chapter 19 endings

Walking down the stairs Mikki climbs on my back stating "my legs hurt!!!! Carry me!!!" Meeting up in the parlor room I tell Mikki that my mother's name is Isla kuwotani, she seemed a little stunned "she trained me (hm) do you want to know what she was like (nope) then why look for her (free time) uhhhh o-okay  (alright there's cory… did you get the things I asked for) 'oh yes darling I don't know why you want to wear women's clothes… it beats me' (shut up… this phone has a ghost chip) 'yes kiddo...ugh I got everything on your damn list even that stupid muscle relaxer' muscle relaxer? Babe are you okay (I'm fine, don't worry)" actually my body is slowly failing, I've taken to much punishment in my short lifetime. Dropping the items off in front of my bedroom door knocking twice,.Megan opens the door acting very embarrassed (here "what's this" clothes, phone, regular essentials also tampons) her face is so red her white skin makes it easy for me to see her blushing, it was just a guess that she was on her period, because of the smell she gives off. She then pushes me,.my backing hitting the wall, to the point where I go through the wall, my assumptions on her receiving physical enhancement was right also her cell regeneration was fast as well, so the military is enhancing their soldier's, she must've known what she was getting into, she must've been told she was weak, her attacks weren't that hard when we first fought, so even though she got physical enhancements her body still loses substantial amounts of it's strength, must explain the cell regeneration, but then again that's also very slow, then why operate, while laying on the ground my eyes open to be under the legs of a very fit women who wears tight jeans "get up! " it's just the hag "why does it whenever you get hurt it always involves a girl, what are you stupid or just bad with women? (A bit of both) alright let's check up on you. Alright patient 44567u90 aka wolf total wounds accumulated 233 diseases none, illnesses none, height 6ft, weight 90kg, alright take of your shirt…you know it always amazes me about the amount of scars you've acquired (is that's so hag ow) you call me hag one more time those girls will be the last thing you need to worry about, hmmm (what) your were branded ( polemíste méchri na pethánete) that's Greek for fight until you die, why didn't I see that before hmm your wound from the other night has already healed, I don't know but I give you five more years (that's long) well if you keep doing what you've been doing you will hurt those around you, and it'll take its toll on not just your body but your mind ... you know when kotegawa told me he had a son I didn't believe him, but when I look at your face I could see the same kotegawa by just looking into your eyes… crazy though (what) when kotegawa died he sent me a video of you when you were younger (and) well you were about seven months old and you were already walking… (well the company) I know your a weapon etcetera etcetera, but in my eyes you're still a boy who knows nothing, that why I'm here to help you (hm) don't look at me that way, now go play with your concubines you fucking whore (did you know my mother) knew her… well I loved kotegawa just as much as she did, maybe even more but in the end he chose her, she was my friend, but behind my back she took him away from me, he knew I loved him, but I couldn't tell him, they tried for so long to keep it a secret from me, enough about me, go" looking back on it, when first coming out of that coma, kotegawa left me his belongings, reading through them, was easy enough he didn't carry many possetions except for the a photo called team one it had him, the hag, Candyce, Isla, Mr lambert, also two other individuals named Casper and lupo, when looking at that photo at the time I couldnt believe that Isla was my mother, believing it was some random girl. Was the only thing that crossed my mind, my original parents shunned me, beat me, tortured me, called me a monster as they would beat me, my mother would rape me everytime she would get drunk, my brother would try to comfort me but in the end he would beat me, at five years old, I killed them with a kitchen knife, whithin the time limit of fifteen seconds. I never knew this the only thing about my last, that was to my knowledge was Monika as well as all my training, the only way I learned was by reading kotegawa reports, Candyce gave me all of them after my coma saying "you have a lot of free time" his report didn't really make me feel anything, though it showed me what type of person he was when it came to his work, he was very determined when it came to his missions, his mission when watching me was fascinating to say the least, he had to watch his child get beaten again and again, he wouldn't interior the beating because his mission was only to observe, but when he would write the reports there seemed to be some type of weight to his words. "James" someone whispered in my ear, looking around there seems to be no one around me, my mind goes dark, the room is consumed in darkness there seems to be nothing in front of me, or behind, neither above looking down, all the is, is my reflection, hands start coming out from the ground as they pull me down into some type of liquid, struggling makes it worse, looking at my reflection it starts to smile back at me, under the liquid, I try punching choking and beating my reflection, though before hitting it again it turns into kelly, now I'm back at the auditorium holding her body "it's your fault" she says, something touches my shoulder, looking at what touched my shoulder, Kelly's body turns into ash then float away looking back at the thing that touched me it seems to be me, but it's eyes are white, while smiling at me the skin sheds to show black fire, reaching its hand out it says "join me" while