CH 3 - believe in the heroine

The original Kazuhisa was betrayed for his good intentions. Someone else was being bullied in class, and because he wanted to help him, he, or now I, I had made the bully unhappy. I became the target of the bully, who I now regard as my enemy who I planned to kill with vengeance. In the end even that student who was being bullied initially, also joined in the act of bullying me. I can never forget, that student who was originally being bullied, giving a cruel smile on his face when he was looking at me lying on the floor.

I will also never forget, when he used the wet cloth for cleaning toilets to wipe my face, those eyes were full of joy. My actions have been betrayed by him who did it in the worst form. I wanted to seek justice, and the ending was this. I wanted to help him, and the ending was this. I believed everyone in the world has a kind heart, but the ending was this.

If I had not taken over Kazuhisa's body, then I knew that he would never trust anyone again after that. Well, given the nature of the story, I am sure he got over it at some point, but from the memories I inherited, I think it had required lots of passion.

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I was now in the white room.

Then, I am suddenly reminded of what happened just now. From the results, I have saved that girl who should be from the middle school section considering I know all of the girls in my grade. I would remember grey eyes like hers. Isn't this a female lead? she is the first I found, she couldn't possibly betray the protagonist in the story, right? RIGHT?!? She is too beautiful not to be.

Looking at the girl, even if she betrays me, I only need to kill her. Do I believe in others, sure, but well subconsciously with these inherited memories, I think I actually might have a problem. I think I can use her as a lackey at worse. However, first, do I let that younger girl fight and protect me as a front liner while I am in the rear? My logic actually says yes, I am a support and summoner after all, so I should stick to the rear or middle for protection.

More importantly, I don't know if she will listen to my words obediently, and if she will trust me. The moment when she acquire skills, will she kill me? Even if not, she might be arrogant with a weapon and command me in return? Or maybe she wouldn't listen to my instructions, and act alone.

I calmed myself down, I need to first analyze her. She took actions so far to maximize my success and hadn't betrayed me just now. If she had truly given up on life she could have notified the orc planning to take down others with her. I should first talk to her, ask if she is willing to become my vassal or just ask if she is willing to become my harem member if I give her powers. Plus after almost being raped, would she even trust me, or others at the moment?

I am not going to let another person command me though, even if they are smarter. I am a reincarnator and am above such trivial things as following commands of others. Actually I think my subconscious actions would tell me to not even communicate with another person unless they are both a female and a subordinate. I don't think I'll still have a fear of talking with adults or peers of the same age, but I will still feel disgust towards them. The male teachers would tell me to man up, while the women teachers would just ignore me while being humiliated by my enemy in class. 4 days ago, I was dragged through my homeroom class naked by the said bully, humiliated, and forced to act like a dog with the threat of a worse beating later. That female teacher even smiled at me saying, "There is always light at the end of the tunnel." Complete bullshit.

Regardless, she did just act as bait for me, helping me get this experience needed to level up. Maybe we can get her to join my party, given what my notes say in that spread sheet like program.

I remember her clear obsidian dark grey eyes. I can just base this on pure feelings, disregarding logical judgement. I decided that I will believe in her.

I increased my summoning magic from level 2 to 3 and support magic from level 2 to 3. I clicked finish, leaving the white room.