Venting

I don't want this, I don't want that

Why does everything feel like a trap?

I'm not good enough, yes I suck at that

Why can't I find a way out?

If only I could decide, If only I knew

I would get up and carry myself through

I'm weak, my ideas stink

Why do I feel so much despair?

I need answers, I need solutions

Not these senseless array of emotions

It hurts, I'm in pain

Why can't I even refrain

Refrain from putting myself down

Refrain from just giving up

I know I have worth, but why on earth

Can't I make sense of my freak'n birth?

I wonder why I exist and what I need to do

To get my mind out of this crazy zoo

How did I even get here? Why am I here?

Through all this noise I can't even hear

Still unreal where will my mind steer?

About to drive down and hit this metaphorical dear

I've crashed, I'm still alive. Maybe there's still hope for me in sight

Is it even worth another weary fight?

I'll fight until it's black and blue

My problems that is, I shouldn't stew

It's good to vent, it's good to kick

These negative set of habits

With God, He'll make it right

Out of the darkness and into the light

He'll make me a way out of this blight

So I'll strap myself in and enjoy the flight.