reaching to grab it's hand, I'm then shakend back into reality "babe… babe are you okay" it's Mikki were in a car "you were sweating are you okay ? (Yes I'm fine) alright then… Megan you'll be going in, you'll report back to general Kyler as soon as you kill him press the tracker on your phone 'got it' H you'll go with stay hidden and stay safe (remember megen the only way we can trust you is if you destroy your past life) 'got it' alright Cory drop me off here… alright if you die I will kick your ass" what was that just know, did I just black out… my head it feels so clouded "hey" Megan tries shaking me "are you okay (I'm fine… look at me, this might sound stupid but your going in there 'james dear what are you saying' sh turn your coms off) but the Trojan is a solid play… your sweating, I don't think your okay (quiet)" using her seat belt I tie her into the seat Cory starts to panic as we close in on the building that the general is inhabiting, rolling out of the car, firing rounds into the guards, my face it won't stop smiling, why?. Making my way through the door was easy on the other side there was about ten more soldiers, using the wall to my advantage, it takes them off guard, my speed is faster than normal most of them seem to used to combat, they also have enhancements in their strength using the bodies of their fellow comrades, also I've seem to run out of ammo using the blade within my gauntlet, makes me able to sense the fear, what is this feeling, it's ecstatic, I'm enjoying myself, they maneuver back up stairs, a soldier behind me primes a grenade grabbing one of the soldiers getting away from me, I throw his body on the grenade, they throw explosive downstairs, smart. Making my way pack outside I climb my way up to the second floor, one of them spot me before, he get impaled, he seems to still be breathing before his fellow comrades fire at him looking around there seems to be a mirror, I can see that they are only carry small firearms, three of them are left, but the sound of the weapons make it sound like four, one of them is reloading moving towards him, I slash him in half fast enough to where his comrades won't be able.to react cutting the arms off of one of them, while slicing the other's throat ,the last shooter panics before me, my vision is starting to fade, but It feels as if I met this man before taking off my helme, it seems that it the general (I want you to look me in the face, you remember don't you "please stop I'll give you anything" I said look at me, anything huh... hahahaha) chucking him out the out to the balcony, I make him look at the sun as my hands take that life that lies between his eyes. Though why am I enjoying myself, there are footsteps behind me, two females, walking to the soldier that still alive he crawls towards a picture, stabbing him In the back, it seems that he was trying to grab a picture of a child. 

Mikki looks at me, she looks pissed her hand tries striking me, grabbing it only makes her more angry, before I open my mouth she begins to yell at me "I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU EVER DO THAT, EVER AGAIN ! (...you can't…) what if you died, you went up against men who trained their lives away and fought in more wars than you (I'm okay) no you are not olay...stop smiling it's not funny… you could've died, we didn't know  how many men were in here, but you charged in like you always do… (I'm… I couldn't help myself) what… (Its nothing forget it, I'm sorry, I just didn't want anyone else to get…) and you didn't think how that would affect me… just… don't ever to that again, at least not in front of me" she then leaves immediately after, making a call for the cleaners as she leaves, Megan seems to be standing in front of the general body, looking at her, she seems to be trembling, her body expression tell me that she must be one of those many girls who are abused my military hierarchy, in order for them to move up in rank just to serve their purpose to fight, she must've been raped as well, walking behind he, she then takes the gun from my hand firing at the dead body, emptying the magazine she screams at the body before passing out carrying her in my arms I jump of the balcony landing in front of Cory's car placing her in the car, there seems to be something staring at me with murderous intent, but all I see is a dark image smiling at me as it fades away "are you okay babe" Cory asks helping place megan in the car, Mikki doesn't even look in my direction, all that I'm able to hear is the sound of her sniffling "join me" that voice it's sounded like my own, my chest starts feeling tight, I'm puking up blood (ahh) Mikki rushes towards me, she isn't the only one watching me wiping my face, I take my helmet from Mikki then start running towards the direction of who was watching. Though that's just me lying to myself as soon as I'm far enough, I head into a nearby alley then finding a trash can, then start puking in it, lying against a wall, my body goes into the foetal position as I'm try to factor the idea my body is decaying just like the hag said, realising that crying about it won't get me anywhere, I get up then pick up my helmet before hearing that voice again "join me bother" throwing my helmet at it, seems to have no affect all it did was catching it (what are you " can't you tell… I'm you… I'm the darkness you Wish to become, the greater evil that you aspire to be" shit up your just a shadow "yes… your shadow" your not real "oh but I am… you know you want my help" I don't need anyone's help "that general you just killed in less than four minutes that was me giving you the ability to tap into your true potential" like I said your not real "have it your way… if you reconsider you know where to find me") my mind feel adrift, it must be my imagination after throwing up again....my body falls to the ground.

