9 I don't hate you anymore

Beau

Quiet.

There is no noise.

The voices in my head are gone.

This is the most real I have felt in a while.

I open my eyes and I am in a room. An unfamiliar place. The last thing I remembered was the cave. I was being punished, by my father. Why am I here now?

I stand up from the bed and the blanket around me falls to the floor. I am naked. There is mud all over me, but other than that I seem to be fine.

"Fuck" I grab my head from the pain springing up and at that moment the door clicks and opens. At first, I don't know what to think. The fact that I am naked is freaking me out more than it should—fuck I walk around naked in our community. I grab the blanket and cover my junk.

Bloodsucker?

What the fuck is he doing here?

He closes the door to the room but doesn't come any closer "What are you doing here?" I go straight to the point "What am I doing here, what the duck is this?" I am rambling.

''Hold up" he raises his hands up. He looks nervous. Why is he nervous. I don't know what is happening right now? He remains still but speaks up "I saved you"

Uh.

"Are you insane. Saved me from what?"

"You were hurting. In that cave; in chains. I got you out of there" he is proud of himself but he doesn't know what he has done. What the fuck, how did he even find me?

"Are you crazy, did anyone ask you to save me?" I pace around the room because I am freaking out. Father is going to look for me and when he doesn't find me, he will kill me.

Fuck. I pace around the room in search of my clothes. "What are you looking for?" he asks calmly. I am so confused about this situation. The last time I saw him, he wanted my head for breakfast and now he is saving me. This cannot be happening.

"You didn't have clothes on when I found you. I got you a couple of mine. They might be a little tight but they'd fit" he waves a bag in the air. I walk over to him and he moves away so fast that he hits the door with a loud thud. It almost seems like he is terrified. I raise a brow "Sorry, here you go" he hands me the gym bag and I collect it from him.

"You should have a shower. You stink of dog." he scrunches up his nose and for a second a smile creeps up to my face before I even know what I am doing. What the fuck am I doing?

I shake my head and walk into the bathroom. The first thing I see is my reflection in the mirror. I look terrible. Fuck, there are dark circles around my eyes. My hair is fur on my head, messy and dirty. I have mud all over me. I know how this happened. I remember it vividly. I am weak, I haven't hunted In a while. I don't even know how long I was in that cave.

Is father looking for me?

He must have gone back by now; noticed that I am not there anymore. I shake all the thoughts out of my head and walk into the shower. As the hot water hits me, a little feeling comes back. My senses heighten a little and I feel alive. I need meat to get my full abilities back.

I think about Alanis and the fact that somehow at this moment I didn't even think about ripping his head off. I don't want to kill him; I don't want to say I am grateful for him getting me out of that cave because I should take my punishment like a man but a part of me is glad that I am out of there.

I walk out of the bathroom dressed in a pair of sweats and a plain black tee. The shirt is mostly tight around my arms but overall, it is not as bad as I thought it would be. Alanis is seated on the bed and there is a silver tray covered on the table "I got you something to eat. Didn't know what you like, so stuck with Eggs and bacon" he looks fucking nervous.

"I don't want fucking eggs," I tell him and grab the handle of the door. He stands up from the bed "You need to eat...please eat something."

"Why do you care?"

He laughs and scratches the back of his neck nervously "I don't care. You just need food"

I smile and this time I don't try to hide it "Seems like you do" I raise a brow in a sort of challenge. He looks away from me and to the food "I heard the food is the best thing about this place. Just have a couple of bites" he pleads.

''The only thing that can help me right now is meat with a lot of blood dripping from it." I smirk with a wink.

I swear I see a blush. Fuck is it possible for the palest vampire I have ever met to blush because looking at his face right now—he looks alive. This cannot be happening.

"I can get meat for you"

Huh?

Why would he do that?"

"Are you going to kill a deer for me?" I tease.

He nods "I am fucking fast. It would be the easiest shit. Just say the word and I am there"

At this point, it feels like we are flirting. I am so lost in this moment, it is terrifying. I must be insane right now because I sit down on the bed and grab the tray "This will do for now"

He releases a sigh of release and sits down next to me. Is he gonna watch eat? What kinda sick game is he pulling? I open the tray and sure enough, there are eggs on the plate. He is still watching me and this is weird as fuck. What is his game?

I grab the fork and put it in my mouth. This isn't going to do anything for me. All the energy in me that I have lost will be regained once I have meat but the guilt of leaving him here when he thinks he might have saved my life is a lot.

"Is it good?" he asks still watching me. His facial expression is expectant. I don't know exactly what he thinks this thing is but I need to ask him. We are not friends. We never will be, so what is all this about?

"It is" I take another fork. He smiles and something happens in my heart. I don't understand it but some form of tugging is going on inside me. I have never had this kind of feeling in me.

"Why did you come after me?"

I have to ask because I need to know. Being in that cave was the worst kind of pain I have ever felt but I wasn't in any real danger. I knew I was going to come out of it alive. My father was just trying to teach me a lesson. He wanted me to grow up and he thought that was the best way to pass the message across.

Why did Alanis think I was in danger and how did he even enter the cave? No one has ever been able to enter the cage before. Talk less of a fucking vampire. It is just not possible.

"I had a dream"

I furrow my brows in confusion at his reply "About?"

He shrugs "It was very vague; you were in it. I saw the cave, saw you hurting, and somehow I had to help you" he tells me like it is the most normal thing to say. Why is he having dreams about me?

"Do you always have dreams about me?"

He shakes his head immediately "Never, after our fight, I felt really guilty. I kept thinking about you and then I didn't see you at school. I knew something was wrong but your friends were of no help"

"You talked to my friends?"

He nods "Isabelle almost cut my head off. She screamed so loud in the cafeteria that everyone heard"

I smile because that is so like her. She is probably pissed off at my father and she took it out on him. "Don't you think this is weird. You worried about me?"

He nods "Fucking weird but I can't control it. I don't know what this is but I don't hate you anymore"

Wow.

"I am sure you still hate me?" he is enquiring. I know he wants me to brush it off and tell him no but I don't have any feelings towards him. I don't even think about him. He is nothing important to me "You don't cross my mind dude. you're still just a bloodsucker to me" my words are harsh but I need him to understand that he can't all of a sudden want to be friends with me.

"Oh." he manages. The rest of breakfast is quiet and he just watches me with a sad expression on his face but all I want to do is leave this room and never have to face this kind of awkwardness with him again.

I stand up and he does the same he looks worried. "I gotta go," I tell him scratching the back of my neck nervously. Come on dude, leave this situation. I walk to the door, he is still quiet. He doesn't stop me. I leave the room and stop in front of the hallway because I don't like the way I am feeling. Why am I hesitant to leave him. The door opens suddenly "I can drop you off, so you don't have to walk all the way" again with the expectant expression.

Fuck.