Chapter One

After college I decided to stay on my own and fight for my self, I didn't want to depend on anybody and I didn't!

I graduated from college, got a decent job, live in a good secured apartment

But...

The problem is that am starting to feel lonely

Yea I have some nice friends, guy friends but that's not what I want.

Am hungry for something... something I've never had before, something new in this old life of mine.....

"fine!. What am trying to say is that.....I want to fall in love!

Like seriously am freaking getting old! Whenever I watch all those romantic movies, I feel somehow inside, I get jealous and it annoys me whenever I see them, those couples.

I fall in love whenever I see a handsome guy, every Sunday I look out my window I'll see them, holding hands, laughing like the world's so beautiful, it makes me get jealous, I really really need this, to fall In love, yeah", I said tapping my fingers on the plywood.

"rea..lly", Zack said cleaning the tumblers,

"I even went to see a therapist Zack", I whispered,

"You don't mean it",

"Well yeah! And I mean it, am freaking serious", I said with my hands in the air.

"No offense! I mean it's weird to hear that from you, the rocky girl, I thought you're unbreakable", he said giving me those eyes of his that mocks somebody. He shifted and took orders from a customer.

Zack has been my friend since college, he knows way too much about me, he's one-of-a-kind friend one will ever have.

"Look Zacky..", I continued when he moved back to me,

"..you are not helping matters here. I think am desperate and you work in this... bar?," I paused for a second and looked around, crazy people still dancing to a crazy music,

"or club? Whatever! you know way lot of handsome guys, just... Just hook me up with one, please, I'll be a good girl, I promise!".

I ended, he was just staring weirdly at me, I stared back a little at him and then,

"fine, forget it. I even hate how I sound", I bent over trying to avoid the cigarettes smoke coming my way. A huge guy sitting a bit far away, I don't know if he's intentionally doing it but he's been blowing smokes my way.

Zack came out from the desk with his leather jacket and sat beside me, "where did my rocky girl go?",

I raised my head to look at him.

"well I don't care where she went to, because I totally love the new you am seeing now, so tell me, what kind of guy are you looking for?"

I took a deep breath, excited he's finally listening,

"well, hmm...a tall guy, nice hair, who can make me laugh and crazy happy", I looked at him for a comment, but he was just looking at me, I continued,

"Hmmm..... dress and look responsible, he should know what to do at every particular time, and most of all he should have a responsible job, he must! Then he must be a neat guy, then he'll love me like there's no tomorrow..... uhmmm...am i missing anything, okay, done!", I was happy, maybe finally I can experience this, go out on dates, drink wine, go on picnics, sleep in someone's arms.

Zack was still looking at me, as if he didn't hear what I just said,

"hmm, did I miss anything?", I asked again, but he just exhaled and chuckled at the same time rubbing his forehead,

"well... I really don't know what to say to to you, anyways good luck", he said getting up,

"it's late, come on I'll take you home".

That's all?

I thought and jumped down the long stool and followed him. I looked at the huge guy as I walked past him and he nodded his head at me. I ignored him and tried to catch up with Zack.

He's acting weird.

I didn't say anything, I just followed him to his car.

On our way home, both of us were quiet, I was trying to know what's going on in his mind, it's unlike him to be this quiet. The music was playing out loud and he was tapping his finger on the wheel but that is unlike him.

I thought maybe he had a rough day or...

"did something happen Zack?" I asked him, he looked at me and turned down the volume of the radio,

"What?*,

"Are you alright, did something happen?",

"no, why?",

"you are quiet,"he didn't say anything, he just shrugged and tried to turn up the volume again,

"did you break up with your girlfriend, fought with someone?", I asked him, searching his face, he chuckled,

"am fine, just stressed out," he said and kept quiet but he didn't turn up the radio. I just nodded and turned my head looking out at nothing.

Few minutes again and..

"were you serious, earlier?", he asked scratching his neck,

I didn't like the way he sounded.

"Yea, you know....I just want to settle down already. I'm tired of my mum telling me to get married, setting me up on blind dates. I wasn't ready to open up, so...now I really want to".

I looked at him, he looked tired,

"I really want to give it a try Zack", the car stopped and am home, I got out and he did too,

"want to come in for coffee?",

"no am okay",

"okay, goodnight, thank you",I said turning to go in,

"about what you said, I'll see what I can do",

I nodded with a smile and started my way inside.

I know something's troubling him, but it's okay, it's Zack, he can take care of himself.

Or tell me whats troubling him when he wants to.

If he wants to.