For some odd reason I've woken up in a house not of my own my weapons have been stripped from me, putting my clothes back on, I try to listen in on if there anyone else here, seems to be two other people walking down the steps makes a loud kreek "oh he must be awake 'come down dear, we just made dinner' it alright son" by the couples speech pattern they seem to be old, by the interior of the house, it seems we're near the area where I killed the general. (Hey I'm sorry to ask but where am I? "Oh my that's right... our youngest daughter found you lying on the ground in an alley then she brought you here" may I ask how long was I out 'well she brought you in at 3 pm so three days' hmm "you don't seem that surprised") looking at my gauntlet they seem to be telling the truth, also there are urgent messages from multiple parties. The old man moves me towards the couch stating It would be in my best interest to wait for his daughter. (Where are the items that were with me "oh you mean the knife and the gun… well I through it away"  that makes sense "what is your name" my name is James "what do you do for a living" home defense "well what really bugging me is why were you in an alley covered in blood, now I'm not a police officer, or someone who judges other individuals by their cover, but indulge me from the moment") for the next hour me and the old man talked about random things that went on through the city, and about the shift in change after the blood masquerade, they seem to be one of the lucky one that didn't lose that much to the riots caused by the Pandoran collective, when they ask me my age, they seemed so in so much shock that the man's wife dropped coffee on me, they told me to take a shower, then the old man will give me some of his old clothes. While in the shower, my face it won't stop crying "your alone" that voice keeps calling to me, in my sudden shock of madness, I remember laying on Cidny's lap watching the stars, she said to my that the only real thing holding me back is the idea that "your not a monster, sure in the blind ignorance of the men and women you protect so much, they call you a monster, but what they think of you doesn't matter, what matters most is how you see yourself." Playing that scene over and over in my head only leads to the same ending, which was Candyce calling me to go out for a job. Maybe I was to blind to see it back then, but there was a choice to be happy, or to work. Cidny must've noticed this, I was being blinded by the idea that the only thing that ended up driving me away from her. Someone is here, they open the shower door,how did they not hear the water,it's a girl, must be the couples daughter, she now looks at me. (Hi) is the first thing that pops into my mind at the time, our eyes lock, but she still doesn't seem to notice me, her arm reaches out towards me before stopping, her eyes are as white as snow, it's as if there is no life in her eyes, she then quickly moves her hand hitting my chest before screaming before laughing "why are you in my shower" she asks suddenly before saying "it's okay, I can't really seen anything (are you blind) obviously, though your presence wasn't really loud so I didn't really know you were there (you seem overly calm about this) oh ahhh there is a pervert in my shower, oh no my naked virgin body is being defiled by the gaze of a lustful man ahhhh (um) what you never met calm, beautiful, blind women before (no) well I'm glad to be the first (I'm going to leave) why ? Am I making you uncomfortable (no) well then grab that shampoo and help me wash my hair,then to the shower to top down mode pressing the button closest to the door (alright) mm finally" this outcome has really surprised me, I've never been thoroughly confused by one women such as her, she seems joke about the fact that she blind, also her sarcastic attitude towards this particular situation, its very different. Looking at this scenario, her scream was so sarcastic, but her laugh was very genuine, she must be enjoying the fact that I am here, she's blind so that means most of her senses have been enhanced due to the fact that she can't see, her parents have a very nice home, in a very expressive district, she could have regained her sight through surgery, she must be the type that believe her handicap defines them as a person, but from her sarcastic demeanor she probably just doesn't really care "alright thanks for that, I bet you're probably wondering why I'm so calm (I could be) well I'm not like most people, and neither are you, if you were any other guy you'd refuse , because you would get to nervous then run out of here, or you'd take in the fact that seeing my naked body has excited you so try to rape me or something,but you give off some type of presence I've never really felt before (hmm) hmm? That's all you have to say, wow! you really are different (how did you…) I found you in an alley near my house, on one of my