartment ,12:42 am
Adleys pov
Daylight shining the walls of unknown house you are in ,your heart heavy and you could hear your own heartbeat beating in your ears.sudden erupt of weeping and crying making you alarmed.you could see a set stairs infront of you leading you up . something strange telling you to go upstairs but a small part of was still a bit scared.mustering up your courage you decided to go upstairs.everystep you took seemed like a stepping on thorns,your breathing turning shallow,hands and legs trembling as if they could give out any time soon.soon you saw a small lane and door at the end of the lane .you slowly started to approach it when u were face to face with the door .you heard loud mournings of a woman as if she lost something most precious thing of her life.collecting your self you reached the knob and got inside to see the most remorseful scene in your life.
A woman's no a mother's heart wrenching cry and screams reaching my ear made me shudder,crying her soul out at her loss holding her sons cold body in her arms tightly wishing to turn back time hoping to see her son alive,but she knew life doesn't work that way she knows thats impossible.he- ethan looked lifeless laying in her arms ,yes it was ethan miller, even though I didn't know him personally.seeing him in his deathbed made want to mourn as if I have lost a loved one from my life.his dead face made me want shake him back into life ,I wanted hold him in my arms and weep so bad as if he was my own.,I started to think what if I talked to him before what if we knew eachother, would it change anything or would it more worst.liquid seeping through my eyes,I ran from the room outside,to find myself in our university hall ,teachers and students praying for his soul to rest in peace.and then everything was back to normal,they moved on with their lives liks nothing happened,as if the most brightest student of our university didn't jus committed a sucide.could we blame them though?..the world is fucking selfish,they don't give a flying shit until it comes to their door step.
I was seated in a funeral with a black dress his whole family looked lifeless as if touch could shatter them to pieces,an old man who looked like his father looked like his soul has been snatched,sitting there motionless looking at his sons body in a coffin ready to be delivered to after earth., waiting for a miracle to happen and bring life back to his son.a eyes which were before filled with hopes of seeing his sons bright future now filled with only grieve he looked lost,failed!.I once again eyed Ethan's body neatly placed in the black box.why? Why?why?...was all going in my head, when suddenly I heard a shrilling voice.shouting " HELP!",
Suddenly I was woken up to find myself in my bed tucked under my blankets warmly,I was sweaty,my face full of shock.quickly grabbing glass of water and my antidepressant pills.i layed in my bed watching the ceiling as if it was the most interesting thing right now! After a while my pulses slowed down,my mind was unstable, memory of ethan and sleeping pills ,his dead face ,his funeral,cry for help,all thoughts clouded my mind.does they meant convey me something? Were they telling that he needed my help? Or was it jus my mind playing with me, with these thoughts in mind I dozed of to sleep
I was shook wake by my alarm shouting 7o'clock , yesterday's dream still raw in my mind,I was still confused between reality and dream world.it seemed so real ,the pain in his parents eyes,his funeral, everything., I prepared my self for a hot bath as hot water loosened my muscles .a good breakfast was what I needed,some toast, eggs and coffee .jumping into something casual ,I was out of my apartment in the streets heading to my uni
was out from the metro station , fumbling with my bag insearch of my phone as I saw ethan walking along the streets alone , straight face as if the world didn't bother him.i was staring a bit for too long as he caught my stare and looked my way,I quickly looked away moved to my classes.
The first two classes went smoothly ,I was glancing at ethan once in while,he was really a very introvert person,sitting alone at back of our class 3 desks away from me,not indulging with anyone.however hee didn't see me taking glances at or he jus didn't wanted to turn around.
Our classes were suspended for 2 hrs as the respective teacher was absent.i decided to go to our uni library to sort out some stuff .I was stuffing my things into the backpack as ethan passed by me to head outside not paying much attention to him .I went to the library
LIBRARY: 3.18 PM
I was on my laptop along with some books searching about the dreams and its indications
"Dreams maybe jus your brain impulses and depends completely on your mind set and life,however it may not be something magical or future telling thing.they are jus imaginations at back of our head"
"Dreams and thier specific meanings.. sometimes dreams may warn us about something before so we could prepare ourselves.this universe is full of surprises and dreams are something that brings back our uncautious mind "
Reading some more about things about it decided to give up and find things on my own,I was in the middle of reading a book called "why we sleep" when I heard some one talking in the library, Niall,he was my senior and he was passed out 2 years back ,he was talking to the librarian about something,he looked my way and froze he gave me a small wave and I returned a tight smile.i came towards me."hey!adley, haven't seen u lately.how u doing?"he greeted with a question.my brown eyes eyed him for a while and said "good actually.,jus minding my business!" Gave him a fake small grin ,his face went down "adley! Are you okay? (Small pause) I mean after ezr-" its not like I hate him he jus brings back that memory of my life which I'm tryna avoid."No! I mean,I'm fine u don't need to worry about me,I- I'm over ..it.and.....umm...i need to be somewhere now I'll take my leave"I hurried with me collecting my stuff and left "adley.." he called out slowly as I ran off!
Wandering in the campus for couple of minutes minutes I found my self at the roof top standing behind the railings seeing people going inside and outside of the campus , playing, teasing,laughing enjoying their life...
