I love you

I force my heavy limps out of bed, sitting on the edge I stretch out. I had a fantastic first sleep and a fantastic first night here. I smile reminiscing about last night with Simon. I look back at the bed, Simon wasn't here. He usually gets up early and goes for a run in the morning. I quickly shower, brush my teeth, get dressed and make my way to the kitchen. There's a note on the counter.

'Gone for my morning run. Will grab some stuff for breakfast on way back. Fresh coffee already brewed for you.Simon'

I smile looking at the note, I turn to the coffee pot and pour myself some and make my way to the garden. The garden was as big as two football pitches combined, from the garden you could see the other fields with horses and sheep. The scenery made me feel relaxed and peaceful. I find my spot, there's a hanging chair over-looking the garden. I could see myself sitting under the pergola when it's raining wrapped up in a blanket.

The sound of the door closing brings me back to reality. I jump off the chair making my way back inside with a smile on my face. Our eyes meet straight away but his expression is off, he looks away as soon as he sees me. That's odd, usually he can't keep his eyes off of me. Did something happen? I decide to ignore it, maybe i'm just over thinking it.

"Good morning" I say walking over to him

"Morning" he smiles and gives me a peck on the lips "How did you sleep?"

"Amazing, thank you" I couldn't stop smiling

"Mmm I bet you did" he smirks at me

"You?"

"I had a good sleep. Well, after you woke me up" he says softly. That did scare me a little, just seeing how he was shivering and shaking from a dream made me a little sad.

"Do you always have those nightmare?" I ask softly. I watched as his face hardened, I regretted asking the question, maybe I overstepped.

"Not always. Sometimes" I can tell he doesn't really want to talk about it

"If you ever want to talk about it.. I'm"

"Thanks but I'm good. Nothing to talk about" he says bluntly. Ouch, why is he being like that? I stay quiet not knowing what to say next. I watch as he lays the eggs and pancake mix on the table. The silence was killing me.

"You want some coffee?"

"Yes please" he replies, I walk over to the kettle and pour some out. My heart was racing, I wanted to know why Simon was being off, but I didn't want to push to much. I hand him the coffee before heading back to the garden with mine. I think it's best to leave him be. Is what I feared actually happening? I know he's always lived alone, maybe he is rethinking his decision to have me here. I sigh.

It's been a while since Simon has been making breakfast, I catch a glismp of him carrying out a tray. He carefully places it on the table. Scrambled eggs, pancakes and fresh orange juice. It all looks so yummy and I was starving.

He didn't say a word he just sat down on the chair opposite of me tucking into his breakfast. We eat in silence. Once we finished Simon took away the plates and tray back inside.

"Thanks for breakfast" I say as he sits down.

"You're welcome" his tone short

"Simon..I" he looks at me

"Are you upset with me or rethinking the whole moving in together, because I'm picking up a weird vibe and I'd rather address it now" I swallow. My heart racing so fast, didn't help that he was staring at me and frowning.

"No not at all" he shakes his head "I'm glad you're here" he rubs his face

"Do you? Because you've been blunt and quiet all morning. I would rather you tell me now" My face serious.

"It's just... Last night when um" he seems all choked up

"Last night when you were drifting to sleep, you said" I frown I him. I don't remember this I must have been half asleep

"What did I say?"

"You said I love you" my eyes fly open, my head spinning. Oh god. He must be so freaked out that's why he has been icing me out this morning.

"I-I'm sorry, I didn't" I struggle to get the words out. My face feels like it's burning, he's eyes on me, starring. Come on say something anything "I didn't mean it" I blurt out "Is that why you been icing me out?" I ask

"What do you mean you didn't mean it?" he sits up, his face dark

"I don't .. I'm sorry I said that, you're clearly freaked out and acting different with me"

"I'm not acting different" he raises his voice a little.

"I'm sorry, I-I" I shake my head and get up. I'm so embarrassed, I said I love you and he clearly doesn't feel the same way. In my defence I was never going to reveal my feeling for him any time soon. Before I have the chance to leave he catches my hand and pulls me onto him.

"Simon let go" I try to get up and get out of his hold but he has me trapped under his arms. There was no way I could get out of his hold, he has the upper hand.

"No, tell me if you meant it or not first" he grunts, I look into his dark and serious blue eyes. He's not going to let this go, I sigh I give up

"Yes, I did. I have.. I couldn't help but fall hard for you. I'm sorry." I look down in embarrassment.

"I can't help how I feel and I completely understand that you don't feel the same there's no pressure for you to say anything to me or even if you never feel like that, that's fine" my voice slowly fading out. That was a lie, I wanted him to feel for me what I felt for him. How I constantly thought about him, how every cell every atom in my body burn every time he kissed me or touch me.

"Why are you sorry?"

"Because you're freaked out, I get it. Our first night here together and I blurt this out while half asleep"

"Don't be sorry please. I'm sorry. I don't think I handled it too well. I just didn't know how to process what you said" he pushes my hair away form my face and then places it on the back of my neck before pushing me towards his lips.

I accept the kiss "I am privilege to be loved by you" he smirks at me. I couldn't help but smile. he moves my leg so I'm straddling him, his eyes dark and full of want. His mouth moves to my neck, his hands pushing up my skirt. I place my hands on his broad shoulders steading myself

"Simon, stop what if someone sees us" he chuckles

"No one will. This is private property. There's not one out here but us" he says between kisses. He pulls back, staring in to my eyes. His finger hooks in my panties and slips inside, I let out a soft moan still looking into his predatory eyes. I breathing out harshly as he starts thrusting his finger back and forth, I couldn't look away his eyes held me hostage. The look on his face was off pure enjoyment, he loved watching me unravel and turn to mush at his hands.

"Let me have you princess" he whispers in my ear then bites my lobe. I look at him and bite my lip

"Yes Simon" I whisper back.

"Good girl" with my permission given he pushes down his shorts a little and his member comes springing out. My eyes widen as he rips my panties from the front throwing it to the floor and eases me onto him and I start moving. His mouth on my neck kissing and sucking away. I start moving faster

"Tell me again" he moans in my ear

"What?" I play coy

"Tell me what I wanna hear sweetheart " his mouth move to my breast sucking hard, I yelp as he starts gently bitting my nipples.

"I love you Simon" his hands move to my waist controlling my movements. His making me move faster and he's thrusting hard. I come around him moaning his name. After a few thrust he does too

"Fucckkk" he curses. He grabs my face in his hand, still inside me I could feel him twitching

"You're all mine... You belong to me" he rubs his finger on my bottom lips. He whispers "Fuck" before looking deep into my eyes

"I love you" his voice low. My eyes open wide, it felt like my heart had stopped, time itself had stopped before I could say anything he kisses me again and gets up with me in the air

We walk back inside and He takes me to the stairs putting me down and spinning me around.

"I'm not done with you yet" He slides in from the back.

"Grab here" he says guiding my hand above my head to grab the railing.

He starts thrusting grunting and moaning as he does. "Fuck you feel so good my sweet girl" He pumping hard and fast

"Argh Simon, I cant" pleasure was coursing trough me. His movements made my whole body jolt and shiver

"Don't worry baby you can take it, that's it just like that" I arch my back giving him more access.

"Moan for me" I moan his name. He chuckles "Fuck I love it"

"Just a little more" his voice so raspy, undoing me. I explode violently my body shaking.

"mmm" he moans in my ear and erupts inside me. Both panting he turns me around and kisses me.

"Simon" I moan

"let's go get you cleaned up baby. I'll run you a bath" he smirks at me