runs, you weren't talking or moving, but you were giving of this presence (what type of presence)  a painful one that for sure, it was that of an injured dog I guess (by the way…) my name is karma (haha) ooo!? It laughs (it) yes it, you give the vibe that of a dog, you still are which is very funny to me (you don't seem to be laughing) oh I'm sorry hahaha is that what you want (well karma shall we continue this conversation out of the shower) hmmm let me think, of course we will" after she finished washing her hair, we both exited the shower,for someone who is blind she seems very much in tone with her movement also her awareness of her surroundings, is almost that of my own awareness whenever I close my eyes, her body has a scar on the foot, another on her forcep, in the shower I couldn't get a good look at her body do to the steam though she senses my eyes on her, then she proceeded to look at me while squinting, her mother called for her soon after. Checking my gauntlet my messages weren't sent. Mikki must be panicking hopefully Cory would calmed her down in my stead, the clothes karma's father gave me fit as if they were my own, walking to where they're all located, I spot a picture frame with karma in it, in the phone it seems she sitting on top of a tank with an anti material rifle with a larger squad of females, there is one male in the photo he looks very old and grey the lettering in the tank has a name on it the pale fox, using my gauntlet I send a message asking Candyce to give me everything on the pale fox. Looking at more of the photos it seems her father served in goliaths homicide division a long time ago, her mother seemed to have been a prosecutor. This whole scenario just keeps getting more interesting, I really should head back, but my instincts tell me to stay. Karma has been watching me in this hallway the whole time, "finding anything interesting (why am I here) ugh cmon (where are we going) were going to eat" her family let me have dinner with them, where I learn that karma's father's name is Kade, and her mother's name is Iris, they tell me the story of how they first met. Kade and Iris use to hate each other more than anything, but while Iris was working with Kade on a case they got into a firefight, after it ended they just couldn't help but laugh at the fact that even though they hated each other they couldn't stand the fact of letting the other die by someone else's hand, so somehow in there relationship they agreed to get married then had their first child and named her Karma based on the fact that their hate for each other drove them closer. Though looking at them they seem to enjoy each others company. Kade starts asking me questions "so James is it (yes) so what do you think of my daughter 'father!' don't get mad at me I am curious what he thinks (what I think doesn't matter) that a very vague answer, dodging the question can lead me to assume that you dislike her (it's not that) then what is it (it's different) I know she is very different 'dad, h stop talking about me like I'm not here' did you know she stood by your side when you slept also she took notes (no I did not) my daughter doesn't really like people all that much, but you, you seem to have gotten her attention,how is that? (Can't tell you) can't or won't (why don't you ask her) alright, karma what do you think of this young man 'are you enjoying yourself dad' yes yes I am now tell me what you think of James, I mean you did go in the shower with him in it 'dad can we just enjoy dinner' ooooo did you just say we !? Oh my daughter is growing up so fast how cute, so future son in law you going to take responsibility 'bleh future son in law dad I haven't even known him for that long' yes but I can see there is a strange connection between you two, just like me and your mom, I hate her guts, but I would do anything for her to be happy, I would go to the end of the world and back again if she asked it, so! What are you going to do (I already have someone) 'see dad there's no need to…' you don't love them though (what do you know) I know enough to understand that your lying 'dad stop pressuring' no honey this boy is intriguing I can see why you like him, so son, why are you lying (I'm not your son, and I'm not lying) oh I don't care that your lying to me all I care about is you lying to yourself (I do love her) don't you feel the emptiness in your words (you don't know anything) and neither do you, I can see the guilt behind your words, let me guess you did something horrible to this woman and now you feel guilty in the fact that your all she has left (karma your... father… he's very perceptive) 'well he was a homicide detective he like getting to the bottom of things it's just something he likes to do' well I'm sorry for pushing your buttons James, but you really shouldn't lie to yourself or to those around you it could get you killed… I mean you already look pretty empty your eyes are