Past
"Just know that u have me even in ur bad times I'll be always by urside"
We were silent after that,the silence Between us was comfortable.we enjoyed each others company.it was now more then 15 mins just the both of us sitting near the stream.the silence was broke by the sudden voice behind us ."supp! Gurllz !!u guys look like u need some company,ha!?"Niall and his friends were making their way towards us.my cheeks turning red due to bcoz of his sudden appearance..,Niall was a nice guy and good looking guy and attention of lots of girls along with me ,yes!I had a crush nial since layed my eyes on him,but we weren't that close as he was our senior jus random exchange of hi ,byes..and the girl sitting beside me (Ezra) was a big shipper of me to him,I knew she wouldn't let this opportunity slide away."heyyy!!!guysss!we'r good! although we won't mind ur company.moreover we'd be happy"Ezra shouted throwing her hands up waving them.she looked my way jingling her eyebrows in order to tease,I gave her a you-need -to -stop look,as she brushed it off making her way towards them dragging me along."gladly!,Ezra ur an one cheerful girl unlike ur friend"he commented making sulk slightly,"thanku for the compliment Niall,thats really sweet of you!"I replied sarcastically. "Someones feisty ha!?jealo much"Ezra teased me through her teeth shoulder bumping."for real girls !u gotta come out to the world have some fun,explore!booze up!u know what I mean!?"Niall said,"yeah man ! ull wanna join for the club along!?"his friend behind him suggested,"ummm..I don't know really..like .. we're fine..u gu-"I was about to deny their offer politely,when Ezra decides to butt in,this devil kid!"thats sounds so fun!! we'd love to..right leyy?"I gave her i-cant-belive-you look."ohoh!ur friend there doesn't seem to like ur idea"his friend added,"jus a minute"Ezra dragged me abit away from them,"what's wrong with u ur crush Niall is asking u to come out with him and ur giving a cold shoulder?"Ezra complained,"u know I don't like clubs,its jus not my thing..."I trailed off."c'mon u never even been there before,u never know whats waiting for you!like he said ,let's explore?please jus this once,if not Niall then me !!"she pleaded with puppy eyes,I didn't wanted to disappoint her.."you really know how to get me don't you!?ha..."she jus grinned showing her pearly teeths"is thats a yes"she squeaked "ahahfiineee"thats what she needed, before I knew we were inside glazing red club!,
people swaying to the earcrashing music,people here reeked alcohol and weed.,but Ezra and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves.....for just once I wanted myself to let loose too..not caring about my surroundings.. enjoying my liberty.,to crossing my rules just for once won't hurt right?.. thats how I found myself swaying to the music myself,dancing , singing,I gulped down the liquid Niall offerd me burning sensation of the liquor lighting up my mood and mind,head dizzy I felt loose,weightless,as if nothing can hurt me ,suddenly the world didn't matter,I felt a grip on my waist turning me around to them the sudden action made me flinch."hey!its jus me","Niall!u sc-scared me" I replied,he gave me a toothy smile"u okay ?u seem a bit tipsy" he asked me."hmmm,m okay now" I said slowly wrapping arms around his neck gently still swaying with the music.,"have I said before about how hot u are?u make me go weakk nsjsk" I again added, alcohol taking my brain completely,I didn't know what I was doing,my actions were out of my hand,"oooh!umm thanks!I guess!ur sweet when ur tipsy,I'd like to see you more of this"he said as chuckled,my eyes observing him as if he's a peice if art ,the way his face goes back when he laughed,his eyes crinkling his strong arms holding still and warn against him,before I knew my actions I leaned in closing my eyes ,the next thing I know is his moist lips on mine,his eyes bulging out of shock as I slowly opened my eyes he seemed to calmed down,I gently moved my lips against his my arms all over his back,his grip was tight on my waist,before I could get enough of this heated up situation I was pulled away from him by a very mad Ezra ,she literary dragged me out if the pub into the streets,my mind still dizzzy to comphrend the situation, bile slowly reaching my throat, moving myself away from her ,I threwup at the near dump,Ezra holding my hairs away from my face as emptied my stomach,I sat with my back to the wall,headache and sour throat was wt i felt,I was smelling like a rotten food ,Ezra came with a bottle of water splashing water to my face drinking some of it,I was almost sober all things happend at the club came crashing to my mind,I was sobbing,gripping my hairs ,I felt dirty..Ezra rubed my shoulders calming me down,but I jus got up and got away from her"this is why I hate this all,m not like you'll!forgive me!I can't get used to these stuffs,these things are sacred to me my first kiss,my-everything,I shouldn't have heard u! "I shouted,she came near me " no!!!jus don't do anything!!jus leave me alone!I want to be left alone!I don't need ur sympathy! atleast not now!plz"with thats ran away from that place to my apartment,even shower couldn't calm me down,I sat on the bed to hear notification
Ezra: are you ok now!please call me when ur calmed down!I hope u know it was not my intention!m sorry!😣(12.03am)
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Ezra: take care honey❤️!(12.04am)
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New notifications
University group:
Xxxxx:adley and Niall making out in the pub is jus disgusting.. didn't take her for this cheap
Yyyyyy: I know right,stupid girl wants to earn popularity from seducing Niall!
Zzzzzz:ewww!fucking nerd has some wild desires!
Wwww:I bet Niall wasn't even there for her .i don't even know why he even hangout with her!
Ggggggg: I bet it's bcoz of her friend Ezra,she's hot!
More tears made their way out of my eyes as I read the hurtful comments ,I was hurt!, although I knew it wasn't ezras mistake I was mad at her maybe coz she was the one who took me to the club or maybe people always kept her above me,whatever the reason was I didn't wanted to talk to her!thats day with broken heart I cryed myself to sleep.
PRESENT
I came out of the memory of my past when I heard something shuffling,I turned my head to someone sitting behind the railing with his legs swaying in the air at the rooftop he didn't knew my presence.
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IS HE MAD?!!!!