lifeless, all I can see is someone in immense pain my daughter can sense it (your not what I expected sir) neither are you son, by now I thought you would get up out of your chair and attack me, I mean that what I've been trying to get you to do (what would be the point of that) seeing raw anger ? I guess it's like watching TV (thank you for the meal, I'm going to be leaving now) no not yet you and my daughter need to talk more can you at least stay for her sake, she did save you after all (sure)"throughout that whole conversation I felt as if it brought up more questions than answers even though the conversation didn't seem like it was going to end up the way it did. Sometimes I have control over the conversation due to the emotional output given by the opposition, but kades curiosity as well as his knowledge of the human mind, gave him an advantage over me. During our conversation there were many times, I could've gotten angry or mad, but instead his curiosity for my love life piqued my own interest which is not something that was expected, it showed me that the guilt that is within for killing Cidny family, letting her die, is still latching itself on to my hard, the same for mikki, I feel guilty for killing Chris, who was my only friend, maybe Kade is right, that means I've been dragging them along the way to my own self destruction. Meanwhile Kade take Isla, and then leaves while smiling at me, karma seems to be acting very awkward, probably due to that fact that her father was somehow trying to embarrass her in front of me, though everything he told me, didn't phase or affect what I think about her. She then grabs me hand taking me up to her bedroom, while in her bedroom she lays out a futon telling me "alright you're going to sleep here for the night" though she doesn't let go of my hand, realizing that fact after a couple of minutes she then let's go of my hand stating "oh shit" while reaching for hand sanitizer, my heart beats faster as my shadow appears around her,it tries grabbing her, to prevent that I pull her towards me "ahh what the hell (sorry) no your not (lets have sex).... What ! No you… I uh… you could have diseases or something (fine) wait wait wait did you just say that to rile me (yes… I'm going to go to sleep) you mother fucker, no you can't just go to sleep after that. What am I not attractive to you (you are very attractive, you have a slim figure that compliment your pretty face, also your personality is very interesting, also somehow it's very calming to me).... that was umm thank you mmm what the hell why did you just kiss me (don't know, do you want me to stop?) No!" Her lips are very soft, she tries tangling her tongue with mine, her hands are cold, as she slowly feels the scars on my face, her left hand slowly goes up my back as she digs her nails (mmm "Oh are you okay? Yes let's keep going) laying her back on the bed, both her hands reach my back now, she then pulls her lips from mine while trying to unbuckle my pants "wait… (what's wrong?) I don't want that thing you might have some type of disease or something (pwah hahaha) this isn't funny (it is) alright maybe a little mmm… your like a dog (is that bad) nope" she didn't know I could tell that it's her first time, everytime I thrusted into her she would try covering her mouth either by kissing me or with her own hand, she seems to be trying to compose herself, though every time she tries the speed increase, after about fifteen minutes we've seem to have made it all the way to the hallway, though we stop as she accidentally shoves her nail into my eye (ow fuck "oh I'm sorry… are … you okay" yeah just slow down your breathing "slow… down… are you kidding me ? Anyhow where are we?" We're in the hallway "what the you over sexualizing idiot… what couldn't you just stay in the room" ow ow stop hitting me "this isn't funny…. Alright maybe a little" why are you cuddling up to me "shut up, just let me have this… you know you have a lot of scars… do they hurt" yes "I'm sorry to hear that… why do you have so many" I'm a pathetic failure "hmm I can see it" haha you know your something else "you should look into the mirror sometime" hahaha "so tell me about this girl that you love") after picking her up, we went to her room where I told her everything that me and Cidny went through together as we would further progress in the story she would begin to cry and laugh, she could believe it was love, but she believed it was me trying to pay her back in some way for taking her old life away from her, "so let me get this straight you killed her brother's her father and her guardian (yes) then you took her away from school because you said you needed her by your side, but you couldn't really explain why (yes) and then she died in explosion, but can back to life through cybernetics, after that you got back together for a short time before you realized you were causing her more harm than good (yes) and then by some miracle you found eachother again, but then she lied to you because she wanted to protect you (yes) then you told her you don't love her anymore but you really don't know what you feel, Because you don't know what it truly means to be in love in the first place (yes) and then you chose to sleep with her friend because you need physical intimacy to calm yourself, or else you'll start losing it (yes) but in the end you're still causing yourself pain (yes) wow… that's a headache (it can be) I still don't thinks it's love though, I just think it's your mind telling you that (it could) well when your around her does it feel as if your heart is about escape out of your chest (no) how about whenever your with her, you knees get weak with anticipation to hear her voice (no) how about this, do you feel like your existence is only to be by her side (I don't know anymore) then it's not love (you sound like your dad) ouch that kinda hurts, well whatever I'd like to meet her though (fine) really!? (Sure what's the harm) you… your so cute when your dumb (why did you save me) I already told you (just tell me) fine I can't explain it all that well, but I could hear you cry out some how, when I found you in that alley, you felt broken as if you couldn't accept yourself if that makes any sense (hm) you know I kinda like you (hm) your honest, but seem to have this weird aura that attract women to you (never though about it) hahaha that's rich (what's so funny) hi my name's James Huntely adams and I like killing people and also being a fuck stick (I don't sound like that) cmon you know you do (I like you too) ooo say that again (I like you too) I don't know if I believe you, I mean you've only known me for about ten hours… look me in the eyes (ha) yeah I'm bland but being this close to you, as well touching you, I can feel you bodies vibration, it make me feel warm inside (your hands are still cold ) asshole don't ruin the moment (ow ow okay I'm sorry)  you know I won't ever be able to see you (but you can feel…) you don't get it, i mean sure you feel very good also is makes my heart's stutter when you touch me also it make me nervous, but… ah nevermind is it okay if we just stay like this for a while (okay)" this has happened before, this has happened between me and cidny, my memory of that time is very staggered, all I can really remember are small fragments, this reminds me no matter what you try to do differently life just has a way of going in giant circle, it sounds stupid now that think about it, but sometimes a simple answer is the only one, If I could answer every small dilemma that way. After my night with karma, my gauntlet received a message from Cory telling me that Cidny came over to see me, also that she brought cleo. Looking at megan, she seems to be very relaxed, so leaving her a note that has my email, arriving at the black swan,I realize that I'm heading into a whirlwind, instead of hearing through the front door, I'll get in through my room which is on the third floor , while climbing Hank spot me asking me "what are you doing" whiteout giving him an answer he then runs away to most like meet me in my room, but in my room to my surprise is Candyce, Cidny who is holding cleo, and Mikki who just looks at me with a surprised smile. It seems that my entrance ruined their conversation as they stare at me while at try to change clothes, Candyce asks Cidny "does he seem different to you" Cidny then get up with Cleo in her arms as she walks up behind me, she starts smelling me, not even a second after she gasps, turning to her, she seems to be covering her mouth as she begins to cry, she doesn't even look my way (what's wrong?) I ask that already knowing that she can smell the perfume of another women, then she storms out of my room, Mikki says "your a fucking asshole… Cidny wait" before chasing after her, Candyce then walks up to me, before she tries raising her hand I grab her arm, then throwing it away from me she then screams "what is wrong with you (nothing!) Don't you use that tone with me (I can use whatever tone I want, now leave me) no your going to her and apologize (later) no right now you need to be apart of Cleo's life and Cleo needs a mother as well as her father (I can't be her father) what did you just say (I said I can't) can't ! Or won't ! (You decide) your better than this (what do you know, all you would do is tell me where to go and who to kill) I'm sorry, I made you into a monster I know that, and it pains me to think about it, but you can better than me (what makes you think I can Candyce look at me I kill and murder people, how can I be a father if I'm a fucking monster) I've know you long enough to understand that your not a… (know me long enough ? Don't lie to me, all you ever did was pretending to be the mother I never had, but you didn't do that correctly, so don't you even try to..) Chris would disappointed in you (listen here bi… did you hear that) gunshots! (There's weapons in that locker)" the sound of gunshots came from the parlor room, rushing down the stairs we are attacked by US military forces, after finishing them off as well as securing the second floor we then run into Megan who tells us were getting hit from both sides of the building, I then direct her to gather all the kids in the orphanage then make it to the panic room when getting to the parlor room we stepped over the bodies of children that were killed in the crossfire, we keep getting shot at on are way to the parlor room as there is a long hallway before the next set of stares, there are bodies left and right, suddenly while taking fire, Candyce takes two rounds in the chest seeing that, I then rush the squad of US soldier shooting them until they stop moving, the soldier who shot Candyce tripped over the body of a child trying to pull out his side arm, I then grab the slide off his pistol using it as a knife to stab him, the child he tripped over was Hank, looking at his body I am then grazed by incoming fire, using the dead soldiers rifle to kill the one who grazed me, my left hands starts to feel numb while I walk to Candyce, looking at her my knees start to feel weak as they fall to the ground, I shed no tears as my arms bring her body closer to me, someone is walking up the stairs pointing Candyce's revolver in that direction, two soldiers try to fire at me, Candyce's revolver blows both their heads clean off, a voice calls out to me from the stairs "h!!" It's Mikki she sees me with Candyce, then runs to me while I'm still holding her "oh no no no no no no no no no" she grabs Candyce from me as she cries more than she has ever done before, gabbing Mikki's shotgun, I make my way to the parlor room, Megan is protecting Cidny as they both try to gun down as many soldiers as they can, in the doorway I'm stopped by cory whose been shot in both legs "H… I know this is… a bad look for me (Candyce… she…) fuck… alright I managed to gr… grab your… helmet… take it and kill everyone also I g.. got this for you" putting on my helmet Cory gives me the sword that was broken when I killed Chris, my grip tightens around the handle closing my eyes, the sound of Cleo screaming my mind then goes black as the images of myself smiling reaches out to me saying "join me" grabbing his hand my body start to feel like it's on fire, running towards the soldiers, I slice the first one in my sight in half, then the others suprised try composing them selves before they get slaughtered, Megan as well as Cidny stopped firing as I go berserk on them, the soldiers who try running away loose their legs before my hand bash their face into the ground until they stop moving outside of the black swan there are trucks start leaving. I want to chase after them, but there is creaming in the black swan going inside, it looks like someone has knocked out megan, a soldier is attacking Cidny. My body has never move so fast as I impale the man to a wall before penetrating his chest with my right hand ripping out his heart, then ripping his head clean of his shoulders, looking at Cidny, she then give me a look I've never seen before, it was a look of fear walking to her she screams "don't get any closer" as she points a gun at me. Under my helmet my face begins to cry as my chest tightens, looking around there are bodies everywhere orphans, us soldiers, and even some of the girls who come to visit. Jasmine then come through the door, sweeping through with a large group of mercenaries, she tries asking me where Candyce is, but all I do is look at her, she can't see my face, she knows my silence tells her everything medics check up on the wounded, Cory then walked out of the doorway with mikki, Jasmine approaches them, they talk for a second before Jasmine runs to Candyce body, in a matter of seconds I hear jasmine screaming at the top of her lungs, Cidny picks up cleo, I try walking to her, but she then points her gun at me, moving a step forward she fires a round that goes past the side of my helmet, she then states "I won't miss nextime" though my foot moves forward then she fires at me shooting me in the head, my helmet reflect it, but she looks at me with a face of fear for her own life as well as Cleo "you ever try to contact us I will kill you" she says before she is escorted away with the other mercenaries. Moments passed before I take my helmet off, looking at the indent of the round the echoes of what Candyce said about Chris being disappointed in me stick in my head, my body then collapses to the ground with my back to a wall, hours pass, and I'm still sitting again the wall looking at my helmet, the cleaners already came by to get rid of the boding, most of the mercs are still here helping the wounded, Jasmine sits at a table with Candyce's body laying on top of it, is next to her trying to comfort her the best way she can. Cory walks over to me with whiskey in hand, he tries to say something, but everytime he just ends up closing his mouth he then just gives me a bottle of whiskey as he limps away, Jasmine starts waking my way with murderous intentions, she kicks me in the skull over an over, she is saying something to me, but I can't hear it, she starts pulling me by my cooler as she shouts as wells as cries the only thing at get to me is when she falls down on her knees saying "why… why… why won't you say anything, just please say something…" Mikki then picks her up as the mercs take Candyce's body and leaves, Mikki sees them out the door, after they all left she looks at me, her face looks sad, she's walking towards me, she takes the bottle of whiskey from me, as she drinks in front of me when it's halfway empty she smashes the bottle on my skull stating "c'mon do something, at least make an expression" she get on her knees forcing my eyes by manipulating my face to look at her, she kisses me trying to get a reaction in the end she gives up, then she heads to her room. Cory looks at me from a far in his drunken state he give me a thumbs up. Looking at my visor my reflection is distorted half is covered in shadow, smiling with snow white eyes. In a rage I bash my helmet into the wall, to a point where the helmet becomes stuck in place. My shadow appears in front of me, taunting me, he told me that this was inevitable due to the fact that I enjoy the fight, that it also gives me great pleasure to taking people's lives, he's not wrong, it's gotten to the point to where I've almost forgotten my own identity, a lover, a father, a friend I am none of these things those who were close to me would deny this fact, but by denying this fact caused those close to me to get hurt, chris, kelly, Monika, francis, and now Candyce. Denying who I am caused me to fail all of them, my shadow is telling me to join him, and he'll erase the memories of my failures, during my fight with the US soldiers he said it was just another taste of the abilities I can obtain when accepting my true self. 

when reaching to shake his hand someone then walks through the door, a drunk Cory goes to the door, he then let's them in to my surprise it's karma, my shadow then looks at me as his smile grew wider before then disappearing, Cory doesn't realize that she's blind, because he just point in my direction. Karma has enough awareness to find me on her own, my mouth opens as I try to call out to her, but no words come out, my clothes are covered in blood, seemingly enough there is  a spare clothes next to me, changing as quick as I can she has already noticed me, she stop though as she hits a chair slightly with her hand, afterwards she looks straight at me, her presence here has to be some type of mistake, it was my mistake. After retracing my steps before leaving her home I realized that it wasn't my email that was on the note, it was my address. Her gesture towards me is one asking for help, going to her she says "you smell like a meat processing plant" pulling her towards me to embrace her, all that is said is "alright…. Don't make this more awkward than it already is" her words make me forget everything that has just happened, though it all comes back to me in an instant as soon as sit her down in front of me "alright I'm here so let's get this clear, I didn't come here to try to catch you seeing someone else, I mean I can't see so it doesn't really matter, and we're also not dating but I just wanted to talk to you about…" hearing her talk about events that have conspired outside of the life I've lived, is like a breath of fresh air. My gauntlet starts receiving messages from Michael telling me that he took seven hundred thousand us rollers from my bank account also he is going to assist Cidny in leaving Goliath and that they're leaving today. (Karma ? "Oh sorry for rambling on" I have to go "wait but I just got here… are you crying" karma call your father and tell him to pick you up "no wait can you at least tell me what's wrong… Hunt") running out the door, I get on my bike to head to the airport which is not far, but michael sent those messages as they were leaving to the airport, the last part of his message was done follow us, Cidny as well as cleo leaving Goliath would actually be better, because then they'll be out of harm's way, but something has come over me. Arriving at the airport, I can see that Jasmine is there talking to Cidny, as soon as they see me Jasmine tries to rush her and Cleo away, Jasmine's mercenaries try stopping me, as I'm getting closer to them more and more mercenaries attack me, they just won't stop coming, it takes twenty of them to hold me down, they taze me as I watch Cidny leave with Cleo (no!) Finally breaking free my legs move as fast as they can go before Jasmine shoots me with a tranquilizer dart, it slows me down, then she fires seven more time before I go down, the last thing that was visible was watching Cidny's plane leave.